am i paving my way to my own self destruction

or have I found a key to set myself free

garhhhh

i dont really like this feeling i have kind of bitter kind of relieved kind of lost and very scared.

scared of messing up something beautiful,

scared of tearing apart another person in order to help my conscience settle.

i have no ida whats happening and i pray and pray that i will make the right choices and if anyone else reads this please i know ive been selfish already but please pray for this.....

i dont want to destroy everything ive worked so hard for

Well i havnt updated this in awhile.

LAst night at bible study Cathy Shumate from Radio U came and spoke about some very important issues. I really learned alot from her. I dont think anyone should ever hesitate to call her when you have a problem expecially one that you dont feel compfortable sharing with anyone.

Shes an amazing lady with a phenomonal message that the whole world should hear.

I was actually able to use some aspects of it at school today and that was really cool also.

Its amazing, once a person believes in God how much smaller all of their problems become. God has a way with things that cause you to wake up and see reality for what it really is. Drama is something that is created by people it does not appear on its own. So people if you want the drama in your life to stop your going to have to take a stand for yourself. All of the things that you will encounter each day are just more things that you have to ask Jesus about. Just put it all in his hands and he will be more than glad to carry it for you. That is what he is there for. TO show you his unconditional, forgiving and awesome love. You can never mess up too much for him. He will always be there holding your hand and guiding you. So when you wake up in the morning smile and realize that you have survived. You have survived one more night with the Satan chasing after you. You won the race and that angers him. He will try to seduce you into falling into his trap and thinking oyu wont make it, but with a little faith in your pocket you will go a very long way.  So keep your head up as much as possible and pray. Pray as much as possible and dont forget to smile. Because remember, without love you have nothing. Without Jesus you will live a life not worth living. So walk on your way with your head up high and love in your heart and Jesus by yourside. And if you do this nothing will ever bea ble to stop your integrity, originality, strength and love.

If he spent more time with GOd and less time talking about other people he would be a missionary within moments.

If she would stop looking in the mirror and start looking for lost souls to save, 15 people would enter the Kingdom today.

If they would stop wasting time with childish games, and begin to see the calling that walks two steps in front of them, they would start a revolution.

People, take some time, look at your life from someone else's point of view(ask a friend if this seems confusing) and count up all the time you spend in sin, hurting other people, and wasting time, and turn that time into worship or reading, or starting a fellowship instead of a battle ship, just imagine how far that could take you.

Just try it i think youll be amazed.

A boy had his heart broken, a girl set her heart aside. All because of the hate in someone else's eyes. The fellowship has fallen, the hearts have all been twisted on a slate. Just because of the simple childish hate. Stop fighting those whom persecute you, just fall to your knees and pray for them. Stop getting angry gruges built, and begin to love each other again.

things are changing when the meoldy playing in the background gets louder

its pitch softer and its no longer just sounds that create good feelings, but it is something to believe in.

The motivation that the lyrics bring is not just left behind, but it is carried along for the journey.

It is something overhead that is looked up to by all, something that stands out but cannot really be captured.

The melody engulfs the spirit, and it moves. It takes the body and mind along with it.

That is when the music is no longer just an art form, but it has evolved into a revolutionary revival.........

-- he said i taught him how to sing--

--amen