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Name: jessica
Interests: Jesus, music. gummy bears. jones soda. speaking pig-latin. chewing on straws. my piano. my cello. singing. my computer. movies. dancing. drill team. shopping. reading the dictionary. sleeping. prasing God. reading my bible. going out with friends. popping baloons. writing on my shoes. peanuts. watching oprah. sleeping outside. penguins. dancing. being the best friend i can be. math. missionaries. ice cream. anything acoustic. smelling coffee. books. sky diving. shoes. vh1 shows. apple juice. art mueseums. hiking. baking cookies at 4am. dancing in the rain. playing hookey. and Jesus... and more Jesus. oh yeah, and a little more Jesus. just can't get enough of Him.
Expertise: smiling at people... and making peanut butter and jelly sandwhiches.
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Yahoo:  yes_ima_cowtipper
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Member Since:
2/4/2004
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| this xanger is officially dead. ramen noodles are so gross.. and change is good.
www.xanga.com/STARRINGjessicaevelyn
goodbye.
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| edit, monday, august 8th.
go here... www.xanga.com/i_freakinghate_ramen_noodles
i decided i hate ramen noodles. they're so gross. i ate them too much, and now they're yucky in my belly.
and, i made another one. =) i know, i'm an idiot.
www.xanga.com/starringjessicaevelyn
edit again
-i'm moving to North Dakota with my dearest naomi. goodbye, kansas. i'm gone. there's so much stuff going on. i can't even believe it. things just seem to keep going wrong. nothing good ever happens anymore. no one really even cares. i'm so burnt out on life, i want out. i need out.
i need a good friend.
yesterday, sunday, was the worst day of my entire life.
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you sung me your last song, & we've danced our last dance. there's no more tomorrow, you won't give it a chance. this goodbye is for good. you're leaving it all now. i wish that you could just decide you wanted me back in your life right now. i would bring back our time if i could, i need you with me tonight. somehow.. like i knew i would.
someway-could we bring back our yesterday?
maybe someday, we could be that way, so together&perfect again.
if i could break this spell, i would be on my way to you.
so sing me this catchy song,
& dance me our beautiful dance...
please, would you give it one last chance? give me one last chance. how about one last dance...
i think i'm done dating? - i've made a terrible girlfriend in the past. whatever. the last 'boyfriend' i had, was all in it for... well... you know what he was in it for. 2 week relationships don't last - but, sometimes - i'm not gonna lie - they can help the healing process with your last relationship - or, could he have made it worse?
God, i'm ready for you to heal all of this.
even though i can't seem to quit making freaking mistakes.
hm.
i'm an idiot.
letting go is just too hard for me to do.
especially when he was everything i had ever dreamed of having. and more.
whatever. time&God's will = perfect fairytale ending. right?
i'm going crazy.
goodbye.
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COLORADO time...
what a trip.
it was incredible.
pictures and stories come soon. too tired and too sad to do so right now. i'm going to go put them on my photobucket and stuff now, though.
i'm flying with my brother, captain josh, haha, for the FIRST TIME TOMORROW. aahhhhhhhhhh! praaaay for me. i'm scared.
we're playing this show thingy together in topeka... so
yeah. i'm excited, really.
there's the gibbons gang. i love my family. so much.
there's the gibbons kids... + future sister in law. =) she's my favorite. we have a lot of fun together.
GOSH we're cool.
mmm...
blaaaaah. i miss it. come back to me, beautiful, sweet colorado. i'm going to MARRY you someday. mmmm..
i love it. haha. we have funnn... this was a very long time ago, though. in febuary. i like it. i missss that month.
 yesss..
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i just PINNED MY WINGS down, inside of your skin... i'm moving all around - you just won't let me in.
waking up in someone elses's arms couldn't have felt more wrong.
man i'm retarded.
