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Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Monday, May 05, 2008

  • what a crazy, mixed up world.

    i qualified in my persuasive [about losing] that i wrote two weeks ago on the way back from santa rosa because i was really discouraged the i didn't break to finals in OI.  i didn't even break in OI at CHAT, but my persuasive qualed at it's second tourny.  . . . my OI feels left out.  :P 

    more thoughts to come later.  my brain needs a break.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

  • the RACE

    It's kind of annoying how you can work and work and work so hard for something for so long and not get it.  How you can dedicate years of your life to one thing and watch people with half the experiance and half of your age reach that thing before you.  You watch these kids start the race and win their first try, and they never know what it's like to lose.  And they never know what it's like to cry, or to keep going even when it's hard.  But they win anyway, and you have to question whether they even appreciate it.  And you start to wonder if you'll ever get to the end or if you're destined to be the "side kick" in the movie that is life.  And when you begin to cry in your little corner and wonder why you ever tried to do this, you suddenly realize that you just can't quit.  You discover that it's harder [and hurts more] to not care at all then it is to battle the bitter disappointment that you face everytime you fall short . . again.  So you pick yourself up, dust yourself off, wipe your own tears, and start running again.  And you rediscover the feeling of earth beneath your feet and you remember why you run.  It's not entirely because you want to win.  But because you just love . . . debating.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

  • For as long as I can remember...

    i have hated summer with every fiber of my being.  it's hot and boring.  nothing to do and so unorganized.  no friends.  nothing special.  our neighborhood is cut off by a highway on both sides so we can't really go anywhere or do anything.  stinks.

    i would count the days till fall.  cool weather.  debate.  friends.  activities.  school.  organized schedules.  heeeeaven.

     

    for some weird reason.  i actually want it to be summer.  since just after christmas i've had this obsession with summer.  i can't wait for the barbeques and the summer clothes.  the water.  pools.  beaches.  sunsets.  marshmellow roasting.  hot dogs.  the fourth of july celebrations.  the colors.  the activity.  the lazy afternoons. 

    this my friends, is the time to be young.  the day is ours.  let's claim it. 

    i am sooo ready for summer.  and when it comes, i'll enjoy every second.  and i'll cherish it ..

                                                                         .. For as long as I'm able to remember.

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