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| Wow xanga..
its been a while, but it feels like im home
i have this weird sense of comfort when i write in this thing...
knowing that not much people read it now, anyways. You know, since
myspace and facebook hit the spot, but i know im never gonna be able to shut
this xanga down. I have too much of my heart in here.
its almost been 4 years since ive first started.
its nice to know theres always this little quiet place that i can come to
and just jot my thoughts down without having to think about anything too much.
this is the only place where i can cry, laugh, and smile in my writing.
too bad i only write here when the going gets reaallyy reallyy tough.
So how are things lately...
not good, but not bad
lets just keep it on the safe side
i feel the trouble brewing already though,
but thats only for me to worry about.
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| I'm just trying to heal...but its not working as easily as i wished...
it hurts so bad inside, it almost burns.
All this from one single person
Is this worth it?
Was this worth it?
Is he worth it?
No...
It really isn't
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| I should start taking more care of my xanga, but im caught up with myspace and facebook ;;
yeah well anyways im in korea, the worldcup is over and im just killing some time before school starts again . I learned alot from the time being here even though its been only about a month right now. I learned more about people,guys, girls yeah all that; and i was thinking to myself lately do i wanna keep going with what i have?
Or should i change my course... It'll be hard on me to change, but i know in the long run that ill be thankful that i did it...i guess?
But as of right now all i know for sure is that i gotta focus, mostly on school since i know once i concentrate on that, it sort of has a numbing effect which blocks everything else out.
Why do i want to do that?
Well, thats only for me to know.
and besides, im still trying to figure it out.
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| I can't believe this, i had everything planned out
all of a sudden i have to go to korea...
i mean its not a bad thing, but i was ready to get a car and everything...
grandma's real sick. and for one time in my life
im not in control...
and im so scared.
Is this really happening?
i might go next week, the week after
or not at all....everything's so confusing and hectic
I wish i could regain control and stability.
So many weird things have been happening to me
and what makes me so mad is that
theres no one to blame and so theres just this overwhelming
englufment of self pity...its all just so retarded 
Maybe i just need some off time
Maybe korea isn't such a bad idea...
i dunno...
im sorry to say....but i seriously give up
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| aHHHh so bored lately im trying to get a job and a car at the same time.
not easy man -_-; anyways summer is just continuing to laG on and im bored out of my mind does anyone still use xanga? anyways it doesn't matter since i like to just write stuff here to get off my mind.
there better be some good events ahead.
i need some major play time.
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