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| *my war paint is sharpie ink*So what, so what!! Why, what was the big deal? And how the hell do I let people take control of me, my body, my emotions....! control, this is the issue, control of what? your life, mine? Fuck that! I'm so tired of this. I'm going to be 23!!! and I feel old as fuck. what the hell. *increase the peace* | | |
| Damn...It's been a long time since I last updated this thing. I doubt that anyone reads this anymore, as a matter of fact, with the new fancy changes I know that nobody reads this anymore :) It's all good. I haven't kept up with it and no I haven't been obsessing over "Myspace" either. I just find it hard to sit down and write. I haven't written much lately. I'm a teacher now... yah pretty big deal. I am having lots of fun and stressing out. So much goes on in my day and these children soak up all of my patience that I come home and flop... then I start working on what my projects will be for the next day. I just finished writing a newsletter, I'm planning a costume party, I'm trying to reorganize my classroom, I'm struggling with getting a student some early intervention, trying to figure out the best way to approach teaching preschoolers how to keep their hands to themself! I wouldn't change it for the world. I'm finding it harder to sleep though...just so much going on. My girls are doing well. Kris is still an engineer, Mo' is in the second grade, and Rosie is going to be a fairy for Halloween :) hehe. Kris and I are going to Block Party again, I'm going to be a lion and she's going to be a lion tamer. I don't know if I spelled that right but I don't care. Anywho I'm not even sure this is going to be read so how about I stop now and see what happens later before I spill anymore of me out onto this thing... *Increase the Peace* | | |
| *I forget all my dreams...* I'm tired of staying home every weekend. Of never going anywhere, of always being in the house... I mean its cool just to kick back but not after its been a whole week of snowdays and bad weather and nothing to do but try to clean what always gets messed up. I'm tired of only going out if we have plan, or errands to run or *sigh* I dunno. I'm just grumpy and mean and inconsiderate I guess. Its not like there's anywhere to go anyway. I guess I'm just unappreciative and selfish. I'm all these things all these things all these things... | | |
| *and I'll take you for who you are, if you take me for everything* Its sad really. Am I to blame? Is it me who is lacking? Well of course. I chose NOT to induldge in the language. I chose NOT to find the proper way to speak it but still... Just because I don't speak it, doesn't make me any less than you. So you came straight from Mexico and yah I grew up in Texas, only visited Mexico what, two? three times maybe, just because of that we can't talk to each other. You speak English too, you communicate just as well with everyone else who speaks only English, and I understand you when you talk about me in Spanish, yah that's right, just because my headphones are on doesn't mean I can't hear you...*sigh* there's no gray area. How some days I wish there was a gray area, some days... | | |
| *I want a Sunday kind of love, one that will last past Saturday night* So its been a looong time. Not that anyone reads this anymore... Not much is actually going on anyway. Halloween is coming up, my all time favorite holiday season. We are having our first snow of the season today. It still freaks me out. So much for getting some driving practice in. Its freaking colder than cold. Times are tiring... what do you know...School is a bit more stressful this year but I'm glad to be back. Hmm let's see well that's it... *Increase the Peace* | | |
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