TUESDAY: finally done wid all my tests for junior year. so i'm officially considered a senior now.

WEDNESDAY: finally got to visit danny's grave. i've been longing for this ever since i found out what happened to him two weeks after the accident when i was still in the hospital. i thought visiting him would be sad and make me cry, but actually it was an enjoyable experience. we had so much fun talking bout our memoriez with him and looking at the scrapbooks. the view where danny is buried is sooo beautiful. u can see the whole city of whittier and everything.

then we went to this vegi chinese restaurant afterwards and talked more and then went home.

also, before the accident, i was the kind of person, that was intimidated by others and judged ppl on how they look. it was wrong for me to do so, that is why i tried my best to contact everyone those who were concerned bout me, and who sent all those get well soon cards, and commented me. i signed everyone's xangas, talked to people by phone and online, and told them to start visiting me. i <333 my friends so much, and those who really cared.

3 things i MUST do over the summer:
1) exercise
2) Study hard for SATs
3) be friends with everyone and even those weren't even there for me, and the ones who i lost contact with in middle school

and also to answer everybody's question bout me returning to DBHS for senior year. OFCOURSE I AM. SENIOR YEAR WILL SUCK IF JELENE ISN'T THERE ^_~

JUNE 14

I OFFICIALLY STARTED WALKING (WITH CRUTCHES) I CAN WALK NOW!!!!!

OK OK I'M FINALLY UPDATING. THIS B THE LAST ENTRY (THOUGH VERY LONG) CUZ I'M QUITTING XANGA. WHO KNOWZ I MIGHT GET BAKK TO IT AND CREATE ANOTHER ONE BUT I'M JUSS NOT IN THE MOOD FOR DIS.

HOME:

I FINALLY ARRIVED HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL ABOUT TWO WEEKS AGO. I DIDN'T TELL ANYONE YET BECAUZE I DON'T FEEL LIKE HAVING VISITORS (DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY I LUV U GUYZ). I HAVEN'T GOTTEN MUCH SLEEP IN THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE EACH NIGHT THEY WAKE ME JUSS TO STICK A NEEDLE IN ME OR CHECK MY BLOOD PRESSURE NOT TO MENTION I WOULD HAVE LOTZ OF NIGHTMAREZ ABOUT THE NIGHT OF THE ACCIDENT. ITS SO FRUSTRATING I WAS STARTING TO DEVELOPE DARK CIRCLES UNDERNEATH MY EYES.

WHEN MOM DROVE ME BAKK TO OUR HOUSE I GOTTA SAY GETTING IN THE CAR AND BEING OUT ON THE ROAD WAS REALLY SCARY. EVERYTHING SEEMED SO BIG AND ACTIVE. I ARRIVED HOME AND TRANSFERRED TO MY WHEEL CHAIR AND MY DAD WHEELED ME TO THE BACKYARD AND I FINALLY SAW MY DOG CUDDLES (DRESSED IN A TUXEDO) MY FIRST INSTINCT WAS TO CRY IT WAS SO EMOTIONAL FOR ME NOT SEEING MY DOG OVER A MONTH. THEN HE WHEELED ME TO THE ENTERTAINMENT ROOM AND I SAW A BIG SIGN THAT SAYS "WELCOME HOME" WITH BALLOONZ AND ALL THE GIFTS MY FRIENDZ AND FAMILY BOUGHT FOR ME. I CRIED EVEN MORE.

OK NO MORE DRAMA...
SOME EXCITING THINGZ HAPPENED AT THE HOSPITAL.
A PSYCHO TEENAGER THAT'S THE SAME AGE AS ME WAS MY ROOMMATE FOR A COUPLE OF DAYZ AND SHE WAS AT THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF DRUG OVERDOZE AND HER HISTORY IS LIKE ONE OF THOSE TEENAGE DARK MOVIEZ LIKE THAT MOVIE THIRTEEN. I WAS SORT OF HAPPY AND SCARED THAT SHE WAW ROOMMATE. SCARED CUZ SHE LOCKED US IN THE WARD AND THREW ALL THE HOSPITAL SUPPLIES AT THE WALL NOT TO MENTION HER EXCESSIVE USE OF THE WORD FUCK..FUCKING.. AND HAPPY CUZ SOMETHING FINALLY EXCITING HAPPENZ AT THIS BORING HOSPITAL. LOL.

THEN OMG THE DOCTORZ. WHEN I LEFT THE HOSPITAL PART OF ME WAS SAD CUZ I HAVE TO LEAVE AND NOT SEE ME DOCTORZ EVERYDAY. I GREW A CRUSH ON MY ORTHOPEDIC DR. BAVA. LOL MOM KEPT ON SAYING SHE THOUGHT I WAS RACIST BECAUSE I WAS ONLY INTO AZN GUYZ.

