and another =]

perfect quote and the story of my life:

she's the never the one, just that girl left behind. and she's confused at how everyone else can feel like that. at least they belong somewhere. at least they're number one in someone's heart. she's always been second best, never good enough. and maybe, just maybe, she's sick of it

&& all she wants is someone to holdd her when shes upset
who will tell her she looks absolutly beautiful in her sweat's
who will wait up for her midniqht crisis call; who will tell her
she`s the best thinqq that has everr happened' to him ; who
will do anythinq just to be next to her; who will never let her
walk away from a dream; who will love her unconditionaly
endlessly for the rest of her life

hold onto your best friend..
because i bet in an entire lifetime,
you won't find anybody else like them

i hate that time before
you go to sleep at night cause thats
when all the thoughts you've been
trying to avoid start to linger in your mind.

here's to the nights we'd kill to get back,
the moments that haunt our dreams.
here's to the people forever loved,
who make our heart's want to scream.

I feel lonely every single day of my life, but im ashamed to admit that to the people who love me

She used to sing herself to sleep. She had so much hope about tomorrows. Had never fallen in love, thought it wa  pointless. That was until he walked into her life. And now she can't seem to get him out. Even after he left.

"Those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything."
-George Bernard Shaw

I miss the way I used to feel,
With the summer's wind on my face,
Sitting on top of cars and staring at the stars.
I had a young heart, unbroken, untouched.
Wishing for someone to love.
Well I had eventually found someone to love.
Now I wish for someone to love me.
<brittany
i've been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and i still want you as much as i did the first time i laid eyes on you. every time i see you, it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. it's the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you've taught me, there's still one thing i don't know. i don't know how to fall out of love with you. i don't know how to let go and as i stand here looking at you, i wonder if there will ever be a day when i will get over your smile, when i will let go of the hugs you gave me that i continue to feel. a day when i forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much i love you. but, no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us, i know i could never get over, let go, or forget you. when you care about someone as much as i do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. i thought i'd handle it just fine and that i'd be happy just to keep you on my mind. but it isn't always that easy. sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. i knew that i'd miss you, i just didn't know i'd miss you as much as i do. i want to share my tears with you. i want to share my love with you. i want to share my happiness with you. i want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, hot cocoa, and the snowflakes. i want to share my life with you. people can just be friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever, and that's exactly what happened when i met you.
<what if i could have this again...?
But lately I've been seeing it differently. Now I think it's about finding that one thing you really care about, that one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find him, you fight for him. You risk it all, you put him in front of everything, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help him isn't so clean. You know what? It doesn't matter, because in your heart you know that the juice is worth the squeeze.

I want somebody to sleep with the rest of my life, & cuddle up during a movie, on a couch. Stay up all night talking about nothing. Get lost in woods together. Challenge me, challenge him. Talk about dreams, make dreams, make love in the candle light, in the car, in the shower, in the woods while were lost. Have fights, the kind that only really matter just as long as you're having them. Someone I can wrestle with, you know, play hard sometimes & not worry about breaking a nail or an arm. A guy who will bring me flowers once in a while, maybe a rock too or a shell of some sort. Something he saw that made him think of me, made him think "this might make my girl smile" as he smiles to himself. A guy who wants me, maybe even needs me, just a little, enough to hold onto me with everything he's got.

when i was in grade school, they told me to
write down what i wanted to be when i grew up.
i wrote down happy.  they told me i didn't understand
the assignment; i told them they didn't understand life.

The first time you fall in love
it changes your life forever.
& no matter how hard you try.
The feeling never goes away.
- The notebook

Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you, waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.

sorry thats all =/
comments are still nice even though i dont deserve them at this point.. =]

~Chelc Rae

wow im just gonna shut up and update =]

I really want to call you,
but I know that it's not right.
I probably shouldn't tell you
but I dreamed of you last night.
I guess I'm not prepared to say...
goodbye, so long, farewell,
I won't be seeing you again.

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know you'll be a star,
in somebody else's sky,

but why, why, why can't it be mine?
aces up to the girls who have never been kissed. to the girls who get filled with jealousy when another girl kisses a cute boy. to the girls who aren't totally confident and can admit it. to the girls who aren't ashamed to state their faults and finally, to the girls who are afraid of change, and still try to change things.

I can not refuse your eyes,
Please don't look at me tonight.
My heart beats fast I know you're there,
And I pretend like I dont care.
It hurts so bad to know the truth,
But I am still in love with you.

nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
tell me baby, where did I go wrong?
I could put my arms around every boy I see
but they'd only remind me of you.

i miss you more than ever now.
as i stare in space and laugh out loud
at all the stupid things i've done till now.

Most people are stronger than they know.
they just don't choose to believe in themselves

why do people think it's okay
for them to do horrible things
to other people as long as they
apologize afterwards?

Too many people get caught up in what could be
instead of appreciating what is. Don`t fall into that trap.

Appreciate what you have & who you have,
cause the future can take it all away from you

sorry! thats all i can do!
i cant update much anymore obviously, im sorry
but ill update when i can
=]

<3 Chelc Rae