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Name: Juliana
Birthday: 2/2/1991
Interests: music, reading, internet, learning guitar, stuff i suck at like tennis and soccer, traveling, freinds, movies.
Expertise: tripping, knocking things over, and forgetting names of songs.
Message: message me
AIM:  Jooleeyanah
MSN: mer484
Member Since:
8/15/2004
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| hmm summer's here!
i think this year was probably the best, and worst of my life so far.
oh goshh, the ups and downs. extreme happiness, intensseee sadness. i don't regret any of it. i really don't. i've come to realize that they were learning experiences. i mean sometimes i guess i wish things were different, or happened different, but i can't imagine a scenario of how it'd be better. does that makes sense? i dunno, some things still aren't back to how they used to be, but i guess that will just take time. i guess being 16 really is the "time of your life"; good, or bad. just groundbreaking i guess, like a little life shifter? lol i dunno. hmmmm, i wonder how next year will be. even better? the same? worse? i'm excited. i wish more people would read this. xP
i really want to get a job. baskin robbins? barnes and noble? smoothie king? these are my top 3 options at the moment. i hope i get hired. lol or actually do well at my job.
i have a car now. but my dad refuses to call it "mine". even though, i'll end up driving it alot more than he will. because of school and Matthew's soccer practice. he's the most stubborn person i know. he's the most stubborn person my mother and Matthew know. egh i really don't like talking to him. i know that sounds bad, but it's just a vibe he gives off i guess. like it just makes me agitated and not want to be around him. whatever, i guess that's just my immaturity. it's just so intense. but then i catch myself giving him the benefit of the doubt and thinking how bored or lonely he is. because me and Matthew don't like talking to him. but then i think of how he doesn't listen. to anyone. i've tried, he doesn't take anyone seriously, including my mother, and just doesn't care about how other people feel. i know you probably don't believe me but whatever. that's not important.
Joy came back today! but i couldn't go see her. =[ my mother thought it'd be too much gas money. eghh i hate that. i wanna punch the gas station workers in the face. i know it's not COMPLETELY their fault, but still, it's as close to the high oil executives as i can get.
i want to do so much this summer. yuki's not going to atl this year because she's doing a program at SCAD that's from the 6th to some later date. so she's going early with Joy. and yoshi's not going because her family gets back from florida on the day the ws starts. lol 12 hours in a car with Matthew and James. oh lawd.
i kinda have a headache. and it's 2:30 AM.
g'night!
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| I'm living life completely wrong.
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| i always blank out when i look at this empty space...
this school year has toughened me up. this school has toughened me up. good thing? or bad? i noticed i definitely used to be nicer. but that'd mean i used let people walk over me more often. so i dunno. i miss being "too nice". but i don't want to be underestimated and stuff. i hate when you were kinda friends with someone but they were kinda assholeish but you still want to be their friend... O_o like i don't even know.
i've noticed lately that if i want something i don't try hard enough to get it. like i'll just assume that i won't be able to get it or it'll just not work out, so i don't bother going for it. so then i see people in similar situations getting what they want, so it just seems like i don't try hard enough. i don't think of all the possible ways to achieve things so i try to just forget about it. i dunno, i'm just wasting my life. i'm too lazy and just waste my days. college stuff is gonna be haaarddd. haha aw man. xP
i hate when you send someone a message on myspace and you KNOW they read it, but they decide not to reply. arg.
so i might be doing this culinary arts program for two weeks in the summer at Yuki's artsy school. it's free and should be fun. but i have to like write an essay and resume and have an interview and stuff. D: haha i've never written a resume or had an interview before. lol and they probably assume you know SOMETING about cooking instead of just going for a crash course. so i dunno, i hope i'm not the lost kid. xP but i think it'd be a good experience. i'd learn how to cook and it might be fun cause my friend's will be there. ha and i'd be away from home for like 2 weeks. heh xP
i really want to play that game rock band. i heard it was reeeaallly funn.
i hate how there are certain situations that i would really prefer to be different, but i can't do anything about it. or i'm too scared to. but then i think it's a waste to complain about something i can't change. even though it's still pretty lame. i remember the last time (and possibly the first time?) i was really happy with life and trully had like no stress was around the beginning of the school year. i'd like to go back to that. haha i dunno how to do that though. i've been grunting and sighing and being impatient alot lately. lol arg. and i hope next year doesn't suck. cause i'll be taking some hard classes that i CAN'T be lazy in. heh and some people are leaving to go to other schools. D: so i dunno.
wow i'm so negative.
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| Happy Thanksgiving!!
Merry Christmas!!
Happy New Years!!
i hope everyone had an awesome time during the holidays! =]
so i think i broke my recod. =O
i don't want to stop using this though.
stop me if i break my record again. deal? xD
i've been doing pretty good. i've been tired like alll the time though. =/ egh. i just can't seem to get enough sleep. hm. or at least if i get a really good amount of sleep one night, i'll do something to mess up my pattern and just ruin it. failure. lol
how're you guys? =]
i started this ACT prep class. and it's really easy. like the teacher is so laid back and young and nice. i just don't like taking the practice ACTs. =/ i took one the other day and it lasted all morning and it wiped me out. even though the results didn't even matter...
i think i might actually be getting a cellphone soon! :D
so i went to this place with my friend Emily today. It's like a little urban neighborhood with little shops and restaraunts and stuff. it's really cool. if it wasn't like $1458584754 to live there, i'd totally move there. but we went to Kona Grill for lunch and all the servers looked so nice and cool. lots of cute asian girls and laid back looking guys. and they have an aquarium! =O lol it just looks like a fun place to work. and the food is really good too.
oh! and we had calamari and i felt bad. like it's good but i was eating baby octupuses. =/ i thought it was a bit sad. heh but i ate it anyway. their lemonade wasn't too exciting though. haha
and we went in this store called Anthropologie or something. and they have really cute dresses there. everything's pretty expensive though. i'll but stuff there when i'm rich. xD lol
i feel like i need a summer ws. lets do it. right now. haha
i miss everyone. =/ i like when everyone's there so i have to choose who to hang out with first. lol
and i really want to do a road trip. but so many things stop me. like money, and cars, and time, and "it's too far". i dunno. one day!
i guess i'll stop here for now. xP
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| joy. excitement. laughter. optimism. peace. love. nostaglia. happiness. right?
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