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| i don't like mustard.
in fact,
i hate it.
it makes me naucious.
however,
the coldplay - tribute cd with strings is simply beautiful.. to say the
least. & driving around in brian totoro's sweet car listening to it
makes the cd that much better.
woaaahh.. this is really weird.
i'm listening to my dad's cd he made when he was 17 from when he was in
his band "penny arcade", and one of the songs is called "my little
girl", and it was for his girlfriend at the time - and it's just super
weird hearing him talking about his "little girl" back then, and i'm
his "little girl" now. haha. weirdness. it's a good song, though. =) i
love my daddy.
i had a SWEET dream the other night.i had it down to perfection. i woke
up and just wanted to go back to sleep & dream a little more. it
was so perfect in every way!..... BLAH!!
neat show last night. i like aurora. a lot.
i babysat this morning. and we played doctor, i told them scary ghost
stories in the dark, we taught the girls a dance to Jesus loves me,
& we played a whole lot of fun games. i can't wait to be a mom, -
drive my kids everywhere, cook nice dinners, teach them how to love and
about the one who loves them more than anything, teach them about
music, & grow them into being wonderful children of God, seeking
after Him. -& then my husband and i will grow old together, maybe
in colorado? =) and i'll knit and he'll do crossword puzzles. haha.
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this is how it is.
if you're looking for love, & we all are, or, we all have - it's simple, and so so so very true. the love that your
heart is yearning for is in the one we can't see. i was at a bible
study on thursday night, and someone said something about how your
heart has this hole in it - this hole that only GOD can fulfill. so
many girls i know go around... guy to guy to guy, trying to get that
satisfaction. trying to fill that hole - and they can't! - only JESUS
can do that! Jesus is all of the satisfaction you will ever need! i
just wish every girl was able to know that...
i'm going to do something about that.
you'll just see... i will.
i'm off to colorado.
yep. i is. call me and leave me a message - or your address if you want me to send you a post card! =)
& i'll leave you with these...
   
totttallly dyed her hair. how hot is that?!
 
hahahaha.
 
sometimes, you just have to love life. =)
&, the people that God placed in it.
one last thing - i am so stoked for school. i just have to say that i'm
so excited to walk the disgusting sinful hallways at olathe south and
show people how different i am, and WHY IT IS that i'm on the path less
traveled. i'm so excited. God is going to do awesome things this year.
we're talking.... like, lives that are going to be saved. forever.
YEAASDFHLKJHD!
edit::: so, i'm really, really, really mad at myself right now.this is
the first summer in 10 years that i haven't competed in my annual piano
competition, & i totally had a shot at winning this year, because i
won last year. this is me - HATING MYSELF. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......
i'msodumb! ENDEDIT.BLAH.
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| EDIT:::
ATTENTION!
just so that EVERYONE knows......
my old background picture, yeah, wasn't me and a boy. that would be my
really neat brother and his awesome and sweet girlfriend. not me. sorry
for any confusion. (cough.... ahem.... emily!) haha. gosh. do you think
i'm a tramp or something?
BLAH.
whatev.
totally kidding, guys.
emily is sitting right next to me.
okay.bye.
=)
oh, aurora has a show friday night. YOU SHOULD COME! call me for
details. if you have no idea who they are, give me a call, and come
with me. they play some pretty amazing music. you don't want to miss
out.
end edit.
Hey amanda, where'd you find these crazy boys this time???
blahblahblahblahblahblah.
ilovelovelovecopeland. oh boy.
i can seriously get my air guitar out, and amber can seriously get her
air drums out, and we can do some SERIOUS rockin'out with those guys. =)
...as well as taking our shirts off in the back of sarah's car and
waving them around the city of lenexa. (of course we had shirts on
underneath, though... i'm not that bad.) =)
i talked to someone special until 3am saturday night. it was way awesome. i loved every minute of those, like, 4 hours.
i saw wedding crashers.
amazing movie. seriously. you have to see it. HAVE TO.
i've lost a lot of weight this summer. i like it. we're talking... like... 12 pounds. yeah.
i've been reading a lot in ecclesiasties. i love it. i've read it about
6 times in the last week or so. it's so fruitful & beneficial.
check it out sometime.
goodbye now.
jess
coloradooooooo - here i come! =)
this guy has a crush on me.
you should be jealous.
