so im sitting here stareing into my bowl of dry rasin bran thinking. yeh rasin bran makes me think. so where is my life going.. i keep saying im going to school but i dont im going nowhere .. i just lost another job . sure they tell me they'll call me back but i know they wont.. it's getting to the point that i have no options  there is no return from where i came .. im really lost .. i need something ..meybe a 45 and a bottle of whiskey to numb it all

i really feel like i dont need this...

yeh sure i can go back to cedar point ...but i dont know.. it's time to make a decision i dont ever want to be at this point ... living with my white trash family.. and my mom dosnt want me..fuck this....

im numb

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so yeh needless to say ot's been a while since ive updated ..

were moving and such .. meybe it's a new pace ..of the book of life yeh

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it's been quite some time youguys .. im up dateing to tell you merry xmas and whats goin on ..

im move'n out .. yeh .. i figgured out i cant live with females ..they are the epitamy of everything i cant stand  it's nothing aginst anglea but where on 2 different ends of the ricter scale .. and it's just not going to work ... so to solve the problem im going to school like ive planned for the last 3 years .. im prolly gonna end up in the good old c-bus  at ccad and going to art school .. so yeh thats whats going on ... not for awhile but it's going on .. i loveya all later

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so yeh .. 2wce in one wek .. wwwwoooooooowwww!! im excited .. im updating agian wooooo!! i need a car reeeeeel .. bad .. anyone wanna donate? im sure you all do .. it's like a blood drive minus the blood and plus the drive!! .. you know .... it's like probono ...for lawyers .. they take on a cherity case and they sponser then in  court .. a publicity stunt rite?  ill be your publicity stunt .. and before you know it you'll be on the bilboard on 30  being nomated for president?i guess?

im done rambleing for now .. but i think ill be back to ramble this week later ..

love you all

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ok .. so just to fill you in on whats been going on ..

i got a apt .. it's off of msf lucas .. it's called jennings apts.. were in 350  f .. you should all come and see me!!! .. im there after 10 pm everyday .. me and anglea moved in last week .. it's a gooooood time! ... livivng on your own is great .. you all should try it sometime ..

i have a 2nd job .. at gthaxs ..it's fun .........the malls killing me ..

and not onto everyone else .. karen .. im sorrry about you loss .. i know your stong and will make it through this ok .. im sorry i wasnt there when you needed mebut im here now .. vent .. rachelle i miss you too im just really bussy .. come by my apt or work sometime to see me .. and everyone else .. im ok .. im not ded im just sleeping .. lol .. now seriously ive just been really bussy whith the apt and work and trying to keep up with bills .. just come find me coz i dont have time to find you ..

and at that i love you all ... and ill update periodicly ..

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