So I'm thinking.

A part of me feels really depressed with life lately.

And the other part feels resolute.

Resolute?? Or have I just resigned myself. I don't know. Lots of memories. I was praying today about that. I wish I could take something that would make me forget everything about the past. All the pain and bad memories make it difficult and I realized today (or admitted finally) that I've been carrying a lot of things around all this time.

Anyway, new year. Lots of things planned for it. Travel. Going back to Nashville. Probably Connecticut at some point to visit with my friends Tom and Amy. Indiana as well. A friend of mine is a worship leader at an AG church in Indianapolis and has invited me to come to his church. And who knows where I'll end up.

Music wise, things have just taken off majorally since coming back from Nashville last year. I decided to step out and start leading worship from the keyboard, even though I can't read music and haven't really had any lessons. I'm just teaching myself, but I've grown more in the past six months than I have in all the years prior. And I've noticed a drastic difference in my voice. It's like it's gone to a new level once I stepped out on the keys. I'm doing things I couldn't do before, going to new heights that I couldn't reach before. My voice has stayed strong consistently, as has my health. I've not been sick in a long time.

Things have really been different for me.

I'm going to buy a new keyboard this year. I'm also going to buy a cordless mic and a power center and stuff. I'm basically trying to get the best equipment I can, because I want to sound the best I can. I love worship and glorifying God through the sound, so I don't want to go half way on anything.

Well, that is all for now.

Well everyone, how are ya'll doing? I'm pretty good. Just waiting to clock in at work.

Well a lot has been going on. I'm a different person than what I used to be. I don't know if that's good or bad yet. I think it's neither. I've just grown up I think. I've just been thinking a lot about things that have happened over the past few years. In retrospect, I'm glad that certain people are gone now. I'm glad that things worked out the way they did. It was best for me and I'm much happier now than I ever was then. Perhaps I'll elaborate later.

Well, I'm totally excited for this!!!!! (Look down)

Encounter 2007!!!! I'm so pumped!!! It's gonna be awesome!!!! Gotta start saving and getting ready for it now. Last year was off the hook, and I desperately need this get away.

I sang karaoke for the first time last Friday! I was at Pastor Deriks bachelor party (which was totally lame). We went bowling and then after that was done, a few of us went to Buffalo Wild Wings. PD didn't go. How lame. He basically lied and said he needed to go home and get rest for the next day, but at around 3 AM some people drove by his work and he was there. Yeah, his house is TOTALLY getting pranked while he is away. hehehe But anyways, they were doing karaoke there at BWW's and they finally talked me into singing. I sang "Higher" by Creed and "Hanging By A Moment" by Lifehouse. The manager and the dj were blown away! lol The manager wanted to record me, and the dj kept asking me where on earth I had been and why I hadn't come up and sing earlier. So I'm going back one more time. I was freaked out at first but it was fun after the fact. I'm trying to pick songs that are Christian based.

Well this was just a quick blurb. I'll talk more later. God bless you guys and gals!

Livin It, the college night that we are hosting as a church, has started up. We've had two so far, and both have been very successful. We are working with several local churches, reaching across denominational boundaries, which some of you all might remember is a dream and vision of mine come true. It's just beginning.

I'm not dead. I'm very much alive, and have walked right into a whole new season of my life, quite unexpectedly. I'm glad God knows what He's doing!!

God bless y'all!!!

-Malibu