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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 00:51:30 GMT

Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the Earth, it seems I do more harm than good. I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this.

&& tonight will go on forever
while we walk around this town
like we own the streets
& stay awake through summer
like we own the heat

she doesn't know whats right &
she doesn't know whats wrong she
only knows the pain that comes
from waiting for him so long &
she doesn't count the teardrops
that she's cried while he's away
cause she knows deep down in her
heart he'll be back again someday

back to the good ol' days, when there was popcorn for 25 cents, people kissing throughout a whole movie, girls in pigtails and skirts, boys being too shy to say hello..

i want to tell you how i feel
this love for you, is so surreal
i would tell you now if i could
if she wasnt there, then i would.

not miserable but im not happy. im not strong but im not weak. im not rude but im not polite. im not popular but i dont care. im not sexy but im not horrid.im not dumb but im no genius.i am girly but im also tough. im not you but I AM ME. except it.

only the truth came out when i said i loved you, only lies were heard when you said it back

She spends ½ her day
doing her make up and hair
that perfect , pretty , way
for a guy who will never care

she pulled the trigger & her
mask fell to the floor with a
shatter as everyone watched.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 14:03:43 GMT

OMG!

im so sorry!
i havent posted in over a month!

gaaah,

im lame.

i will post soon!

i promise

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Thu, 05 May 2005 12:30:02 GMT

she sits and cries painful tears fill her eyes
silent screams and cries of pain
arms full of cuts and scars of shame
alone in this world a blade as a friend
to stop her pain to make it all end
she lies in her regret spills of blood drop
this is her way to make it all stop

HE: Do you mind if I sit down?
SHE: Do you mind if i say no?
HE: Can I buy you a drink?
SHE: Actually I'd rather have the money.
HE: I'm a photographer. I've been lookin for a face like yours.
SHE: I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been lookin for a face like yours.
HE: Hi. Didnt we go on a date once? Or was it twice?
SHE: Must've been once. I never make the same mistake twice.
HE: Will you go out with me this Saturday?
SHE: Sorry. I'm having a headache this weekend.
HE: I think I could make you very happy.
SHE: Why? Are you leaving?
HE: What would you say if I asked you to marry me?
SHE: Nothing. I can't talk and laugh at the same time.
HE: Can I have your name?
SHE: Why? Don't you already have one?
HE: Where have you been all my life?
SHE: Hiding from you.

I am a poet writing of my pain.
I am a person living a life of shame.
I am you daughter hiding her depression
I am your sister making a good impression.
I am your friend acting like I'm fine
I am a wisher wishing this life weren't mine.
I am a girl who thinks of suicide
I am a teenager pushing her tears aside.
I am a student who doesn't have a clue
I am the girl sitting next to you.
I am the one asking you to care
I am your best friend hoping you'll be there

every girl needs a best
friend to help her laugh
when she thinks she`ll
-n e v e r- smile a g a i n

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 23:05:29 GMT

let me break your <3
then ii`ll ask you
why we can't be friends.
let me rip yOur world into
little pieces && destroy
who you thought you were
then ii`ll ask you why we
((c.a.n.t. b.e. f.r.i.e.n.d.s.))

the sweetest sound of all
is that of your own name
spoken by the only boy
you care about........ <3

*It's so hard to find a guy, a guy that knows how you feel, even when you havent told him anything. It's so hard to find a guy, a guy that treats you the way you've always wanted to be treated:::even though he doesn't know your last name yet. && it's so hard to keep some guy, 'some guy' that isn't interested anymore in what you have to give him. So once you find him, he's so easy to spot out, in a crowd of a million. But unfortunately that's it, hes just one in a million*{[

all a girl really wants is somebody who will
sit with her under the stars and not want any
thing more than to look into her eyes and say..
you're the o n e i've been waiting for

"If you want to know the moment
I knew that I was still alone
I found I'd never learned your number
I only stored it in my phone
You'd think by now
I'd know the shape of calling home"
- - j0HN MAYER x33

Alot of laughs, alot of tears
Spillin` dreams with the fears
Talkin` 24 hours on the phone
Each other's houses are 2nd homes
Something so precious it could [never] break or bend
That's why I call you my .b.e.s.t. friends

"And I know you heard me strumming all those sad
and simple chords, as I sat inside my room so long ago"
- bRiiGHT 3Y3`SZ !! x0

on the coldest January nights we drive out past the runway and watch the plans go by. the runway lights are the deepest blue like the colors of your eyes. so close them tight and kiss me one last time.

