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| Sitting and PonderingLately, I've been trying to take some time away from TV and the computer to sit and think. Refocus my thoughts, so to speak.
I haven't had much success. Most of the time is spent trying to clear my head of all the distractions and try and feel a little peace, start from square one, and organize. I like organizing, and I like to have an ordered life, but that often escapes me. I'm trying desperately to focus on something for more than a few minutes, and it always seems like the ability to do so eludes me. To add to my frustration, I've done it in the past so I know I'm capable of that type of thinking.
Perfect example, I've been trying to develop the habit of reading my Bible, yet each time I think about doing so, the thought never lasts and I completely forget about my intentions. There are many subjects and areas that I'd like to improve my knowledge of, and yet?
And yet, but, instead All of my sentences are continuing this way. Here I am, in the midst of another of these moments (moods, humors, what-have-you) and trying to write a blog entry. I end up rambling for a few lines, struting and fretting my hour on the stage only to make no sense and be forgotten (yes it's a mutilation of Shakespeare but the lines didn't fit exactly to me).
Clarity. What a wonderful word. Synonym Lucidity. The quality or state of being clear. Clear - free from mist, haze or dust. Also Free from obscurity or ambiguity. So then Clarity- The state of being free from mist, haze, dust, obscurity or ambiguity.
That is what I seek in life. Clarity of thought, action and Spirit. Now, how to achieve that...
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| ResurganceAhh, feeling better today.
I apologize to the quaint few who read this blog for my dark turns of late. It's been a rather stressful time for my wife and me lately. Between the Howl of the Creditors and an increase in the chaos at work, my mind has frazzled.
Today though, I experienced an epiphany. Since it's the last day of May and the end of the fiscal year for my place of employment, I decided to take the morning off to use up some personal time that will dry up and reset tomorrow, and it was BEAUTIFUL. Sleeping in till 7 and having a leisurely morning was very rejuvenating and I actually feel like writing now.
So I'll write more later when I have time. <chuckle>
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| ResurganceAhh, feeling better today.
I apologize to the quaint few who read this blog for my dark turns of late. It's been a rather stressful time for my wife and me lately. Between the Howl of the Creditors and an increase in the chaos at work, my mind has frazzled.
Today though, I experienced an epiphany. Since it's the last day of May and the end of the fiscal year for my place of employment, I decided to take the morning off to use up some personal time that will dry up and reset tomorrow, and it was BEAUTIFUL. Sleeping in till 7 and having a leisurely morning was very rejuvenating and I actually feel like writing now.
So I'll write more later when I have time. <chuckle>
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| What a Pain in the Neck.....LiterallyMostly this was yesterday and Monday, during both days I had planned on logging some words here, but was not feeling 100% or even 50%. Bad Headaches, snifflies, and a royal pain in the neck. Of course the neck and shoulder pain is something I've been having for a couple weeks now. I'm not sure if it contributed to the headaches I've been having, but I'm sure it didn't help. The kicker is that I still have no idea what is causing it. No matter how or where I sleep, what posture I hold, or how much I stretch, the pain is there.
Ah well, others have it worse, so I'll quiet up now.
Well I had an interesting weekend. An old College Friend came and visited us from Thursday evening to Mon Noon. Her husband (also a college friend) is in the process of being deployed to Iraq so she wanted to visit old friends partially, I think, to help keep her mind distracted. The visit was very pleasant...to a degree.
She has two young boys, 8 months and 2 years. Very cute, and well behaved, but very young, and I don't think that our 800 Sq ft duplex was big enough for the 5 of us, especially me. I come away from that experience on two sides of a coin. On the one hand, I still think that having children would be a great adventure and something I'd like to do, but on the other hand I like peace and quiet, and the introduction of children ends that.
So where am I going with this? I dunno. I lost my train of thought. I'll try to pick it up later.
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| Anachonistic Ravings"Anachronistic Ravings of a Modern Man."
I suppose the sub-title of my blog could use some explanation.
Anachronistic - I admit it. I'm old fashioned. I like opening doors for ladies. I like to be the one to pay for a meal (at least before I got married and lost all possessive rights to money). I believe in Honor, Truth, Integrity, and Faith. I like the Constitution and the founding principles of this country.
Ravings - Let's face it. We all do it, and what better place than something like this.
Modern - I'm a techie through and through. I love gadgets, computers, and anything with buttons. I like all the conveniences of the modern life.
Man - Well pretty much self-explanatory
So why the explanation? So you the reader know where I'm coming from when I rant occassionally, which I'm about to do.
First let me preface this by saying that I love logic and reason, and thus I HATE politics. I have long been disgusted with our government and both parties in charge. I am however, hopeful that one day it will improve and common sense will one day return to the masses of people who have made it uncommon. My current opinions of the parties run (in short) that the Republicans have no backbone and secretly want to be liberal, and the Democrats are primarily hypocritical bigots who want to turn our country into what Russia was during the worst part of its Communist regime while living the high and mighty life themselves.
Obviously this is an overgeneralization, but I need to rant someplace where I won't be interrupted, so deal. So where do we turn and what do we due to preserve what's good in this country? I can't ascribe to the Anarchy of the Libertarian party, though I do like their hands-off opinion in regards to the government. I don't know that we can trust any political party solely from the fact that the word politics is in it.
Some days....okay a very many days, I just wish the apocalypse would come and we could get this world over with, start anew with Jesus in charge. I'm tired of living in a world where everyone relishes in the bad news on TV. In fact, I once thought of starting a news channel dedicated to delivering good and positive news, but my wife quickly pointed out that we'd have a hard time getting people to watch it. I'm sure there's enough good going on in the world that we could fill the day in the telling of it. There's really no need to tell us how bad the world is. By the time your 5 you've already learned that life sucks. So why not add more positives to life? I'd watch the news, and probably have better days because of it.
<sighs>
Anyhow. I'm starting to babble, so I will sign off for now and hopefully be in a better mood next time.
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