If you thought an online journal was my way to get through to my friends, you were so wrong that it's ridiculous.

Surprisingly, I've had two people in the past couple days tell me that they know I express myself better if I'm writing, that I'm not a confrontational person...

Why do you think I keep an online journal? I can type 40 times faster than I can write by hand, or else I would keep a diary.

Sometimes I need to just VENT. My entries are MEANT to give me the chance to be immature and selfish and whiney, because I hate being like that 'in life,' though apparently I do a lot of it then too.

I'll let my ff.net followers know where to find sugary-sweet entries about my writing. I consider this a pretty good run. I really enjoyed xanga and appreciated every aspect of it. Just kind of wish I hadn't told some people about it. I never wanted to hurt anybody.

Second year utterly and completely sucks.

For the rest of you, I'm out.

I'll go somewhere you don't have to read about it.

Currently Listening Wicked (2003 Original Broadway Cast) For Good see related

I'm so tired of being pissed off or hurt all the time. I'm tired of having people pissed off at or able to hurt me.

This ends NOW.

God made me stronger than this. I can take whatever the world dishes out. He wouldn't give me something too hard to handle without Him. The ice princess can come back out to play if that's what it takes.

So bring it on.

Currently Listening Wicked (2003 Original Broadway Cast) Defying Gravity/For Good see related

When I left for accounting, my room was normal. When I got back, Steph and Grace had decided to completely rearrange the entire thing. And it's ugly.

A) The first thing you see when you walk in is the wardrobe. It's huge and it blocks all the light from the window.

B) There is no longer a place where I don't have to change in front of the door, unless I want to stand on Steph's bed, and I can't block anything from the window from there, since her entire little area is right up against it.

C) The last time we switched the room around (at the beginning of the year), the only thing I asked was that my bed remain close to the window, and that was okay. My bed was near the window.

D) I was not warned that there WOULD be a change.

E) Just because Steph couldn't figure out where to put the STUPID box that Matt made her (which he should NOT have done), does NOT mean that she gets to change the whole room around and put me in the corner!!

F) Grace may be WELCOME in our room whenever she wants, but she does NOT get to help decide that all my stuff should be moved.

G) Steph is never HERE. How attached to a room can you feel if you're never there?!

G) I have asked ONE thing of them: that I don't get left out. THANK YOU SO MUCH.

First my parents give my room at home to Jamie without telling me, and now this.

I feel SO loved.

Currently Listening Wicked (2003 Original Broadway Cast) Defying Gravity see related

I've picked Marauders back up... and I accidentally might have moved up the Sirius ******* (no, it's not a bad word... I just don't want you to actually know what it is) scene. Luckily I believe I can get myself out of it fairly easily. Just have to make the tower a more monumental location in their relationship (whatever that may be), that's all. Sometimes I really must love myself for getting out of the corners I write myself into.

Then again, that's probably why I don't go through all the tedious explanation conversations. For one, I'd probably explain myself around in circles until I got confused and screwed everything up, and for another thing, explanation conversations are so BORING. That's why I quit reading some stories, even if the idea is a REALLY good one. Conversations are essential to character building (even if they're only talking to themselves) and relationship development (even if it's the most random conversation  you've ever seen), but when all they ever do is have conversations, and then repeat those conversations to other people LATER... THAT gets REALLY old.

So does describing dress, okay, guys? If you ever write a story, it's okay to elaborate on clothing if it's important to the story (AKA it happens to be very camoflaugey colors and they HAPPEN to have to hide later on...) or if it's a special occasion and you want to make sure that people get the general idea of how pretty someone is, but for God's sake, do NOT go through the whole getting-dressed process (unless one of those important conversations is taking place), and do NOT go into infinite detail about how their hair is done and what jewelry they're wearing and what colors their make-up is and exactly where every inch of the dress/suit falls... or how strappy or healy or shiny their shoes are.

And PLEASE, for the love of every holy thing there is, DO NOT DO THE PREVIOUSLY MENTIONED THINGS FOR ALL EIGHT OF YOUR MAIN CHARACTERS. Bloody hell! Do you think I'm really that interested in the intimate details of James and Sirius and Remus and Peter and Lily and Alice and Arabella and Molly? I'm not! I could care less if Lily's hair was 1/4 up and 3/4 down... that sort of description only goes to prove that you lack true substance, and we don't want that. Pfft.

Unless it's important to the future of the plot line, characters who are destined to fall in love do not have to notice each other right off the bat. They also do not have to 'somehow' find the miraculous courage to stand up to this person, when they can't do this with other people. This makes your plot obvious and stupid.

So for now, I will close... and I'll quit ranting at you, though I'm doomed to do it again.

*snark*

My boy Patrick Wilson has a movie coming out, and of course I simply must tell everyone about it. Because Patrick's my boy. And he's cool.

...

... and he knows Gerry.

http://www.apple.com/trailers/lions_gate/hardcandy/