hello all. Im down another 5 lbs. Omg last week i had to eat dinner at joeys house (we been together for 3mo. now!!)... i was terrified. I only ate half a small steak... oh man i still feel bad about that. But it was a lean steak so i dont think it did that much damage. I think he knows somethings going on. He always tries to make me eat. im just always like im not hungry, i dont want to. but he never stops. And were always always always at his house now since hes got his lisence. It sucks i hate it. But I'm not about to come out and tell him the truth... no way. but he found out about my cutting. he saw it on my arm one day and hes made me stop that. I tuly do love him.. but ive gotten mixed up w/ another boy recently my cousin Sarah's (shes ana too) Boyfriend Kevin's brother Nick. (yeh i know way to keep it in the family huh?) Who ive know since i was in 5ht grade and he was my 1st time, so ill always love him and well always have a 'thing.' but theres just something about nick. Ill go into dairy queen and actually split and chocolate milkshake w/ him. Thats when i was like wow, i must really really really really like this guy because i just drank almost half a small chocolate milkshake w/ him just so i could sit in the same side of the booth w/ him. here is: hes so cute!!

thing is, is that he might be moving to wyoming w/ his parents when school gets out. if that happens, im pretty sure im gonna shoot myself. Because i love this boy.

then heres joey and myself. hes a retard.