we could be PERFECT one last night,
and DIE like star-crossed LOVERS when we fight.
and we can SETTLE this affair.
if you would shed your yellow and TAKE MY HAND.
and then we'll solve this mystery of laceration gravity.
this riddle of REVENGE please understand it HAD TO BE THIS WAY <3

i have a favor to ask..i just hope its not too much
after all you said you'd always be there for me
so here it goes. dont like her, dont like her
dont pick her. dont be with her. anyone but her
and if i could possible fit one more thing in there
if its okay..maybe you could fall for me?

there`s no point in trying to talk to you
i`ve tried to have a conversation with you
but all that comes out. is the empty feeling
in my stomach & it makes me realize that
you will never feel the same way about me
as I do about you

but when i say lets keep in touch, i really mean that
i wish you’d grow up. this is the first song for your
mix tape it`s short .. just like your temper but somewhat
golden like the afternoons we used to spend together
before you got " too cool "

Saturday, April 23, 2005

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 17:12:33 GMT

There are just a couple of things that I thought I should tell you. I learned these while I was the object of your guy's affection. First of all, don't be frightened if he smothers much more love on you than you had expected. Don't be surprised if he treats you much better than any other guy you have ever met. And let it not scare you that he will actually listen carefully to every word you say, even when you're just speaking quietly. Also, you should know that he remembers everything you will say. He's hurt easily, especially by the painful words a careless girl will say. If you do hurt him, then you'll have to pay the price of seeing the broken look in his passionate and deep brown eyes, and watch the light in them fade. But if this happens, all is not lost- a kiss and an "I love you" can heal anything. And please, don’t say I love you to him, unless you really mean it, nothing hurts him more then someone who really doesn’t care. Sometimes, he won't tell you what he is feeling, but... just know that he is protecting you and if you ever feel that something isn't right, just look into his beautiful brown eyes and you will be able to see into him. You can see everything he is feeling, everything he is thinking, everything that isn't right with him... He won't ever try to hurt you, because he just isn't that way, so please don't hurt him because if you do, I don't think I could ever forgive you. I don't think there could ever be a worse feeling in the world than knowing that you have the boy that I love and knowing that you hurt him. You should know that if you two ever get into a fight, just make sure you pick only the ones worth fighting for... He will always keep his temper and will never curse at you or call you names, despite the anger he may be feeling. Though he may act mature, most of the time, once he's given you his heart, he will begin to open up to you and his silliness will make your heart smile, in a way that words can not explain. Don't hold a tight grip on him, let him go and be part of the world and experience new things. You will find that he is a busy guy and that he is so very independent. Sometimes, he will need his space, but don't worry... He'll always make time for you and even when you're not around, you'll be in his thoughts. You will find that he isn't like any other guy that you have met, so please don't take him for granite. When it comes to his money, don't take advantage of that, He will be so unselfish with it, because that is the way he is. Remember, He likes blue better than green, blonds better than brunettes, Republicans better than Democrats, Soft pretzels win over Steak, Kacki over denim, Leather over cloth, and even though he won't admit it, he really does like to be surprised. He is less tough than he may appear, you just have to take the time and let him bring down his guard... He is so sweet and so amazing and know that if you ever leave him, you will break his heart apart, the same way that my heart breaks apart, as I sit here writing this to you. Don't ever try to pull him away from his dreams. He is going to be an extremely successful attorney and won't ever let you give up on your dreams, either. He will encourage you to become everything you can be and will never, ever let you down. He likes it when you kiss his ear and nothing is better than hugging each other. Just watch how your hand will fit perfectly into his and when it does, it seems as if nothing in the world could hurt you, because he is there. And when he puts his arms around you and tells you that you are the girl he loves, you will know, there isn't any guy in the world better than him... Don't ever let him go. You will regret doing so, for the rest of time... I promise, you will.

Friday, April 22, 2005

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 15:02:18 GMT

the best feeling in the world isnt falling
in love its finally falling out of love with
someone who never loved you

Friends are like stars, They come and Go, But the friends that stay are the stars that Glow

i miss you wen something good happens to me because you are the one i want to share it with first. . i miss you wen something bad happens because you make everything better. . i miss you wen i cry because you kiss my tears away. . i miss you wen i`m laughin because you make my laughter grow. . i miss you through all those times, but i miss you most wen i`m lying in my bed at night thinkin about you because before i always knew someway, somehow, you were thinking of me too, & that is why it is then i miss you most because i`m not so sure you`re thinkin about me anymore <|3 [(i miss you)]

I promise ill be with you till the very end...

Wiping your tears away and being your girlfriend...

