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Monday, June 18, 2007

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 23:31:58 GMT

Well it was Chanel's birthday get together on saturday. Went to Genki Sushi with Chanel, Stacy, Jazz and Daniel. After Genki's we went to Borders to wait for my dad to get off from work so we could take him to my aunts house. .

Me and Chanel Me chanel and Stacy

Stacy and Me Chanel me Jazz stacy and Daniel

Afterwards we went to town to play some pool at Hawaiian Brians. While at Hawaiian Brians we played this cool fighting game. haha.

Chanel and Me Me and Jazz

Later that night me, Jazz, Mikey, and Mark went clubbing. We stopped by Walmart first to get our dads Fathers Day Cards before heading to Venus

Kyle me and Mark Paulo Me and Mark

Me and Joe Michael and Me

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 02:18:22 GMT

It's so hard to explain why I've been feeling down the past several months. It's a combination of just so many things, that pointing the finger at just one won't solve the problem.

Family life is just there. I know I'm not close with my family, I don't think any of us are close. My brother does his own thing, my dad is always at work and my mom has work and her friends. I am home a lot, and for the most part it is just alone. It gives me a lot of time to think, and I guess thinking about life is such a strain to my emotions.

School. School is getting to a point where it will consume most of my life. Knowing that I will have 7 classes, possibly 8 just gives me a chill. I know I have to get through all of this to feel accomplished, but sometimes I feel like I have no reason to do everything I am doing. Sure I want to get married, have kids, own a house, but is it enough? I think I work very hard in school, and study a whole lot, but I feel like to my friends and everyone else, it just goes unnoticed. My mom doesnt understand how much I go through, and always brings up the negatives to it all. Like when I got all excited that I got accepted into the nursing school she questioned the fact that i need to test to become an RN which is two years away. I don't know whats her problem but with her, she only sees the negative in my opinion in everything.

Friends, I have a whole lot of new friends. Im not as close with my childhood friends, but when we do hang out, it's like old times. I do get teased a lot, and I am use to it. I dont know why I go along with it, I guess my personality just puts up with it. Most people do like me automatically as a friend because of how I am. I have been told i have a sincere niceness to my being. I guess the problem is, i feel like, is it really me? am I being fake? have I just learned and adapted to a personality that I wasn't while growing up? I had one friend in 4th grade and 3 in 6th. Now I know countless of people and it just makes me wonder... how i got to this point.

Relationships haven't been that great. Gosh I've been broken up with countless of times. With a nice personality and an extremely bright future, you'd think people want to keep me. Maybe i'm to nice, guys probably just get bored of me really fast and just enjoy the friendship aspect. I guess what it is to, is that most people don't get to know me. Get to know who I am, like who I am deep down inside. They never get to see me mad, or see me vent. Sometimes i feel like im just an emotionless being. But then again, its just a show. I just have so much emotions bottled up inside. You know, sometimes i feel like I'm crazy. yeah i'll go into that one day.

I just want to be happy, but for some reason, I just feel like I haven't been close to that feeling in such a long time.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 01:38:42 GMT

Today was pretty much a "rest at home all day" kind of thing. Didn't get anything done cept for watching "Another Gay Movie." That movie is pretty funny, lots of softcoreness to it though.

Yesterday me, Mark, Mikey and Chris went to alamoana for the Gay Pride Parade and Festival. I was up at 4 cuz I had to take my mom and her two friends to the airport. I left my house at 7:20 and by 8:15 we were all at Alamoana. While waiting for the parade, I got to see so many old friends from highschool. I use to hang out with a lot of lesbians back in the day. The parade went by fast, and headed to alamoana for some breakfast with Michael and met up with Jen Tato.

Me and Jazmine Me Jane and Loni

The Festival was interesting. Got to hangout with Marcus, Chris, Mark, Mikey as well as Reece, Mat and Jerel. Lots of people we ran into. We played hakisack, drank root beer floats and took a bunch of pictures.

Chris Mark and I Me and Marcus

Jerel me and Mat Gan Me and Reece

Later that night we went clubbing. Jazz came with us and we met up with tim and noel.

Me, Jacki and Steven Tim, Me and Chris

Me and Brooks Me and Joeden

Me and Darius Me and Paul

Monday, March 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 02:23:03 GMT

charlenes 19th birthday party =]

Monday, February 26, 2007

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 03:34:43 GMT

i just got a 73% on my microbiology exam.

i've been looking at the averges for the quizzes, exams and all, and i've been exactly with the average.

i'm so tired.

today was the sneak preview for Strike of Neos Yugioh set =]

yay for new cards!

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 19:55:44 GMT

Yugioh Tournament was today.

lets just say i kick ass.

i made a new friend.

i love it!!!!!!

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 20:01:22 GMT

So it's the beginning of 2007, and I think it's time to start keeping a record of my daily happenings. haha, even I can't remember what I do all the time. So yesterday me, tim, katrina, ronald, danica and lani went to Lanikai beach on the west side of Oahu. We also stopped by this place calld Poula or something like that when heading to north shore. We tried to take pictures with cows. So much people in north shore cuz of the big waves. So killer. haha. Today, I went to the gym with katrina and tim. Ronald Should be leaving to Washington soon. aw. This break was fun with him here.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 00:15:11 GMT

got my laptop stolen last night =(

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 02:22:20 GMT

growing up isn't easy.
So much has changed over the past few months.
He is the future man in my life.
We've been through a lot,
but you know how it is,
love conquers all right?
I hope you all have been doing fine.

juan

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 09:05:21 GMT

kelsey me muarice daniel geoff quincy and sean

I know it's been a while, but here goes... I had school on a saturday as usual. My 3 hour human anatomy physiology class got out after an hour at 9. My friend dropped me off in kalihi and i met up with quincy at his working place. He clocked out at 10(well actually 3, haha) We drove back to his place where his boyfriend met up with us. We all had couple hours sleep till 1:50. Then as quincy had his meeting at Kam shopping center, kelsey and I waited for sean to arrive. Fun factory and Mcdonalds were a few pitstops.

After the meeting, into one car, we picked up muarice and headed back to quincy's house to bake a cake for geoff's suprise belated birthday party :] After the cake finished, kelsey and I left in one car to pick up geoff at around 6, while the rest went with quincy to pick up daniel.

At zippy's we ate then heading to ice palace for some fun. Afterwards we stopped by blockbuster and then back to quincy's house. We watched movies till about 11:30.

We dropped of daniel, muarice then sean

then quincy mark and I went to venus to go clubbing. yay :]

now im here at quincy's, mark just left. Im getting dropped off in 40 minutes

bye bye :]