I wish you could see the scar you left on me.
The scar you've imbedded inside of me.

I wish you could feel the fucking terror you've caused inside of me.

I wish you could have seen yourself and the way you acted. I'm not your fucking mother.

I wish I could have seen the look on your face when you finally realized what you did.
But i will never get to see that look, because you don't remember a fucking thing. Well great for you to not be able to recollect the situation, and great for me, because i will always have that recollection for as long as i fucking live.

It's really a shame how one day, one hour, one minute can ruin everything

It's a shame that i can no longer look at you the same way.

This event is plastered in my mind, like a bad song stuck on repeat.

You too have proved to me that i still should never trust anyone anymore, and that the people you consider your best friends always end up hurting you the worst.

Thank you so fucking much.

Love
Kare Bear<3

I don't hate you.

I couldn't hate you.

I don't even know you...

anymore.

So my childhood is coming to a completion. and i have my plans set for when i retire. i just need to figure out the entire middle part of my life.

it's not easy.

it's times like these that remind me why i can't trust anyone anymore.

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1. you're one of the most important people in my life. and  i will love you forever. however it has come to attention that there might just be a new boy in your life and i'm afraid he's taking first priority over me. When we finally have time to hang out you seem to tired to do anything fun. this is exactly what happened with your last boyfriend. and i had a hard time telling you how i felt about it. and you know i can always tell you anything. so i hope you remember we're still friends and you need to share you with me as well.

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2. things between me and you have gotten a lot better lately. i've finally given up focusing on all the little things that bug me about you. sure you still haven't changed, those things still happen but i've learned to not care any more. i'm glad we're friends and all the things i like about you have over powered those i don't like. i've learned i truly can't change people, and i can't go around not being friends with people just because they are not my "perfect friend" every friendship has it's flaws but friendship is about getting through all those little bumps and turns and still staying friends at the end of the road.

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3. gosh i think you're the most happiest person i've ever met. i don't believe there is a day i've spent with you that you were not smiling. you bring happiness to my life as well as humor and excitement. i always have a great time with you no matter where we are or what we may be doing. your laugh is so contagious, and i can recognize it anywhere. you are an amazing friend and i'm very fortunate to have met you.

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4. what started out as a weekly tradition soon turned into our friendship. you have helped me to be more confident about myself and my appearance. as well as helping me to become more technologically aware of things. and also up on the recent celebrity gossip and new television shows. i guess i could call you my eyes. you look out for all the things i miss while i'm wrapped up in my own crazy life. i am constantly learning new things from you, you are after all a wonderful teacher, you're the first one i look up to for help when i've hit a dead end.

<3

Kare Bear