I’ll smile when you smile and feel the pain when you do...

and if you cry just a single tear I promise you [[I'll cry too]]

nothing really matters to me
so put a gun to my head
and pull the damn trigger

you say i'm always happy &&
that i'm good at everything i do
but what you'll never realize
is that i'm a damn good actress too

she looks down at her arms..
all cut up & red <|3 each time
she looks at them, she see`'s
what [used to be] 'nd wishes
she was dead - - and as she
touches & looks at each scar
she remembers his game `&
that near' each [scar] made a
letter that `spelt out his name'

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 23:42:05 GMT

tired of my heart beating so fast without you hearing it, tired of breathing so hard without you there to help me catch my breath, tired of feeling so weak and not having you there to catch me when i fall, tired of shaking without you there to calm me down, tired of loving you without any love in return

im sorry but i cant explain these feelings. he let me go and all i could do is cry. when he said he didnt need me anymore i just sat there on my floor no one to hold me and no one to care. there was nuthing i could do, nothing i could say to change his mind. i feel so weak.. like i just died. how can he make me feel so weak, so pitiful ,so sad and depressed. why do i need him so much. or am i just making myself think i need him this much. i just wanna be let free from this room of missery. not just a regular room, my body. i need to be let free from this pain. it feels like he tore out my heart and im no longer worth loving. someone please help me i dont want to be alone. i dont just want him to love me again.. i need him to

You look at me.
But I can see your mind wonders.
You just dont see me.
I feel invisible,
It seems you dont care.
I dont know how to get you to see,
That I only look at you.

i`M SiCK 0F N0T HEARiNG MY TELEPH0NE RiNG ;
i`M JUSS S0 SiCK 0F BULLSHiiET `ND EVERYTHiNG
i`M ALS0 SiCK 0F CRYiNG DAY & NiGHT
i`M JUSS H0PiNG THAT T0M0RR0W EVERYTHiNG WiLL BE
alright

"There’s a big world out there: bigger than prom, bigger than high school … and it won’t matter if you were the prom queen or the quarterback of the football team, or the biggest nerd. Find out who you are and try not to be afraid of it."

the girl who seemed unbreakable - broke.
the girl who seemed so strong - crumbled.
the girl who always laughed it off - cried.
the girl who would never stop trying -
finally gave up & quit

the sun's gonna shiine and the rains gonna fall, and in the
end you might get burnt or wet, but that's life so dance in
the puddles and bathe in the sun, and at the end of the day
just smiile because i know everything is gonna be alright

HE : DO YOU MiND iF i SiT DOWN ?
SHE : DO YOU MiND iF i SAY NO ?
HE : CAN i BUY YOU A DRiNK ?
SHE : ACTUALLY i`D RATHER HAVE THE MONEY
HE : i`M A PHOTOGRAPHER . i`VE BEEN LOOKiNG FOR A FACE LiKE YOURS
SHE : i`M A PLASTiC SURGEON . i`VE BEEN LOOKiNG FOR A FACE LiKE YOURS
HE : Hi . DiDN`T WE GO ON A DATE ONCE ? OR WAS iT TWiCE ?
SHE : MUST`VE BEEN ONCE . i NEVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTiKE TWiCE .
HE : WiLL YOU GO OUT WiTH ME THiS SATURDAY ?
SHE : SORRY . i`M HAViNG A HEADACHE THiS WEEKEND .
HE : i THiNK i COULD MAKE YOU VERY HAPPY .
SHE : WHY ? ARE YOU LEAViNG ?
HE : WHAT WOULD YOU SAY iF i ASKED YOU TO MARRY ME ?
SHE : NOTHiNG . i CAN`T TALK & LAUGH AT THE SAME TiME .
HE : CAN i HAVE YOUR NAME ?
SHE : WHY ? DON`T YOU ALREADY HAVE ONE ?
HE : WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LiFE ?
SHE : HiDiNG FROM YOU .

