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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 00:05:02 GMT

i didnt get the part of jasmine and im not as upset as i thought i would b but im stilll really upset I really wanted that part and i worked hard for it but oh well ill just b a lil dancer in the back were no 1 can c me, so on better news ok there really isnt any good news besides the fact that my car is getting fixed but other then that im kinda depressed but this morning when i woke up i had a feeling that sam got it and then i went to school and yeah she did this sucks i mean im happy for he but i really wanted the part more then i wanted anything and it sucks b/c once again the part i want is taken away from me . . . whatever?

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 01:01:34 GMT

so i just found out that andy ( my step bro ) and his girlfriend broke up ::shock:: i would never guess that they would its so wierd and my step sis (julie) told me there is a goast in her apartment it talked to her twice so i told her to do a check on the people that lied there and there was a girl that was murdered in the appartment below hers ::shock:: oh and i carved my first pumkin yesterday i was so excited and then i got sick but i think im fine now i still feel wierd but better so i hope i can go to school tomorrow and dace on fri ok well ill talk to ya latter

Monday, October 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 02:16:15 GMT

so i signed up for the school play im excited im trying out for the part of jasmin but every ones telling me that this senior is going to get it but i don't know i guess im just gonna try and well see what happens and today i had my first company class we learned this dance that were gonna do sometime in the future it was really cool i liked it and leo is so hot lol oh and im starting to babysit so if ya know anyone who needs a sitter just let me know tehe ok well ttyl

Friday, September 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 02:25:19 GMT

my life is driving me up a wall i cant take it no more things or going crazy between my mom and dad and school and dance and babysitting it all seems to be growing into a bigger and bigger snow ball and its headed to hit me i cant take much more there is so much i got to do and i dont know what to do i need money depertly and i not getting any there needs to be a way i can make money with out getting a job cause i dont have the time and i need to keep my grades up and my car needs to be fixed and i need to pay for RB2 and so much else i cant handle it i just wanna crawl under a rock and cry my eyes out i just wanna hide from the hole world. everyone keeps telling me not to be hard on myself but how can i not be so many people expect so much from me i feel like the hole world is glaring at me and laughing cause my life really sucks right now and i just need to get away i hate to ramble and complain like this but i have to let it out other wise im gonna explode and just kill some one

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 20:02:31 GMT

so i havent been on in a while been very busy with school and stuff um so I audition for the roxy 2 and um i got in I guess its like a jr company kind-a-thing and i audition for the nutcracker and i got in but not the parts i really wanted i got good parts im in flower and snow flurry Idon't knoe if thats differnt from regular snow but whatever lauren got femal doll which i think is the kissing doll and marzapain and flowers we both wanted spanish but maybe next year i really like it at the mill iss cool and i like the teachers im a litle mad at myself i thought icould have done a little better and got a better part but i guess i have to take into accont that i havent danced all summer which im totally pissed off about i really regreat that i'm just gonna have to work extra hard next year i want to get better parts i finaly think i picked a collage i think im gonna go to the collage my mom teaches at cause its near home and i can still dance at the mill and then hopfully get into the company

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 22:43:47 GMT

ok i started school the 12 its all going good cant wait till halloween and the new harry potter movie i saw the brothers grimm and red eye they were awsome um i started at the mill i like it there the classes are fun except i broke my shoes n had to get new one um still single but crushen on a couple of boys not one not two but three yeah im a litle crazy right now

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 15:14:57 GMT

OMG OMG I had that party on the boat to go to and sat. gary had to go to work so I had to wait for him to get home and the party started around 1 and gary got home at 1 so when gary got home I was ready to got to the party but gary wanted to fix the water pump first so he was doing that and accedently bursted the tank and flooded the boat and the tank is right under my bed so my bed ezploded so my mom and gary didn't want to leave untill they fixed it. so pat Bri's dad offered to take me out so i went out with him and Bri and once we got out there I went over to kay and rons boat and i was just sitting there hangen with kurt and bri and about and hour latter my mom and gary came out and then i was hangen on my bout wit bri and then pat had to leave and my boat way tied next to pat so my mom had to go too so bri and i went back to ron and kays boat and we where just sitting there talking and then jackie came over completly trashed singing on a mic. and then bri left on his wave runner and jackie was on the very top of ron and kays boat sing to the songs wit the dj it was so funny so then kay jackie and i were all up top singing to gwen, it was so funny and then we got kevin to come up and jackie went to her boat and passed out. so then kevin and i were singing it was so fun. so then it was like 11 at night and we were all getting ready to leave and we were trying to get someone to drivee jackies boat back cause jackie and anthony were trashed and while we were waiting for gary and pat to come back out this blond girl who was also trashed was claming she could swim back to shore and jumped in the water and started swimming and then started sinking it was so funny so her boy friend was laughing at her while his best friend had to jump in and try to get her back to the boat but he couldn't so bri had to go and get them on his wave runner it was so funny and fun omg i cant wait for the next one

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 19:26:37 GMT

ok my mom has been driving me crazy she wants me to get a job and pick a collage, well first of all I'm only a jr so why the hell do i need to pick a college now and i don't even know what i want to do in college well i know but my mom wont let me I wanna dance and she doesn't want me too in fact today when we were in the car she was telling me that i couldn't get in to a company and maybe i should teach classes instead of dancing in a company cause I dont have the body and you have to be a twig and anerexic and bulimic and blah blah blah I know I'm not the skinnest girl in the world but thats no reason for her to kill my dreams any other mother would be happy that her daughter wants to be a ballerina but no not mine if she didn't want me to dance then why did she enroll me in classes when i was 2 although i guess she didn't think it would go this far maybe she thought i would quit . . . but I'll prove her wrong or die trying I'm not gonna let her ruin my dreams

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 20:17:58 GMT

so i cant wait till the 27th i have this big party to go to on the boat Im so excited and i just cant wait lol it shoould be tons of fun and then school starts I cant wait to see all my friends, and I cant wait to really start dancing again Im gonna be taking classes 6 days a week and with nadia and at the mill I really wish dance elite didnt close I really liked it there.ok well ttyl

Monday, August 08, 2005

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 22:19:18 GMT

so nadia called me and told me she might be teaching at another studio Im excited im mean I have tryed alot of other studios and i found one i like but I really like nadia's classes shes been my teacher for almost 6 years idk what to do