1) MY HAIRY ORTHO SURGEON DR. REID

2) MY PLAYFUL UROLOGIST DR. PASIN WHO TREATZ ME LIKE A KID

 1) MY HOT NURSE WID THE PONYTAIL GREG

 2) AND FINALLY MY CUTE ORTHO DR. BAVA. ^_~

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OTHER NEWZ...
GOT A HAIRCUT. ITZ ONE OF THOSE SHORT U-LENGTHS. YUP MY HAIR IS SHORT LOST THAT BEAUTIFUL LONG HAIR OF MINES =(. FOR THOSE OF U WHO VISITED ME AT THE HOSTPITAL U CAN'T REALLY BLAME ME FOR CUTTING MY HAIR CUZ MY HAIR AT THE TIME HAD BLOOD AND BROKEN GLASS AND ITZ ALL MATTED IN THE BACK.

MAKIN A SCRAPBOOK THAT INCLUDEZ ALL BOUT MY HOSPITAL LIFE, THE PEOPLE IN IT, THE GET WELL CARDS, AND MY TRIBUTE TO DANNY. ITZ GONNA BE LIKE ANGELA'Z THOUGHT NOT AS COLORFUL ^_~. (THANK U ANGELA AND THANK U TO ALL MY FRIENDZ WHO SIGNED IT).

AND NOTE TO LEMONHEAD COME TO MY HOUSE WHENEVER U HAVE THE CHANCE. U HAVE A SURPRISE WAITING FOR U ^_^.

I STILL DON'T PREFER VISITORS CUZ I'M STILL EMOTIONAL ABOUT THE ACCIDENT AND THINKING BOUT HOW MUCH I'M MISSING OUT ON THE SCHOOL LIFE LIKE THE SATZ AND THE DANCES IS BUMMING ME OUT. IF U BUG ME A LOT I GUESS MAYBE.....MAYBE...I'LL GIVE IN AND LET U VISIT ME (U KNOW I WILL ^_~) UNLEZZ I'M KNOKK'D OUT FROM THE PAIN KILLERZ. JUSS TEXT OR LEAVE A MESSAGE AND ALSO PLEASE LEAVE UR NAME AT THE END OF THE TEXT CUZ I LOST MY CELL AT THE ACCIDENT.

GOODYBYE FOR NOW.
LOVE, JELENE BKA SL1KK

THANK U GUYZ FOR PRAYING FOR ME <333. I'M STILL IN THE HOSPITAL. I'M USING THE HOSPITALS COMPUTER RIGHT NOW.  I MIGHT BE OUT BY NEXT WEEK *HOPEFULLY*

U GUYZ CAN STILL CONTACT ME ON MY CELL PHONE. NEW CELL BUT STILL THE OLD #. I PREFER TEXT MESSAGES CUZ I'M USUALLY TIRED.

WELLL HMMMZZ HOW I AM IN THE HOSPITAL:

I HAD 3 SURGERIES, BROKEN PELVIS AND THEY PUT A SCREW IN MY LOWER BACK AND GOT BLADDER INJURIES. EWWEEEE MY STICTCHES R SO UGGLYYY. -_-. AFTER THE HOSPITAL I'LL BE IN REHAB/PHYSICAL THERAPY. I'LL BE IN A WHEEL CHAIR IN AWHILE AND THEN I'LL BE ABLE TO WALK ^_^. I'M HANGING IN THERE. PRAYING TO GOD FOR ME TO BE STRONG AND BE HEALTHY SO I CAN GO HOME SOONER. I THANK HIM THAT HE GAVE ME THIS SECOND CHANCE IN LIFE. THIS IS A CALLING FOR ME. FOR ME TO SLOW DOWN AND CHERISH ON WHAT I'VE GOT. THE FRIENDZ I'M WITH. THE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME, AND TIME FOR ME TO SLOW DOWN ON BEING THE WILD GIRL. I LOVE U GUYZ ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO VISITED ME AT THE HOSPITAL. I LOVE THE BALLOONZ, THAT SCRAPBOOK, THE FLOWERS, ALL THE GIFTZ, AND THAT DANCE O_o. UR VISITZ MAKE ME HAPPY. BUT TELL ME IN ADVANCE IF U R PLANNING TO VISIT ME. BYE <33333

R.I.P. DANNY. BKA DUBZ.

I FOUND OUT  ABOUT IT AFTER A FEW WEEKS AFTER THE ACCIDENT. WHEN I HEARD ABOUT IT I CRIED SO HARD HUGGING MY PILLOW AND HAVING THE NURSE AND THE MOM STROKE MY HAIR. BUT I MUST BE STRONG. I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE PAIN AND SURVIVE.

I AM VERY DEVASTATED I WASN'T THERE FOR THE FUNERAL NOR THE MEMORIAL. BUT I AM VERY GLAD THAT HE WORE THAT SHIRT I GAVE HIM. <333