nobody uses xanga anymore
so what's the point in updating?

but here's my myspace
www.myspace.com/ohhwell__imagine

and my facebook
http://hs.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1191000083

enjoy

Homecoming=gay

:EDIT: So i went up to Target to apply....again but i acctually got someone to talk to me this time lol so i'm praying that i get this job and they won't forget to call like freakin Panera did...and just advice to anyone looking for a job don't go to Paneras the one on 119th that is.

I'm

dateless

dressless

and moneyless

so you know how i was supposed to be working at Paneras? well they were supposed to call me about my schedule this week but didn't so i called them and they said they hadn't gotten to it yet and they'd call me that night...yeah didnt' happend so my mom is making look for another job...not happy...and homecoming....i don't even want to think about it, i really want to go but the whole dateless dressless moneyless thing is in the way.

yipee for me.

well it's not like anyways reads this anymore anyways...but i'm gonna write anyways.

so today is 9/11 as all of us know and for some reason this year it really hit me it's like i acctually got everything about it...i wanted to cry watching the shows and films and stuff on it that the teachers showed...but i didn't last year. i remember my mom telling me about it and i didn't understand i was 11 but i still for some reason didn't get it. But what comes to mind is if everything happens for a reason what reason was it that those planes crashed into the world trade center...i have so many questions about things like why things the way that they are like if homosexuality is wrong, then why did God make people that way...i mean wouldn't he have thought of that before hand. i'm sure he did by why wouldn't he do anything about it. and if all sin is the same then why is it that gays get so put down more and they are going to hell...which i'm not sure if i believe in or not. i wish i knew all the answers to anything but i guess that's a part of life..not knowing everything.

Guess who has an orientation tomorrow at 2 at Paneras!? yeahhhh meeeee
ahhh i'm excited!!!! i'm going to get my "uniform" today. woot i'm excited

I want a guy...
that will kiss me on the cheek and tell me i'm beautiful
that will hold my hand during a scary movie
doesn't care what I look like
that will give me big bear hugs
that will talk about me to his friends
that will hold me when i'm crying
that won't cheat on me
that has a lot to give
that has a big heart and isn't afraid to show it
that is funny
that is sweet
that is caring
that will try very hard to get me to smile when i don't want to
that makes me laugh
that wants me for me
is that too much to ask?

I'm at my dad's right now....and i'm really bored so i thought i'd update

so i was looking at some of my old entries, and seeing how retarded they were but also how much i've changed. I always used to get so mad when some of my friends changed and weren't who they used to be, but i am doing the same thing. but i guess it's a good thing. but it makes me sad to think that i'm going to be graduating in about less than 2 years! and that i probably won't be friends with most the people i am friends with now later in my life. I sometimes feel like i'm not quite ready to grow up.

for 0NCE I wish I was the girl who would turn around & walk away from the guy that really loved her & have tears streaming down his face.