28 WAYS TO MAKE A GiRL SMiLE
1 . TELL HER SHE iS BEAUTiFUL . NOT HOTT OR FiNE
2 . HOLD HER HAND AT ANY MOMENT EVEN iF iT iS JUST FOR A SECOND
3 . KiSS HER ON THE FOREHEAD
4 . LEAVE HER VOiCE MESSAGES TO WAKE UP TO.
5 . ALWAYS TELL HER YOU LOVE HER AT ANY & ALL TiMES
6 . WHEN SHE iS UPSET , HOLD HER TiGHT & TELL HER HOW MUCH SHE MEANS TO YOU .
7 . RECONGiZE THE SMALL THiNGS ... THEY USUALLY MEAN THE MOST .
8 . CALL HER SWEETiE (( NOT BABY ))
9 . SiNG TO HER NO MATTER HOW HORRiBLE YOUR VOiCE iS
10 . PiCK HER OVER ALL THE OTHER GiRLS YOU HANG WiTH
11 . WRiTE HER NOTES . (( SHE LOVES THEM ))
12 . iNTRODUCE HER TO FAMiLY&FRiENDS AS YOUR GiRLFRiEND
13 . PLAY WiTH HER HAiR
14 . PiCK HER UP , TiCKLE HER , & PLAY WRESTLE WiTH HER
15 . SiT iN THE PARK & JUST TALK TO HER
16 . TELL HER FUNNY JOKES , TELL HER STUPiD JOKES , JUST TELL HER JOKES .
17 . THROW PEBBLES AT HER WiNDOW iN THE MiDDLE OF THE NiGHT JUST BECAUSE YOU MiSS HER
18 . LET HER FALL ASLEEP iN YOUR ARMS
19 . CARVE YOUR NAMES iNTO A TREE .
20 . iF SHE`S MAD KiSS HER
21 . GiVE HER PiGGYBACK RiDES
22 . BRiNG HER FLOWERS JUST BECAUSE
23 . TREAT HER THE SAM AROUND YOUR FRiENDS AS YOU DO WHEN YOU`RE ALONE
24 . LOOK HER iN THE EYES & SMiLE
25 . LET HER TAKE AS MANY PiCTURES AS SHE WANTS
26 . SLOW DANCE WiTH HER . EVEN iF THERE iSN`T MUSiC PLAYiNG
27 . KiSS HER iN THE RAiN
28 . iF YOU`RE iN LOVE WiTH HER . . . TELL HER !!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 21:42:23 GMT

i shall post some tomorrow

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 17:53:26 GMT

A-B-C's Of Your Ex

A is for the bad azz you thought he was
B is for BULLSH!T, which is what he was full of.
C is for the commitment that was never there.
D is for the dildo he didn't know I had.
E is for everything he said we'd do, everything he said he was, and everything he's not.
E is also for ego. His was bigger than a hot air balloon.
F is for faithful, as long as there wasn't something or someone better to do.
G is for GOD the one he thought he was and wanted to be worshipped as.
G is also for the spot he could never find!
H is for laughter (HA! HA!) the last sound he heard from me as he was walking out the door.
I is for Impotent which is what I told everyone he was.
I is also for the inbreeding that occured in his podunk family.
J is for jugular, the one I'd love to sever.
K is for Key, the one that made the lovely designs on his truck.
K is also for Kick in the balls which is what I'm gonna give him if I see him again.
L is for Love in most cases, but exceptions have been made, L is for LOSER in this case, along with LUSH (he drank an awful lot).
M is for MAN. Has anyone been able to find one? Have you ever met one? Do you know where any are?
N is for the narcotics. He drove me past alcohol.
O is for the orgasm he thought he made me have.
P is for PAYBACKS. Remember they are HELL!
Q is for queer. I sometimes wonder if he is.
R is for the hopeless romantic he said he was. He was half right. He was hopeless, not to mention worthless.
R is also for the ring that he can't afford and will never buy.
S is for the sugar they found in his gas tank.
S is also for satisfied, which he rarely made me feel.
T is for typical. Typical little boy playing at being a man.
U is for umbilical cord which was never severed when his mother gave birth.
U is also for the ugly girl he is dating now.
V is for the voodoo doll I made of him. Pins are inserted of course.
W is for wife, the one he said he didn't have.
X is what he is to me now!!!!
Y is for why the hell did I ever get involved with him.
Z is for the zoloft that I had to start taking

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 19:11:06 GMT

Sorry I dont update too often. I try to as much as a I can. I La La LOVE quotes!

this sex has lost all of
its fun like gum loses taste

sometimes the only way to prove how much you
love someone is to let go and let them move
on even if that means they must leave you
well i'm waiting here to take
the fall and everythings my fault

there are so many things that i would
like to say to you but i don't know how

there are all kinds of feelings. there's the feeling you get when you're walking home in the evening sun and your head's in the clouds and your feet are floating over the ground, and your stomach's fluttering so hard you don't think you can stand it anymore. when everything looks bright and clear, and everything smells brand new. when the freshness of air tingles on your skin, and it feels like something's alive....and you can't stop smiling....and the sand beneath your feet is so soft that you want to take off your shoes and spin around and around and around, and you know that you would look like a fool...but you don't care....cuz you're in love.

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling & getting hurt. Instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't good, but easy. So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. That is why we just have to be a little patient & the right boy, the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple will come someday!

I spent each night wanting you to be happy
And now you are. You found her.
I'm not looking for an apology
Or anything at all for that matter.
What im looking for, is impossible.
I just want to know i mattered to you
At one point in your life.
For one single fucking second
Because to be honest with you,
I feel like absolutely nothing right now

maybe it`s the way youu say my name
or the way i get butterfliesz everytime we talk
or the way you make me laugh when nothings funny
whatever it is, i`m never letting go

I hate it how I don't talk to you for like a month,
but then all of a sudden you start talkin to me again,
like nothing happened
And I fall in your little trap again,
all because you said my name