 
these are the precious girls i babysit. (there's actually 4 of them...)
and i'll be babysitting them every day for the rest of the summer, forl
like 8 hours until school starts. yepppppp.
you might think we're high in this picture.
but we're not.
we're just plastering our bodies with noxema cream.
that's all.
pastor kevin asked me if i could be a regular for offertories on
sundays. so, about once a month, i guess i will be playing/singing
offertories. i'm excitedddd. i have a lot of songs i'm working on so
they will be ready to do. God has good things in store. yep.
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http://www.photobucket.com/albums/y183/genuine_eyes/
last edit-i promise =) --- i'm going to owsawatamie for the weekend,
maybe longer. i'm going to spend some time with my cousin. and we're
dying my grandma's hair. =) haha. yessss.
 yeahhhh... !!
she gets her new LIVER soon! =) yesss! i love that girl right there! - she's pretty much my little sister... yep.
look at these.... i love them -
okay. yeah. end edit: 12:45pm-friday
EDIT::::
I KNOW A REALLY BIG JERRRK.
DO YOU?
ughyy.
edit again::: okay, go to www.xanga.com/steel_or_rubber and
listen to his song. yeah. it's beauuutiful! - coldplay is my new
favorite.
i want to change my song on here, but the lady i want to be like
someday, Gina Nichols, likes it. =) so, this will be on here for a
while. =)
summer just took a turn for the good last night. i like falling asleep
in his arms, holding hands, and laughing a bunch with a really special
boy named matty. i like it. i like him. =) we have fun together. it's
kind of ironic that i put this post up about "moving on", and then the
same day, MATT happens. weird. i don't know, though. dating is.... i don't know. nevermind.
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Iowa was wonderful! Crista and i had a blast...
lots of memories, lots of fun, lots of SUN!, and too much heat. =(
this heat stroke i dealt with is still killing me. people are telling
me that i will deal with this for the rest of my life. no fun. anywho.
my hair & swimsuit are greeeeen. that stupid hotel pool had too
much chlorine in it... oh well. moldy hair is a pretty look for me. =)
don't be jealous...
Tonight, something hit me. really hard. It snapped. The plaza lights
turned themselves on inside of my head. I realized something about
myself... something that i've been doing way wrong, for very long. but
i'm not going to get into that at the moment.
But something else i'm thinking about at the moment -
The bright and perfect firefly that you have stuck in your jar has to
be shook out. He has to leave. He can't stay in there forever... but,
whether or not he returns is up to him&God's plan for their lives.
You just have to wait, pray, & hope for the best. And in the
meantime, see what else is out there. Go catch other
firefly's... the ones you'll catch might not be as bright as the last
one, or, it could very well be the other way around.you could let one
go, and find an even brighter one. but, i think, however, I'm
going to take up some of my
offers. i'm going to pursue some of the ones who have already pursued.
it's time. time to stretch the limits, and see what else, who else, God
has waiting.
God is good. and someday, the BRIGHTEST firefly will be in my jar, and
will NEVER want to leave... and will never lose the brightness of his
light. =) we will be two happy, in love, bright firefly's. =)
i'm such an idiot.
haha.
boys&firefly's.... they have so much in common. =)
actually, this is kind of cute&funny -
when i was a little girl, my brother's and i would go outside on hot
summer nights and take the lightning bugs, & wipe their guts out
onto our faces, and we would play flashlight tag with all of our other
"neighborhood brothers" & our lit up faces. =) we had the best nights together under the
stars. i miss those days.
tomorrow i'm playing badmitten with a bunch of church kids, babysitting, &going to the movies later on. oh yeah, baby.
tuesday, i'm hanging out with old friends that i love a whole lot. i'm quite excited, really.
&thursday, i'm going to an xcore bible study, and then hanging out
with my new, sweet friend emily mattern and some of her friends.
summer is nice.
have a beautiful day.
- MY THING IS MESSED UP - BUT, I'M WATCHING THE NOTEBOOK!!! -
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