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Expertise: I had complaining, but I had to change it. Because I noticed that even though you complain, it does not one bit of good. So my expertise...telling stories.
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7/27/2004
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| My mornings are rough for me. I feel real sorry for my husband. Some mornings he tries to be so sweet and I snub him off. I'm so depressed in the mornings. I'm reminded of how my body doesn't look the way I want it to. I'm reminded of how lazy I am: I haven't gone to the gym in over a week. I see the piles of clothes on the floor. I see the dishes piling up in the sink. I'm reminded of how broke I am: by looking at my clothes and wishing I could get more, but can't. by looking at my hair and needing the proper tools to make it look the way I want it to. Then I hear a voice that tells me that I am increadibly blessed compared to most of the world, and I feel even worse for complaining. So then I start to cry. I try to hide my tears from my husband.
....then I go to work, and all that I've put myself through fades away. And the night is wonderful.....until the next morning when the cycle starts all over again.
I hate being broke during Christmas. Can't buy the things that I would like to buy for those closest and dear to me. POOH!! | | |
| HAPPY BELATED THANKSGIVING!!!
How did everyone's Thanksgiving go? Mine when very well. We went to my brother in laws first and then a few hours later went to my dad's cousin'. Then at the last minute decided to visit our friends. So full!!! Tried to get up this morning to work out. I got out of bed and went, but didn't have a good workout. I've got a massive headache today.
You wanna know something..... it sux big time being broke around the holidays.  All the sales are going on. I keep telling myself that I'm going to save for the holidays and always end up spending that savings throughout the year.
I just went on the website of the hotel that we are going on our honeymoon (Cozumel) and Jan, Feb, & March are completely booked!! So we'll have to settle for April. I'll keep ya updated.
I'm getting old, too. My husband and I went out to the clubs with our friends the night before Thanksgiving. I couldn't hang like I used to. 2am came around and I was pooped out.
Well have a happy happy week ya'll !!!! | | |
| *sigh* it's that feeling again. That loop hole that seems to never end. You know....where one negative thought leads to another, which leads to another, etc, then you're right back at the original thought. Last night I was hanging out w/ my husband and 2 of his friends. I suppose it was jealousy, but I wanted his attention. But it was one of his friends b-day, so it's not my day to steal the spotlight. So I got over it, or so I thought. While we were playing pool, I looked at my reflection in the mirror and got disgusted with myself. I'm just in a negative bubble. Perhaps it'll pass. Well....I know it'll pass if I let it go and turn to God. Which I did this morning. But I wished I would have last night. I downed 2 beers to get me buzzing so that "maybe" I'd fall asleep quickly, and instead I cried for 20 mins and then fell asleep. I was crying for no specific reason. Just crying. Then I was crying because I was crying. silly, huh? Why do we let satan take advantage of us, of our emotions? I'm gonna nap now. It's lunch time. Hope everyone's doing well. I'll be ok....after my nap.  Thanks for always being there! | | |
| geez! why does this time of year have to be so freakin' depressing?!? I'm so irritable and nit-picking at the littlest things. I've become super jealous. I know one reason why i'm feeling this way is because I haven't been praying enough. My husband has been super sweet and caring, but I've been nit-picking because he doesn't come up to me and kiss me or give me a hug. I keep mentioning it to him and he still won't give me a kiss. I would love to have one when I come home from work. I know it's not his love language. But I've adjusted to his love language.... sigh... I just want this dark cloud to go away. I haven't been able to sleep the past couple of nights.
Then we're suppose to pic out pictures for the wedding album tonight and that just got thrown out the window because of his friend wanting to go out to dinner. His friend isn't the problem it's his already married girl friend. It'll just be another day with all the inside jokes between my husband and his friend. I guess I just don't like being out of the loop. I used to be in the loop, but now I have no clue what's going on. So in a sense, I don't feel like hanging out with them. But then I miss my hunny bunny so much.
I just need to pray. | | |
| So I'm sitting here, trying to figure out what i'm going to be for halloween. I need to be creative. At my work there is a $40 cash prize for 1st place. I've run accross 2. One of my co-workers is going to be a sexy Mrs. Clause (we're actually calling her Mr. Clause's mistriss). With her costume being that, if we do a department theme, I was thinking of being a letter to Santa.
Take an old white pillowcase and cut out three holes for your head and arms, so it will fit over your chest. Use a black marker to address it to Santa Claus at 1 Merry Lane, Cold, North Pole, 12250. Make up a fake return address and draw on a stamp. Stuff it as needed to make it look like an envelope.
Another one:
E-Mail: Dress as a man (if you are not one already!) Tape an "E" on chest. "E"-male.
I'm still going through all the ideas on this one website. www.costumeideazone.com.
we'll see. I'd really like to be catwoman off of Batman Returns, the whole patent leather with the white stitches, but I'm not going to pay $60 for a costume. | | |
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