"Lying There"I look at you lying there Sleeping so soundly Sometimes I wish I could sleep as calm as you & I bet in your dreaming I’m there I look peaceful & maybe you’d assume I’m lost in dreaming too But despite how I try to close my eyes & join you Despite how I try to hold my breath & body still Despite how I try not to jolt you or wake you I can’t sleep I don’t breathe I won’t move Am I fulfilled? I look at you lying there & I want to love you I want to sleep for decades by your side But w/ you im restless, I’m running on empty I’m living a life where I have compromised You’d think in my sleep I’d see you in my future You’d think in my dreams I’d see our kids play on the lawn You’d think in my nightmares I’m living life without you You would think You would guess But I can’t sleep So you’d be wrong You have blue eyes & I love blue eyes I love how you’re 6 feet tall I love how we question if God’s really there And how we hate Christmas time at the mall And on paper we’re great & our stars are aligned And it looks like it was all meant to be But night after night I keep shutting my eyes & I try But I find I can’t sleep I look at you lying there sleeping without me I bet you’d never guess My restlessness just grows While I want to shut my eyes & know the things you know I can’t sleep I can’t breathe I can’t move How I wish I could wake you I wish I could jolt you I wish I could love you But wishing that I love you Isn’t really loving I suppose | 
