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Isaiah40Z31
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Name: Jonathan
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Rockford
Birthday: 2/11/1978
Gender: Male
Interests: Music is a part of my life, along with hangin with my friends and dormmates. I would have to say that U2 and Sting are two of my top choices in artists. U2 for the Spiritual depth and Sting for the Poetical side. I enjoy art through poetry, drawing, photography, and just living life step by step.
Expertise: I am an expert in knowing that I am not perfect...and that I am not alone in my field of expertice.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Isaiah40Z31
Member Since:
12/25/2004
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| One of those life things....So I met a girl....and she loves Jesus...don't know where to go next and that's alright with me.
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| Million miles an hourWhat do you do when you hardly have time to take care of your own life...let alone pour into others? I haven't really had time to reflect on where God has placed me because my energy is so consumed by work. I went to church today to visit with one of the teachers from the class and started comparing it to the church I used to be in. You know you never see things from the same perspective at the front because hindsight is always 20/20 but I haven't really had time to pray about where God wants me, or who I should strive to pour into...should I even strive to pour into a church here or is my job my mission field?
You know I recall a time when I went driving around Longview one Sunday morning and went to one of the bookstores, just wandering around town aimlessly like I used to do. I started looking at different people wondering who they were, what they believed in, why they weren't at a church. Then I stared wondering why people who go to church do. When do we get to a point where we are built up in Christ and go out into the world? Is there such a point. I find it hard to believe that I have connected more with non-believers than I have with my brothers and sisters in Christ. I find it baffling that I can go out drinking with one of my co-workers and he opens up to me about things in his life that he doesn't understand yet when I am with my brothers and sisters in Christ there is a breakdown of what's important simply because "we are all going to heaven"...but when does being a believer keep us from opening up to each other?
I think the stress from work is getting to me, and I am ready for a break...for a pause in this life, much like the moments I had back home a couple summers ago, much like the moments up in Colorado...I feel like my life is out of sync, almost like a record with a scratch in it that keeps it from continuing to play yet instead it skips, stutters, and stays in a single rut. God get me out of this rut, let me run with the horsemen and be excellent in my work.
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| NutzYes that is how my week is beginning to feel....just a little chaotic, draining but most of all FUN! Yeah you might think I am a little crazy right now but I am really beginning to enjoy my job. Feels like I am being pulled from every direction, trying to learn and produce quality work at the same time while trying to keep up with our clients, please my project manager and my boss and be a team player all at the same time. I feel though as if I don't spend enough time working on the critical part of documentation but spend more time talking with people about the issues and concerns that they have. Then when our client has questions that I don't have all the answers to I want to find out those answers, but being somewhat OCD I want to re-organize everything I take in, and that takes more time. I hope that I can continue to do things the way I always have....but for some reason I feel that I can become much more efficient if I had a better way to organize my day. Oh crud, I just remembered another thing I need to do for tomorrow :( Well it is surprising to me that I am actually enjoying work...I like taking stuff home to work on when there is a necessary timeline. I guess I must be a glutton for punishment...but for some reason I believe there is a greater good that I will reach through this job. I don't know if I will stay here for a year, two, or even ten....but I have a tremendous amount of peace that this is where the Lord wants me to be right now. Now if I could only get back on my trail and be in God's word like I was two years ago then I think some of my other desires will fall into place. Sometimes I wonder if I am only hurting myself by not letting others into my life.
God take away any barrier I have set up in my life. Break down my walls and let your Love and Grace flow recklessly into my life. I don't know how long I can manage at this job without the support You know I need...but I am your servant Lord and will live as You desire. I am yours!
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| Bubble PoppingSo...Yesterday I sat down with the young man I have been working with to talk about our overlap of projects while he leaves for France. It was also my one month performance review in which he went over all the things I had done and commented on how I did everything he had anticipated. He also expressed how up until now I had been inside this bubble, and how that bubble was about to be popped. If I had not been as proactive this might have been a scary thing...but since I put forth a bit of effort, and have been somewhat hardheaded on certain issues this bubble popping I think is going to be enjoyable.
This means that I am going to be able to be more independent at work, not having to go constantly to someone about what they are looking for, but simply get to do my work the way I want to do it. It also means I will be more responsible for my work, but if I can maintain my level of quality in the work I do, this will only mean more opportunities to Shine for Christ. It seems when it came to regular homework, I could care less...because I didn't see the profit in doing a good job outside of just getting a good grade, which was a reflection on me. Now I feel that the work I do is of great profit, not only to my company, of which I am representing, but also of Christ in me. So I look forward to having this bubble popped...and be immersed in the thicket of the Jordan, where I will not be running with the footmen, but will be running with the horses...This job I believe is still training, but I feel like it's more than just a job...more like an opportunity to truly live!
"If you have run with the footmen and they have tired you out, Then how can you compete with horses? If you fall down in a land of peace, How will you do in the thicket of the Jordan?" Jeremiah 12:5
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| Almost98% settled is how I feel right now. I have an amazing job, have been making some amazing friends, and finally have internet connected to my apartment...so I feel almost settled into this new place. The first month was pretty rough, trying to find an apartment, then trying to find furniture to fill that apartment, then trying to find a church home to grow and pour into...And I feel God is making some big progress in this thing called living. It's raining outside and getting a little chilly...no concern for me now. I feel life is about to get exciting like there is something just around the bend, over the horizon...don't know what it is but I can feel God smiling down on me now.
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