| I was doing so well. I'm off track again.
AH I HATE THIS
I NEED CONTROL.
I wish it was cold & snowing & winter-like. It's always easier for my to lose weight then and be anorexic for some reason, yeah I know that sounds dumb, but whatever. |
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| Sometimes I wish I had the challenge of trying to not eat when parents force you to eat.
Instead I hear things like.. (example from 15 minutes ago) "Get some fries Stephen before your sister comes and eats them all"
Atleast that made me not even go to the table to eat, I turned right around and came to my room.
I hate this. |
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| I'm proud of myself for the weight I have been loosing. I haven't exactly been not eating completely, but I have eaten like one thing a day and then puked it all up so I guess it's equvielent to nothing.
I'm not sure how much I weighed when I started, all I know is that on Wednesday morning I was 156 then I had a huge binge day before my fast, like HUGE, so I was probably like 158 haha.
But yesterday morning I was 153.5 and then this morning I was either 151.5 or 151 so i'm working my way down there. I really think I am going to do it this time, well I like to believe that I am.
I hope you all are doing awesome! Stay strong! |
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| Hey. I'm starting a fast tomorrow. A real one. For as long as I can last. Probably won't be too long but oh well. Actaully. Scratch that. I'm going to fast until I am 142 pounds. Seriously. None less. I just decided that number right now haha. It might be like 5 days, but I need this SO bad. I think my problem lately has been that I haven't been motivating myself before fasts. It helps so much to like look at a ton of quotes & pictures & think out your goal.
I was talking to someone yesterday who said that they would rather run 7 miles than 2 miles, because those first 2 miles are so hard to get through, but after those, you can't feel anything anyways. I think that relates to eating so much. The first 3 days of fasting are so hard, but after, it's simple. I need to get through these 3 days!! I haven't in like forever!
I will probably update this entry later with quotes & all that. |
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