Currently Listening Son, I Loved You at Your Darkest By As Cities Burn IM SCREAMING AS I LISTEN OOO YEA!!!! see related

Wow, im so lazy on updating eh?

                                                           lol

 so look im a model OOOO

No really that looks like a model, but its me :P, so it cant be :P

Ok umm, homcomming pics?

-Thats what I looked like basicaly

-Thats me and Lisa, Shes my sister :)

-This is Nick
-Steve and Laruen (I cant spell her name...)

-Lisa and Chris as YaYa's (it was good)

-Hannah and Lisa

-:isa and Jaqualen (wow I cant spell worth crap..)
-Chris and Marshell

-Lacey and Lisa

Cortland

-carl...

and then...

"Me on Collage"

Lisa thought it was funny to have a pic of me crying at Homecomming called, me on collage... I dont know why its funny... but she makes me laugh

and then yea, so ummm work has been amazing, you know im getting more hours (for now) and the pepole are so much fun, they make working acculy like a fun thing and a good thing its great how I can get along with anyone, im not racist but I mean cmon I worked with like 4 black girls on friday and it was funny, we joked  alot and I was talking about rapping and stuff it was great!

So you know...

Shes not only the MOST beautifullest girl Ive ever seen but shes the best I mean , shes always there for me and im hers forever, I mean cmon we can talk about anything, and no matter how much my mom thinks "you guys will think about having sex" we wont because you know who were are by knowing us, and if you think other wise, you really dont know us... you might wana get to know us, cause WE are the most amazing pepole ever, I cant wait to see her again :)

She makes me feel so good, all the time :)

I got work on mon/tues, and then I get my scedale sometime on tues night,

Ima go to 180 on wensday, and then ima do something on sat,friday, or thursday with Kayla, hopefully I get the ring 2 in stock, I wana go watch it over there or at my house, or well go to the mall, cause I need to get some clouths and I wana go see a movie, the corspe's bride is suppose to be good

UNDEROATH OCT 15 , I wish I could go , but my parents dont trust Boonie cuase they think she does drugs, but she stoped you know she was addicted but I talked to her about it, shes my big sister and were really close now it hurts me to have my mom always talk bad about her... thats really retarted shes a amazing person

I get to dye my hair in november after I get the pics taken , Ima bleach my right side outer bangs, that way I can just use gel color on it every day and make it diffrent all the time because im cool like that :P

Oct 30/31= SAW 2 OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

Ima see that in theters its gona be the best movie this year! well , cry wolf with caleb was pretty thought out good 2... well see, but saw 2 > all movies , I cant wait

So I bought umm, as cities burn cd, and the old norma jean , Lutikriss cd *it was clearanced lol..*, and ima have to buy some bandanas

O yea, I need to get 8$ to mickey on monday for a megatron shirt, and then I need to give him a  black bandana, hmmmmm hes cool, I wana go see megatron play live again...

I miss her so much right now shes at her Grandmals, I really wana talk to her on the phone tonight, but ill wait were always gona be there for each other

OOOOOO me and tyler went to the 135th skatepark, and I really wana skate every day from now on because its so much fun, ima start skating ALOT now :)

so idk... ill update later, ya!

So you know my parents like always. tend to get better but im in the await of the big next problem, theyre always nice for a little bit then, they just boom this big thing happens out of no were

So I went to homecomming, and cried for at least 2 hours, then more when I got home, the thought of my parents being how they are, and I missed Kayla horribly...

You all who care must thank Kayla for being here because if she wasnt I wouldent be, all this preasure built on me so much that I just want to get away

I really ask every day...

Why?

all this they put me through...

:(

confussion

acceptance

deppression

           WHY

Life goes goes on and On
          Sometimes I dont want it to
                    It gets horrible
                          And then it gets ok when something good happens
                                Then it turns to hell again

Pain

                                    &

                                                                        Agony

                                         Only Kayla helps...

Ok lets go for this again.. I always do this

Lets see, My music, represents how my parents deffintly dissagree of what kind of music I like, but ill deal with that, my pic shows how they hate my look, they dislike me hiding my face, the make up, and my tight close...

right now, they have no clue what there doing to me, but I relized it, thats why im getting away from it, but its gona suck if they die while im living with them , cause like there making my future slightly misled in the way as I cant be myself interly , so right now its hard dealing with that, but its cool my dad said hes going to take me to collages one day, thatll be cool!

Yea, so many concerts comming up and Idk if I can go cause of my dad so yea... if he's willing to take me ima go

Yea

Im trying to learn how to deal with them, its hard

cause I love em

and it dont seem like they love me

I cant wait till Im aloud to be my self

              Itll be amazing

                             My parents are stoping me

                                           When they arnt

                                                        Ill be my self

                        Itll be

                                      Amazing!

Other then that, ima try to work like as much as I can as long as I can see kayla a couple times in the week, this weekend im going on camp with my dad, and ima try to go to old settlers on sat night. along with trying to work 8 hours on sunday, cuase I really goto be making money to support my self with the car and gas, along with other stuff, and sams birthday is this saturday to, lots of ppl were born in sept, Lisa B day is next week and stuff, :P, other then that yea...

                                          How can you say be your self

                                      When im not aloud?

6.22.05
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