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Wed, 14 Nov 2007 21:37:22 GMT

Does anyone know me anymore in this world???

I'm ALIVE!!!

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 15:14:18 GMT

hahahaha. Yes, I am alive! Alls well. sorry for kinda falling off teh edge of the earth. lol.

I've been doign well... tired. Physically... emotionally... spiritually. But at the same time, God has been meeting me, teaching me, caring for me... in sooo many ways! I've been strugglign with a lot of pride. My own wants... manifested in so many ways, but specefically with my season and with my family. I mean, I get up in arms about little things toward my siblings or parents... its sad... sinful. I need a lot of grace. A lot. I mean... I don't know if anyone else has this sense, but literally, yesterday during my devotions it felt like I had a huge rock inside me weighing me down... and yet, I wanted to handle it. I didn't want to say 'here's everything God... here's my sin... please give me grace' WHY DON'T I DO THAT?? aahhh. So, I just sat there... feeling miserable... but at the same time (here's God!) I felt God's grace... and loving conviction and care. I don't deserve that!

So last night, I was laying down and suddenly I had a picture that I was right there in front of God (I was strugglign with contnement as well as pride and trusting in God) and I had a picture of me with this messenger bag, and I dumped it all over (or rather tripped and it fell out) and it was all spread out across the floor making a huge mess. Not all of it was bad stuff... just tainted by the other things I had in the bag... and as I looked at all this stuff, mess... junk... I got down on my knees and started crying... pathetically, not able to do anything... I couldn't even organize anything... let alone throw anything out or keep the things I needed. Then God humbly... quietly... not saying anything... GOD... THE I AM... got down on His hands and knees and simply began picking the stuff up... all my junk. Quietly throwing out things... telling me why I didn't need it... why I shouldn't have this. Pointing at other things, saying 'this isn't bad... but you are supposed to keep it stored away in a safe spot for a while'. Meanwhile, I'm still sitting there... not doing anything. After He has it all organized... He comes, grabs my hands and begins helping me put the stuff back in the bag, neatly, carefully.
that was humbling.
but oh... how I love my God!!!!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 20:06:03 GMT

who the heck is this crazy friend...
and here's an update... but I'm headed to HC. bblater

Bee stings hurt

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 13:50:10 GMT

right after they sting... and then the next day.
Yeah, I got stung yesterday on my toe... and then kept playing frisbee which was a ton of fun... then ate... then chilled... then left to go swimming (after Ray anna and I got two outfits in record time at WalMart). We went swimming for a while (I was surprised I enjoyed it as much as I did since I'm not a big swimmer). Then I went through the great waterfall into which I stood my ground until the very end... then I fell. alas and alack. lol.

Well... the funniest story was right before we left anna dem and I got back in the water and all the sudden we hear a huge SLAP! and our group of people up out of the water are going 'ooohhhhh' and I say "schwa did something" hahaha. yeah, he had jumped off the diving board and he did something and landed on his back. hehe. but yeah. it was funny.

Then we hiked back. Chilled out... laid in the sun... and then Jarred went on a run and I made an awesome hamburger. Played Frisbee... def. won. =D. And then we chilled out some more I think. Cup game maybe? yeah... I finally figured out the cup game. Then I think we did something else... can't remember what. Played some v.ball. Then the guys left to get icecream. Anna Dem and I played guitar and sang. hahahahahaha. that was great. "I still love you... I swear..." hahahaha. Then we got icecream. John was kind enough to get me vanilla icecream with peanut butter =D. Then ate icecream mmm. Then played guitar some more with Ray singing (much better then me singing! hahaha). Then volleyball. Then I'm thinking we left.

So all in all... a fun day. =D.
PS. I will have a more 'serious' post one of these days. God has been teaching me a lot, and I wouldn't mind sharing it with yall!
~dell

Yo yo yo was up my bro?

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 01:27:42 GMT

Yeah, better believe it...
I'M PLAYING PAINTBALL TOMORROW!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!

ok. yeah. lol. I'm done. So, I worked this morning. I worked yesterday morning. I work tomorrow morning. It's great! =D.

Anyhoo... I'll get out of here. lol. Talk to yall later!!!
~dell

Friday, July 20, 2007

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 14:42:48 GMT

Here are some pictures yall!!

Yeah, we had a great time at the beach, I got a nice tan, I had some convictions from God about things going on in my life (such as sarcasm and 'shallow' friendships or rather, not God focused friendships). But yeah, pretty much the whole time we lived in this small comfy cottage about four blocks from the beach. I walked EVERYWHERE, and I LOVED IT. and minus... one thing... I loved the beach... and minus two things I loved the ocean. hahaha. One of those things for the ocean is being absolutely terrified of it!

I think I pretty much told you guys what went down when I was there. hahaha. in that snazzy coffee shop!

Well, the past is past... is it not? hahahaha. Yeah, well yesterday I worked about 8 hours cause it was busy and believe me, I LOVED IT! It was great... I half made a moccachino yesterday (meaning I pulled the shot...) and that was great! My second shot. lol. I bought some snazzy stuff shopping INCLUDING Ray's present. I hope you LOVE it girl!!! And i got myself some jewelry... daddy calls it bling bling. hahaha. oh well. I like it.

This morning I did my devotions. As I was doing them I felt the urge to write down some verses for the simple fact of giving them to friends. To encourage my friends... to direct their focus to God, and challenge them to grow. Oh that we all, as friends, would come together and grasp the Word of God... learn from it together and grow!!!! I read something yesterday that I want to write on here. hehehe. let me go get it.

