hopefully u get to read this...cause i know i wont be able to say it to your face......

im only doing this because you aint sayin anythin, i could be wrong but i know we wont talk about it anytime soon. let alone we wont be able to talk about it without another fight or tears runnin down so here it goes...
    im sorry for making you deal with my shit and im sorry for having you stress on me. i will love you alwaiz and cause of that ima with let go of you..im not sure how this will affect meeh in the long run, but i dont want u stressin or hurtin cause of me. i dont want to be the burden of your pain. so im sayin my goodbye cause i figure its for the better..
thank you for what you have done for i will apreciate it greatly cause u dealt wit soo much more than anyone i know....

love alwaiz and forever
dharlyn

so what do u do when the person u thought who was gonna by your side through thick and thin aint there nomore?? i dont know...im tryin to busy myself yet the thought of him comes in my mind again though everythin materialistic that reminds meeh of him is not in my dorm room anymore... im in a type of mental battle wit myself..wit tryin to forget the boy and then thinkin bout the better times...i swear the only to forget about things is move away from everythin and everyone i have contact wit and putt them ALL in the past..but i couldnt do that i would miss too many people...

well tryin to get on a better note..me ce tae and jonathon went trick or treatin yesterday and it was great to have free candy in my stash..

yesterday i was talkin to clown tryin to get somethin in his head..make him realize shit that there are people who care bout him but are on the line of giving up and why cant he jsut turn his ways around and do somethin wit his life..well i said my peace but when i tried to further explain damnz i get clicked on.....what is it wit niggas and the TRUTH they dont want to listen to...do they just not want to hear that they are wrong? and just refuse to see the truth...

im done wasting my breathe i aint speakin my mind on how people act and stuff nomore...ima just keep my tongue in for once and see what other people will say if they will say anythin....and how they act from now on without meeh sayin a word....

-dharlynjoy

my life routine seems to alwayz stay the same...one death happens its a downward spiral...and im down to the ground...the worst part about it...is i wanna cry but it wont come out..so it just stuck in my chest..and the only way to let it out is blackin on people...so im sorry to all my niggas expecially charles cyn and nkem since they got it worse..sometime i just cant believe the stuff i do go through but its life...and life u do gotta go through changes...and though its gonna be hard u gonna have to let go off your past and move on....how and when ima do that ..its gonna take a while to fully leave shit alone....

im outz

iitez so i went home and got my runs done to see everbody..one of the stops it pissed meeh off damnz people care bout a certain person and try to tell the boy to go into the right direction....but no it dont happen...
so basically i i had a conversation wit momz nah meanz talkin bout her dumb ass son...and how she feed up yet she tried so hard for a son of misfortune that she kinda wasnt supposed to have..but yet raised him the best he could but now she finally gave up everyone done gave up...i dont blame her i would have grown tired of tryn so hard..she said to pray for him so thats all i could do...cause i've talked enough and im out of breath of speakin to him...and tryn to say wassup...well i went to see everybody then went to the game then to bloomfield. ...i aint stay like i was gonna..but watever

im tired..im outz for the nightz