Today is a good day...The waters have finally ceased to ripple and tranquility has returned.
I realize that it has been nearly a month since I have written anything, but in that time I have discovered many things. Things about my life. Things about my surroundings. Things about my friends. Things about myself. Secrets and burdens that I have carried for far too long and have finally built the courage to bring to the surface. And what has come from this?
I am finally learning to let go of my inhibitions and fears, and to allow myself to simply have fun. Oftentimes I waste entirely too much energy on worrying what others think of my actions. I then hold myself back and as a result miss out on many opportunities. I find myself standing in the back corner alone as I watch my friends and life in general simply pass me by. What kind of life is that? None at all.
I am also learning that it is OK to be alone some of the time. As most young people are, I have been far too consumed with having as many friends as I can. But it is in your deepest, darkest, and most depressed moments that you come to realize that the thing that truly counts is not popularity but instead piousness. It is at this time that you truly come to understand the meaning of the phrase "quality over quantity." Because of this I get down on my knees and thank God every day for those people that have always been here for me through the years, and you know who you are. I love you all very dearly.
I am learning to let go of some of the stress in my life. I am learning that I cannot do it all. I am giving up some of my extracurricular activities at school so that next year I can focus mainly on finishing up my degree and getting into graduate school. If I can get into grad school at UT-Austin that will seriously be a dream come true. But basically, I don't want to spend all of next year having to run from this place to that place. I want to be able to have fun as well and hang out with my friends, most of whom I won't see after next year if I go to school in Texas.
So, today is a good day. A day of hopes. A day of dreams. A day of serenity. And with the school year coming to a close very quickly and the many opportunities that I have been graciously afforded this summer through my new internship and various trips that I shall be taking, I have many things to look forward to.
Yes, today is a good day, and tomorrow can only get better!  | 
