| | *sigh* it's that feeling again. That loop hole that seems to never end. You know....where one negative thought leads to another, which leads to another, etc, then you're right back at the original thought. Last night I was hanging out w/ my husband and 2 of his friends. I suppose it was jealousy, but I wanted his attention. But it was one of his friends b-day, so it's not my day to steal the spotlight. So I got over it, or so I thought. While we were playing pool, I looked at my reflection in the mirror and got disgusted with myself. I'm just in a negative bubble. Perhaps it'll pass. Well....I know it'll pass if I let it go and turn to God. Which I did this morning. But I wished I would have last night. I downed 2 beers to get me buzzing so that "maybe" I'd fall asleep quickly, and instead I cried for 20 mins and then fell asleep. I was crying for no specific reason. Just crying. Then I was crying because I was crying. silly, huh? Why do we let satan take advantage of us, of our emotions? I'm gonna nap now. It's lunch time. Hope everyone's doing well. I'll be ok....after my nap.  Thanks for always being there! |
| | Posted 11/10/2005 12:27 PM - 1 comments
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