I_belong_to_You_Abba's Xanga

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 20:22:53 GMT

Well...for those of you who still look at this...its official...I will be staying in PA. moving to PA and going to grad school!!!! YAYA!!!! Megan is in another part of PA and Bobby is going to BBC not this year but the next...WOW..how life changes.

Friday, December 07, 2007

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 13:32:55 GMT

Wow it has been such a long time. I don't know how much I will be using xanga but hey ya never know it could come back....right? lol. I think everyone has my myspace page but if not....life is ok. I will be graduating in may, God willing. Well I better get to my school work!

Monday, July 02, 2007

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 18:03:40 GMT

So it has been a super long time since I have drop a line on this thing. I have not internet access so it makes it hard, but its all good. Anyway, I don't think I have much to say really or actually not much time to say it but I have not forgotten xanga...no no I have not. lol

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Sat, 26 May 2007 03:08:52 GMT

A great deal has changed in my life since I last updated. First I will tell you some things that have not changed.

I love God above all, or should I say He loves me more then I love Him and He keeps me safe from myself.

I have the same job and although it is hard God gives me strength.

I screw up all the time. lol

I miss my friends from BBC

House M.D is still my all time favorite t.v show

I still love my dog

Still a bit rebellious ( some know me and know what I am speaking of)

Still want to move to FL

Still want a motorcycle...

things that have changed

I am living in the Emert's with the best roomates ever

not going to finish my last year of college next year

cooked for wonderful friends at my house and they loved it

I know God loves me and pursues me no matter how stupid I am.

I don't want kids...lol...well maybe

I am more particular about the people I spend time with

I am more logical and less emotional...I cry easy though...now I can admitt that....

I went to Philly and will probally go many more times this summer...

I'm stronger...more independent...relaxed and happy...God is so GREAT

I know I can go anywhere in this country with mapquest...all by my lonesome...I can make it...lol

I am missing Pat a lot though...dork should come seee me...Oh I have come to really dislike Philly...ALOT

these things have changed more in the last year then in the time I last updated but w/e.

New Photos Guys!

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 15:24:42 GMT

I did not want to go to banquet but it ended up being a blast! It's nice to get all dolled up once in awhile. Although it cost me a lot of money. It was worth it if I may say so myself. I hope you guys like the few pics that I got. If you want to see more you can go to ringo.com and look me up there are a lot more on there!

I have decided it is so much better to be alone and happy then with someone and crying all the time. I was single at the banquet but that just ment I was free to walk around and see my friends. It was nice, maybe I am just ment to be single! Love you guys, drop me a comment it takes two seconds! BYE BYE!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 14:06:33 GMT

THE END IS IN SIGHT!!! One more major paper...print stuff out hand it in, Issues stuff (probally going to be late), and Joshua stuff....by tomorrow there will only be like three things on this list...God is so good, I don't know how I got the strength to make it through...it had to be from Him.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 14:45:41 GMT

God I don't know where I am going or what I am doing but You do. I am so stressed with all the things that are going on around me in this world and in my life. How can there be so much anger and hurt in this world? You are in control of everything though, I don't understand it but You are good and that is truth. I pray that I become a better women everyday...more like You and what You want me to be. I pray I do not let You down. I want to become who You have created me to be and stop worrying about the things of this world like: Am I going to be alone? How do I stop the hurt I feel or get back at those who cause it (that is real Christ like right?) God please be with my unsaved friends, I love them so much but they are so blind to you. I miss the times when we were all kids and everything was simple. We all lived in that small town and our biggest worry was how we were going to get everyone a ride to my house. That was way back before I messed up and began smokeing pot, and partying and living in sin. God please use that for you and don't let me dwell on it or think of it all the time, somtimes I just feel I can't let it go. I need some of your peace LORD, please help me focus and have peace today...thank you and please be with those who I have on my mind....mom, Christine, Christine, her mom and dad and family, Jermaine, Charlie, Nate, Sarah, John, L. John, the kids....LORD I love all these people and they need you strength and guidance. Please be with them.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 19:35:25 GMT

So...dad's anniversary is less then a month away...right during finals...it will always be during finals. I wonder how hard it will be? I have been trying to prepare myself for it. You know not ignore the fact that it is going to bother me but not dwell on it either. No matter how much I prepare for it, it will still bother me...I will still think back to the day it happened...what I was doing, who was with me. I have been doing that all this month. Easter break last year...I wasted it. I should have went home to see my family but instead I wasted my last days with my father on someone who is not even in my life anymore....what was wrong with me? How selfish and blind was I? Selfish because I ignored the fact my dad was sick and blind because I wasted that time on someone who I should have never been involved with in the first place. How does God even put up with me. I twisted His Word and my reality to fit what I wanted. I based God around me not me around God, and I am still paying the consequences for that. More so it is me making me pay the consequences though...not God. I constantly feel guilty but God....God has freed me from something that could have prevented me from experiencing the blessings He has given me now. I thank Him so much for freeing me from my own stupidity. He has blessed me by sending me down a path I never even thought of and pulled me out of the worst depression of my whole life. Now I am happier then I have ever been, I am still sturggleing but working on things and by far the most independent and happy I have ever been. I will be renting a house this summer with some friends and working at my job...getting training and becoming closer to my girls. Then I will be getting an apartment this fall with a couple of girls from school and hopefully finishing my senior year at BBC, maybe going on a cruise to the caribbian as my senior trip. I so plan on going bungie jumping this next year...but who knows what will happen God can change all our plans.....He changed my life last year and I am aware He can do it again!

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 13:40:36 GMT

Ok so this is going to be an odd post. I am looking for my friend Nate, usually I know round about where he is and I really have no idea where he is and have not heard from him since June so...I'm a little worried. This guy does not live the best life style hence me being worried. Not only that but I miss him, he was probably the one of the best guy friends I ever had, honestly there was only one better and that's because he was a lot like Nate only a Christian which changes things a lot. So the point is, anyone who comes on this site will you please pray for Nate and Nate if you happen across this site I miss you dork...call me. I'm praying for you and I am sorry about the time I stopped talking to you, it was stupid and I should not have given up on you like that.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 21:47:04 GMT

So we are back and I miss it already

All of these people are missed greatly. I wish Ii would have gotten more pics but I guess thems the breaks