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have been thinking  a allot to day ha ha yeah know josh glade you have been thinking but no for real I have been thinking about every thing in my life like what I wont to do when I grow up? and well I ever tell the girl that I like how I feel even though im 99% present sure she does not feel the same also I have been thinking about the summer and what I wont out of it and came up with this I wont to have fun do what I wont be chill not be chill let loosen up go long boarding chill with my rents hang out with all my great Wesleyan friends hang out with Emily of cause.    play with 12am even know we are dead and that’s another thing how could  something  so good so great so be for its time so understandable bec no one was there to ever see us play are best or poses the crazy weird beautiful sounds waves we made as we mad MUSICUL love to are interments just  fall apart well it just came to me like just as I am writing this we stop doing it for fun  know chill just chill don’t even think of getting me rung playing that show was are dream and it came true but the way it all went down was not as planed we started to fight about lil things so it mad it not fun for all of us I guess cant speak for them but only me but that’s = why we are the best kept secret on the east coast went it comes to us never playing any more what a shame any way I would like to have an go at it any way sry kind of  got off track so I wont to this summer: chill with ppl I have never really chilled with and get to know ppl that I never really tried to be friend and just change my day to day life and not just do the same  old thing day in and day out bec memories can only get you so far and you cant just live on them so I will try to step out of my bubble this summer and just do what I wont but also at the same time do what I need what is good what god would have me do so I may share the light with others so I only hope my summer will change for the good and that I may to and that I may also face my up most fear failing and tell that girl how I fell even know I know what she will say before she even moves her lips I guess we will see

I broke a record this is the longest entry  have done senses Dustin started my xanga hope you can under stand what I was say but you prob couldn’t bec its just what’s racing 10000000 mph im my head  so I prob miss worded things sry

Later kids

Ps read the only book you need to

12AM is not a band it is or most likely was a style a form of cool things invented before there time to kids listening to miles Davis in the 9^th grade these kids read musical minds the skills the chillness

the unreeling time of there lives blood brothers to the end but not for ever12am is not a band but a form of cool that will live on for ever only two can understand 12am die on stage is what they live for

RIP

 if you cant under stand this its ok and if you think you can you cant.

Currently Reading The Tell-Tale Heart (Bantam Classics) By Edgar Allan Poe see related

I think im going to start writing in this again

So know im trying to start a new band 12am is going no were fast actually know where at all we just have different priorities right know. so any way im doing this new band thing the new band is called Conway and its going to be a chill sounds but hard when it needs to be  im going to write all the music and play everything I always looked at bands with one person kind of gay but its a lot easier to just play instead of calling all your band mats and planning times to play   and shit  or have people call you  plus with out playing with former band member trey Hudson I cant really groove with any one musically speaking  but any way I have wrote like 5 songs and im stoked to lay them down recording has been held up but more practice will help me  when finely lay my stuff down  I hope its hott guess I will have to hear it

I don’t think any one reads this any more oh well

RIP

Currently Listening Abbey Road By The Beatles see related