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Name: Delian
Gender: Female
Interests: God, Church, out reaches, music, worship, writing, reading, youth camp, friends, playing guitar, jamming with friends... and girl nights.
Expertise: ha-ha that's not fair
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
MSN: agent3162@hotmail.com
Member Since:
12/9/2005
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| :blush:Does anyone know me anymore in this world???
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| I'm ALIVE!!!hahahaha. Yes, I am alive! Alls well.  sorry for kinda falling off teh edge of the earth. lol.
I've been doign well... tired. Physically... emotionally... spiritually. But at the same time, God has been meeting me, teaching me, caring for me... in sooo many ways! I've been strugglign with a lot of pride. My own wants... manifested in so many ways, but specefically with my season and with my family. I mean, I get up in arms about little things toward my siblings or parents... its sad... sinful. I need a lot of grace. A lot. I mean... I don't know if anyone else has this sense, but literally, yesterday during my devotions it felt like I had a huge rock inside me weighing me down... and yet, I wanted to handle it. I didn't want to say 'here's everything God... here's my sin... please give me grace' WHY DON'T I DO THAT?? aahhh. So, I just sat there... feeling miserable... but at the same time (here's God!) I felt God's grace... and loving conviction and care. I don't deserve that!
So last night, I was laying down and suddenly I had a picture that I was right there in front of God (I was strugglign with contnement as well as pride and trusting in God) and I had a picture of me with this messenger bag, and I dumped it all over (or rather tripped and it fell out) and it was all spread out across the floor making a huge mess. Not all of it was bad stuff... just tainted by the other things I had in the bag... and as I looked at all this stuff, mess... junk... I got down on my knees and started crying... pathetically, not able to do anything... I couldn't even organize anything... let alone throw anything out or keep the things I needed. Then God humbly... quietly... not saying anything... GOD... THE I AM... got down on His hands and knees and simply began picking the stuff up... all my junk. Quietly throwing out things... telling me why I didn't need it... why I shouldn't have this. Pointing at other things, saying 'this isn't bad... but you are supposed to keep it stored away in a safe spot for a while'. Meanwhile, I'm still sitting there... not doing anything. After He has it all organized... He comes, grabs my hands and begins helping me put the stuff back in the bag, neatly, carefully.
that was humbling.
but oh... how I love my God!!!!
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| who the heck is this crazy friend...
and here's an update... but I'm headed to HC. bblater
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| Bee stings hurtright after they sting... and then the next day.
Yeah, I got stung yesterday on my toe... and then kept playing frisbee which was a ton of fun... then ate... then chilled... then left to go swimming (after Ray anna and I got two outfits in record time at WalMart). We went swimming for a while (I was surprised I enjoyed it as much as I did since I'm not a big swimmer). Then I went through the great waterfall into which I stood my ground until the very end... then I fell. alas and alack. lol.
Well... the funniest story was right before we left anna dem and I got back in the water and all the sudden we hear a huge SLAP! and our group of people up out of the water are going 'ooohhhhh' and I say "schwa did something" hahaha. yeah, he had jumped off the diving board and he did something and landed on his back. hehe. but yeah. it was funny.
Then we hiked back. Chilled out... laid in the sun... and then Jarred went on a run and I made an awesome hamburger. Played Frisbee... def. won. =D. And then we chilled out some more I think. Cup game maybe? yeah... I finally figured out the cup game. Then I think we did something else... can't remember what. Played some v.ball. Then the guys left to get icecream. Anna Dem and I played guitar and sang. hahahahahaha. that was great. "I still love you... I swear..." hahahaha. Then we got icecream. John was kind enough to get me vanilla icecream with peanut butter =D. Then ate icecream mmm. Then played guitar some more with Ray singing (much better then me singing! hahaha). Then volleyball. Then I'm thinking we left.
So all in all... a fun day. =D.
PS. I will have a more 'serious' post one of these days. God has been teaching me a lot, and I wouldn't mind sharing it with yall!
~dell
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| Yo yo yo was up my bro?Yeah, better believe it...
I'M PLAYING PAINTBALL TOMORROW!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!
ok. yeah. lol. I'm done. So, I worked this morning. I worked yesterday morning. I work tomorrow morning. It's great! =D.
Anyhoo... I'll get out of here. lol. Talk to yall later!!!
~dell
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