w0wyyy...

it's been a while!!! wh0aa. life is GREAT. amazingly amazing. still g0t my L0WS but still try`n t0 live it positively. ohhh my gracious. we're almost graduating.

i'm scared =/

i'm still attatched to my typical dayyys, i'm AFRAID to let go. I don't even wanna think about it!....

LALALA... *not thinkin` ab0ut it*

psssh...lolz. anyway, my walk with my bestestest friend--JESUS, has been good. still try`n t0 be strong & to maintain a close relationship. although, at times it may be difficult. but I thank him for always leavin` his arms open f0r me.....when I stumble or when i'm on track, he's always by my siiide. yeahhh, he's got MY BACK!

hahah.

i'm happy, glad, mix`d up........twacky kinda.

until then, G0D BLESSSSSSSS.

omg, it's almost thanksgiving!! waitin` for the grubby grub grub!! mm yumm! then, it's gonna be Christmas! yay! ....I wish I was ALWAYS happy. lately, it's been BLAH.  total swings! tears would just drip and anger would take over my heart. although, there's nothing that's a big deal to cry over...I just end up tearin!! it sucks. I seriously don't know what's wrong w/ meee. today I totally blanked on my trig quiz, and blahhh...I was very frustrated. I ended up cryin` and getting mad at myself. I STUDIED, honestly I did....but oh well. Hopefully my results are at least OKAY. I've also been sooo overwhelmed. I've been feelin STRESSED. yupp you heard! we're havin` a youth crusade for our church and i've been like the head-grafX designer, making sure everyones doing their part, and they're throwing in extra crap for me to deal with. I mean, i'm not complaining..but SHEESH, there's barely anyone who's helping...let them do it! To top it OFF, schools is a piss off. At the same time, the teachers are throwin tests` & quizes, projects, and last-min crap! ughhh. hopefully during this 4day wkend, I won't have as much hw n stuff. I know I already have a PSYCH> project to finish and TRIG HW. I hope my honors english teacher doesn't give us any shitload, if she does....i'm fully gonna breakd0wn . Also theres guest aka-- (cousins who's parents just left them for awhile, and the parents think they could just leave their children w/ us) and it's quite ANNOYING. it's like i'm a freakin` young mother taking care of someone wh0's 14 yrs old. Other than that, I wouldn't be highly pissed if he was helping around the house, but this kid is LAZY. ALL he does is watch television, and lay around. I'm SERIOUS. he's doin` it right now. like ALWAYS. ughhh. and we ALWAYS have to tell him to clean up after his mess and shit. EW. okay i'm done...i'm gettin` outta control.

something....ease my anger, please!!

have a happy thanksgiving!!!!

current mood: satisfied yet worried.

"eager to know what the future holds."

like my quote? heheh! well, i'm quite sleepy but I decided to update w/ my xanga peepz. life's been extremely great. I thank God for that. although there are situations that I encounter, I think of them as minor. our 1st Q just ended. I was able to see what my GPA was in one of my classes & I got a 3.677... which means i'm on honor roll. Got all A's and one C, yuppp TRIG. I dislike it w/ a passion =X. I have lotsa homework this wkend for my british literature (honors english) class, and I think the disease "SENIORITIS" has struck! eek. I'm slowly lagging. I've been speaking to many diff. guys and it's quite whacked out. I mean, they call me & stuff and I don't wanna be rude, so I just open up and talk to them. I've met 5 new diff. ones this past month, and most of them tend to call me. Honestly though...i`m soo N0T interested in being in a relationship at the moment. I'm tired of all the useless crap, such as---stress, worries, lies, heartbreaks, etc. I'm sick of it. ugh! anyhow, i'm happy being single. really I am! just being FRIENDS will do. Maybe in the future when I FEEL like having one, hopefully the right one will come along =D. i'm somewhat adjusting to our new house, we just bought some new furniture today. we're not quite settled in yet =X. omg, the holidays are coming up! i`m definitely EXCITED! i'm just dreading schoooooolWORK. yuck! but whatevers.

talk about random.

luv yah!...G0D BLESS.

-mayLENE

current mood: sick feeling!

Hello my xangers! it's been a while. sorry, I find myspace more interesting...but trust me, i`ll never ever abandon xanga! well, life has been goin` grrrreat....i'm try`n to live it drama-free, although there are people who still wants to live the past.......whatever. I caused nothing to make people hate me & trust me on that. I'm just livin` MY LIFE. i'm not intruding into others, that's their problem! many despise me, but i`ll brush em off. useless crap in life. School has been good, i`m doin` well...I hope my outcome looks good too =) !! well, it's been a while since we've moved from kihei to waikapu. I miss kihei, but oh wells. gotta do whatcha gotta do. As you can tell, i`m fully STALLiNG time. hah, I chose going to work over going to our homecoming game, & it's my last yr too =/ ! priorities first. okie dokez, I have to get ready. I`ll be back soon. Take cares & G0D BLESS!

-maylene

current mood: glOomY like that.

well, I would say life was GREAT...and it still is but there's some major things that would be excluded from my life as of now and who knows until when? school has been okay, sometimes. senior yr isn't all that great...more stress for me since I decided to take a couple of challenging courses--hah I didn't know that they were counted as electives! I only needed 3 yrs of math & 3 yrs of science but I went beyond the standards and took 4 yrs. I thought they would be considered core classes as well, but I thought completely wrong! anyway, my science course is simple...and trigonometry isn't bad soo far, I just doze off a lot =X. the class that's killing me is H-english. omg, I usually enjoy english but this yr...since I got reccomended to a higher course, it succckkkz!-maj0rly! wellOhz, I've been making use of our public library =] ...i've been going there lately to do my hw. it's quite funny b/c most of the time I go w/ my cousins and we would bump into my brother and our friend bobby (they're studying for their realtor courses) and they would be like the loooudest! shameness...but hilarious at the same time =P ! today, I went shopping....I just needed to release some things off of my mind. It helped just a little bit, but then my loverr called & told me that he's not moving back to maui. talk about SADNESS! I couldn't handle him being on vacation for 2 wks, now I have to cope w/ him living on a different island! that sucks! like, I don't know what to do! I could be completely desperate and move my face there, but i'm not that desperate.....besides, i'm tooo young! well, I just don't know how to deal w/ this.........I mean, it's not like i'm going to break up w/ him just becuz he's not physically here, b/c of course I wouldn't do that. I feel as if he's *THE 0NE.* I suppose I just hafta be PATiENT and see what happens. After all, I went through a lot w/ him...ups & downs, and he's the ONLY 0NE out of all the others that completely UNDERSTANDS where i'm coming from. For example, he practically knows my whole family & friends, he attended my church, he understands that I put Jesus first in my life, he respects me, what else? the list goes on like foreverrz. hawww, I don't know. Like I said, i`ll see what happens. okie d0kez, nitenite. I doubt anyone reads this but oh wells! i'm expressing how I feel at the moment.