I'm rewording it a little though.

"'We picture friends side by side; their eeys look ahead'" The key to friendship is a common goal or object on which both companions focus."

What is our common goal or object that we look to? What makes our friendship a friendship?

Answer that... and I know we're good friends! =D!

Have a great day yall!!!
~dell

Monday, July 16, 2007

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 15:14:00 GMT

I'M BACK!!!!!

New post coming soon....with all the fun details of my wonderful vacation!!!!

My face is sore

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 14:29:54 GMT

I woke up this morning and my jaw was sore... who does that happen to?
Well, Wednesday we went to Philly and chilled with teh Shorey's... it was awesome! (btw you Efthimiou people... they all say hi! Adam throws you a cheesy smile Mikaela!). There was the wiffleball series... call if you want to know the outcome. lol. =D. you know what else rocks... everyday this week Ive had pizza... now that's what I call a GREAT vacation! =D. Planning on having some today too. So, Bethie Abbie Dem and I all got ice cream... pizza... and we tried to find a frisbee... to use instead of the... halo's...? hahahaha. it was cool. Then, we watched What About Bob (oh, btw, Caleb and jared were there, which was snazzy). What About Bob... sooo much fun! "If I had a goldfish I would wear it in a jar around my neck!" hahahaha. fun times.
I also realized that Bethie and Adam have fallen from the world of xanga... may they rest in peace. lol. If they come back. may we welcome them... but if not... please find htem in facebook. hahaha.
Then yesterday was a more of a chill out day. We went to the beach some. I rode the waves. Joe was here too by now. it was fun... he's our Bob. hahahahaha. I hope he doesn't come over here and read this. lol.
Um, so yesterday for devotions I was like... God, what should I be convicted about right now. And... among another something... He made it incredibly clear that my sarcasm... or rather, the extent of which I use it, is completely unbiblical. So, He directed me to Colossians 3... and also, had me come up with a gameplan. Namely which consisted of... PRAY AND THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK! So, if you all could be praying that I would be... more sensitve about what i say, i would appreciate that greatly! This is something I know is one of my greatest faults... and osmething I know I need to grow in (or out of?).
Then, mum and dad went out to dinner with Joe and Aunt Janet, we watched TV... namely a show called Drake and Josh. Jarred adn I were upstairs and we couldn't stop laughing. it was great. Oh, and Wednesday... My abs were sore from laughing so hard.
"What are your sizes for the pizzas?" <bethie
"16 in and 14in" <Pizza guy
"Which one is cheaper?" <Bethie
hahahahahaha. Good times
But yeah. Then I sletp in this morning... Got up... did some stuff... got breakfast (cinamon rolls... which we've had pretty much everyday this week).
Oh, and I forgot... jarred dad joe and I went mini golfing put putting whatever its called. that was fun. Which leads me to remember that on Wednesday while at the Shorey's I realized that my hair would NOT stay straight... not in the weather (humidity) it was awful. So yesterday after swimming and showering... I decided to mousse it... (keep it curly)... its sooo much easier. Wild... but daddy likes it better this way I think (he's more protecitve of me too... I had to have Joe and him as my body guard here... hahahaha). But yeah if you read this write "I love sand on the beach" I'll tell you about it later. So curly hair might be the way I go... I'll have to get a vote I think... or since God is obviously not letting me keep straight hair here on the beach (for those of you who have seen me trying to make it look nice straight I blieve know what I'm talking about).
But yeah... my face still hurts.
Thanks for all teh comments kiddos! I've really appreciated them! =D
Ok. tah tah!!!!
love yall
~dell

BEACH!!!!

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 01:33:43 GMT

So I'm totally at the beach right now!!!! Its soooo snazzy. I've got a nice tan.../sunburn? hahahahaha. yeah, its going cool!
I'm at a REALLY COOL Coffee House on Asbury Ave. I think. I really like it. =D. Its got an open door way and the place is really comfy... and they're letting me use their MAC!!! After I got an ice tea! =D. its really cool. lol.
So, the ocean is really nice... the beach is better. I slept pretty much the whole trip here... then on Monday Corey surprised me and actually showed up with Caleb which was completely awesome! We all got really sunburned (I only tan... blah blah blah, now has ice packs and is in bed cause he can't move ).
I got a really bad earache last night from water being in my ear... worst ear ache I've ever had... but I didn't cry... improvement no? hahaha. Then, we got up... this morning... did random things... yeah yeah yeah. Now, I'm sitting here in this really cool place.
Oh, and I bought a necklace. =D.
Ok. Shout out to Anna... the Efthimious. Those of you who read my xanga. The Roberts who I believe I missed by like a few minutes... NNNOOO. hahaha. I'll get over it.
Alright. Off I got to do something else. Call me!
Luv yall!
~dell
PS. I MISS YOU ALL!

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 12:36:16 GMT

I thought I had the best........... my dress was made from actual deer skin!!!!!!!! So my name was Runs Like A Deer... or for short... Deer. lol.

and someone's got a gun sticking in my face.

A group of us chillin out.

My Indian friend Three Feathers.

Slick and Robert... hehehe. Really it's Corey and Daniel.

My oh so cute brother. Let it be known that I thought he was the best looking character there! =D/

Ok. I had better get some comments this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~dell

ps. if you have pictures from my party... please send them to me!!!!!!!! =D