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Name: Holly
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Bakersfield
Birthday: 4/23/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: People.
Expertise: Ask anyone that I've ever lived with and they will tell you that the only real reason they keep me around is so I can give them massages ;)
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message me
AIM:  HPIgrl316
Member Since:
11/22/2004
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| So I went to chicago this weekend and hung out with people doing full time ministry in the city. I hate coming back here after weekends like that. It feels so fake and frivilous. I used to feel like I fit in here, but now...I just feel so out of place, so far from where I want to be. I want to be out there with people who arent afraid to admit that they are hurting or that sometimes life sucks. I got to talk to an older man in Boystown who was just so lonely. I could tell he had been through a hard life on the streets and just wanted to talk to somebody...wanted to have just one person who wouldnt ignore him and look the other way. I dont know where God will take me. But I want to be there for people; come along side them in their pain and show them the only One who can really restore them. | | |
| My sister is getting married two weeks from tomorrow! The time has flown by sooo fast! I'm really excited for her and Josh! But I'm gonna miss her....miss living with her, spending Christmas morning in our pj's, eating Chinese together, finding every restaraunt that serves bread pudding, watching Emperor's New Groove with just us and my dad, laughing at Friends, naming our cars, analyizing everything, getting sick from pizookie...you know, just sister stuff. Now, I realize that this doesnt mean that I am losing her forever, but it will just be different. From now on it won't be home, but just visits. It's bitter-sweet, you know? I guess it never ceases to catch me off guard when life brings changes my way. But I am so excited to spend this special time with her--I wish I could be home right now helping her with wedding stuff; but I only have to wait one week. Only one more week until I can be home  | | |
| Is there ever a time when people are talking about a good thing that you know is true, yet somehow you dont feel like it could ever really apply to you? But then again, who are we to think that we are special, you know? Why is it that I would somehow not be included in the rules? Sometimes when I'm not wanting to really surrender, I feel like God's presence is actually soffocating me--like I don't have the cability to give in or to run--I'm just stuck there, numb. But obviously, no one can run from God and as much as the world tries to destroy your hopes, everything that is truely good comes from Him. He doesnt change even if our emotions do. | | |
| I used to think that I could be pretty introverted. I thought that I could live as a hermit just fine and that I love alone time. When did all of this change, is what I want to know! It's been less than 24hrs without human contact (not counting phone conversations) and I am going crazy! I used to love silence and time by myslef, and now I just want to be with people!!! It's crazy what you learn about yourself when you spend thanksgiving break by yourself. | | |
| Winter is here!!!! Last night was the first snow fall of the year and it was so beautiful! Even though i complain about it, I really do love the cold! Even more so, I love Christmas! I love the music and the decorations, the treats and the fellowship, my Jesus and His story....it's all just so wonderful! | | |
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