| - All you need is loveOut of the blue honesty. I like matt. I really do. I think he's a great person way down. I'm the only one that sees it most of the time though. I guess his mother too because he's so nice to his mom. (its kinda adorable  ) I love when we sit next to each other and realize how we got so lucky. I love looking into his eyes and thinking he's my boyfriend. Out of all the fish in the world, we get together and make a great couple.  I'm not saying he's forever. I'm not jumping on that boat. He's great for what securities I have though right now. He told me he loved me the other day which scared me shitless because we've only been dating a month now. He's only dated one girl before me and it was freshman year and it lasted like 2 weeks I heard. So I don't imagine he's said it to anyone else.. which kinda crawls into my head. How could he know? How is it possible to love someone you haven't even hit the month mark. I mean you see it on TV. Two people meet, they have one date or two, have sex a couple times.. then tell them you love them. (I find it very unmoral) I cant possibly mean that much to him... You know.. lets see.. that guy in your school, he always talks about hot chicks, rock & roll, sex, and pot? Well that was my perspective on him. Don't get me wrong, I've always wanted the a relationship like Travis Barker. I thought it was cute how opposite they were. When they got together they were really cute. Picture this:  Girl: Brown hair, blue & green eyes, short, changes her outfit 2-3 times before she get the right outfit, Usual outfit: cute top, with skinny jeans. cares about her family, friends and family. Likes to play tennis, go to church, talk on the phone, see movies, and chill. Never argues with her parents, hardly gets into anything bad. Mixed feelings about pot. loves rock. and thinks sex is something to be taken seriously.  Boy: Black hair, brown eyes, short, picks up a shirt and jeans and out of the house, Usual outfit, T-shirt, pants, blue jacket. cares about: music, baseball, and guitars. Likes to play guitar, sit around and make jokes, text, and smoke pot. gets into it with his dad, loves his mom, iss is an actual class for him. likes pot. loves rock. "lets have sex!"
Girls parents perspective: "um.. he's nice.. shy? bad influence probably." Boys parents perspective: "keep her. shes nice, polite, and good influence" oh jeez. Why am I comparing us? I'm sure this is very interesting to you... I just feel he's not with me for the right reasons and i'm scared of it. I'm not going to have sex with him. Morals and lets see if he likes me kind-of-deal. My friends are thinking he's not good for me. As far as my friends in Marietta.. they'd love him... haha. I hate judgement and yet i've kind of already got him judged.. huh? this is so confusing...but i like him a lot. |
