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Name: Robert-Matthew
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Birthday: 3/31/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: I love to hang out with my friends and just spend quality time with them. I like music and love things of nature like the mountains, rivers, fields, and staring into the ocean. It reminds me of how AWESOME that God really is and reminds me that my name is in His hand.
Expertise: Speaking other Languages... ummm...making people laugh...and...making mistakes
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
10/28/2004
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| Another great week here at Youthworks. Changed lives. Salvation. It makes me smile and jump with laughter. Things also made me think a lot this week. I do not have that much time to talk right now. I guess I mean to write. God has really been showing me that I must stand up for His truth. So OK, here we go.....I shared my testimony again this week and many guys thanked me, but one in particular came up to me afterwards with tears in his eyes...He felt my pain...He had been through similar things. Anyway later on that night I was really challenged with my faith. I will elaborate in further detail at a later time. Then at 12 that night one of the adults talked to me until 1:15 and prophesied over me that God was going to use me in mighty ways, he did not know how, but he said he sees my passion and without a doubt knows that I am going to do something great for the kingdom. The next day a woman I have only talked to for like 10 minutes in my whole life came up to me and prophesied over me, waving her hand in the air from one side of my body to the other as if slicing the air, saying "you are and will be cutting edge sharp from this day on, you will slay the demons and stand up for purity, you will do great things, you are from the Zadok priesthood and minister to many because of your relationship to God..." There was actually a forty minute conversation between me and her later on too. I have so much to tell, but cannot write anymore. God is just blowing me out of the water. Be lifted up in my life Father. Be glorified. I love you all. | | |
| God...has broken me again. Both in compassion and to soften my heart. THis past week, we had amazing youth! Such a blessing! God convicted me once more of my 'save the world' mentality. If we live and only touch one life...it is so worth it. My prayer should not be "Lord, lead three to salvation" it should be "God you have placed me in this leadership boat for a purpose, lead me to whom you please, help me to be an example of your son Jesus in all that I do, so that I may live and touch someone's life". I am about to tell you the story of a young man that touched my life this week. To feel how I felt about him, you must read 1 Samuel 18:1 "as soon as he had finished speaking to Saul, the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David". His name is Kelsey. He was placed in my group for Kids Club and I was amazed from the very first day of his passion and energy, he truly cared about the kids and it was amazing to see a man with such a humble heart. Well, I offered to tell my testimony to the guys on Wednesday of this past week and I had about 16 young guys come to listen to my story. Well, Kelsey was one of those guys. I told them everything. All my sins and struggles, along with my joys and passions. Well, I came out of that room feeling inadequate for some reason. I prayed that the Lord would take that feeling away. Satan tries so hard to block our sight of what the Lord is doing in our lives. Later on that night we wrote on pieces of paper things that we needed to surrender at the cross. I went just a little farther away from the group. As I was praying, I noticed Kelsey a few feet behind me and I felt like I needed to say something to him, but I was thinking "no way, I would distract him from the purpose of this". Well as soon as the meeting was over and we surrendered what we needed to, we were dismissed. Kelsey immediately came up to me and asked it he could confess his sins and pray with me. I said "heck yeah. come on man." We went into a room together and Kelsey was so honest and humble before me. He confessed everything. He was broken and tear after tear after tear fell. In his brokeness he reminded me so much of myself 5 weeks before. I shared a song that expressed my heart and we prayed and it felt as if we were brothers. We gave each other a hug and he backed up and said "wow, I feel so much lighter!" God is so amazing. The next day my parents and sister came and I had my first concert type thing. I sang about half of known praise songs and then half of my songs. My parents and sister took me to Gainesville on Friday and I dropped by Toccoa college, the Java station, and then home to Augusta. I could not see any of my friends in Augusta, because I had no car and it was so late. My mom and I got into an arguement and I literally cried my eyes out for like 45 minutes. I cried until I was numb and dry. I prayed and then fell asleep. My mom woke me up the next morning and said how sorry she was. She had cooked breakfast for me. Everything was so packed and rushed this weekend. I will not let Satan blind me of God working in my life. He is trying so hard right now. But praise be to God for everything! How even our brokeness gives glory to him. I miss home. I miss my friends. I miss college. Well, sorry for the long post. God bless you guys! Read Romans 8 | | |
| God is so great. This was definitely my most stressful week, not only am I getting over a sickness, but my staffmate Lindsey had to be sent away on Wednesday to get well from a virus and, Ali also was sick beginning on Monday. There was a lot of spiritual darkness in the group that we just had. I would say that most of them did not know the Lord. In the beginning of the week I started praying for three to come to know the Lord...I think I was praying with the motive of having them as 'trophies' of some form...I remember praying though that "if not three, then at least ONE"....it was hard for me to go on with so much spiritual blindness and immaturity in both the youth and the adult leaders, but they are the ones that needed it the most... I decided to share my testimony on wednesday and ten guys showed up. Yet, I still found myself very dissapointed at times and it seems as if I was attacked in every area. Then on Wednesday night James, an adult leader, told Kate, Ali, and I his testimony, which was absolutely amazing! I came out so encouraged, because though we were up until after midnight talking, I saw God's plan unfolded in James' life...an amazing brother in Christ...God has big plans for him and revealed to him the name of his ministry...Jesustouch...like midastouch... He was the adult leader I thought I wouldn't bond with. He was the only adult leader I bonded with. Then on thursday, his stepson Kyle, who had been following me around and talking to me and asking me to sing some more of my songs, went to the cookout that we have every thursday. Well, I played the guitar on stage at this warehouse and sang with a girl named Rachel, I shared most of my songs that I have memorized and then for the last one, we made up our own song...a new song...I noticed halfway through that Kyle was sitting by himself in the audience...then James went over to him and he began to cry....they sat there intently... watching, waiting, listening....Well we played our last song of the night and before I could take the guitar off of me, James came with Kyle to the front of the stage and told me what had been going on...Kyle wanted to accept the Lord into his heart...James asked if I would pray for him and with him to accept the Lord....I said "praise the Lord...yes, yes, yes..." Then and there Kyle accepted the Lord into his heart. A new creation...with a wonderful stepfather to discipe him...I know he will grow so much in our God. Later on that night, people were giving me hugs, thanking me for everything I had done and shared. Then came James...he told me that he could never thank me enough...that my words and songs made a huge impact on Kyle....Kyle and another guy Brady asked for my CD (Haven't made one...but I feel like I need to)...Pray for me to use the gifts God has given me even more and more.... Our God is so cool. Praise Him. Praise Him and lift Him up. Glory be to Him and only him. | | |
| I thought up a really cool quote today...
****If you want to make a difference in the world, you must be different from the world**** | | |
| "completion in brokenness, that is what you offer,
victory over all this is what you died for.."
...A song I wrote called Completion in Brokenness...
"picking flowers in the rain, finding peace in the storm,
Lord you know how far I came, can't you see Im tired and worn..."
...A song I wrote called Beautiful....
I find Isaiah chapter 55 verses 10-11 so cool, God tells us that His word never goes out and returns without accomplishing something, it is like the rain and snow, which wet the ground no matter what....so cool! That means that I dont have to worry about being a great speaker, singer, because the Lord will accomplish in me and those who hear his word exactly what he pleases! SWEET!
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