Sigh* Who knew getting over jet lagg could be so awful? I'm really getting old... its been 5 days since i've been back to the US and I'm still exhausted by the time it's 4 pm EST.  I dont know what i'm going to do for the remainder of this week.  The cold is really getting to me... i find myself in a crappy mood every effing day.. so much work to do already.  SighHH** I really dont feel like traveling anymore... =( help... ... ... ...

I can't sleep because I've got so much on my mind. But I finally realised these problems root back to Lville... Lville was simply too strict with us.. after graduation, i found a way to rebel in every possible way: picked up smoking, partying, wearing outrageous vetements etc..  To make the situation worse, we go to school in bloody shiethaca where nobody has anything better to do than to gossip, which results in constant exposure to public scrutiny... Je suis desolee que je connais beaucoup de monde et que shui bien gentil a n'importe qui.. but since when did socialising become associatied with "whoredom"?  

Many freshman have done outrageous things and have made fools of themselves.  But who doesn't make mistakes? Everyone deserves to have a second chance.  Please just STOP spreading false rumours about others, especially those who barely know the person that these rumours concern..  Before you open your mouth to tell other people bout how you heard so n so did what, stop to think about whether or not you've got the evidence to back that up.  Good lord, you can't just listen to hearsay and believe everything! Stop tryina make yourselves look better by tryina ruin someone else.. I know lots of you deny having ever spread false rumours concerning me.. but you know DAMN well what you've said and done. All I have to say to you is what goes around comes around...so sooner or later your shitty karma will come back n bite you in the ass real hard.