yeah

So I taught my junior high small group tonight and it was all about relying on God to be our provider. I think I got more out of it then they did. Abraham's willingness to sacrifice Isaac was the focal point of the story and it really hit me. God is our everything. He will provide for us if we let him. So many times I find myself trying to figure things out on my own. Trying so hard to keep myself afloat when really I just need to rely on God. He will be there for me when I need him to be. I wish I had complete trust in Him like Abraham had in that story. That is truly amazing to me. I think Abraham is a sweeet dude. I wish I could be more like him. I don't really know what i'm tryign to get at in this blog i'm just trying to get these random thoughts down out of my head. Mostly I just want to strive to fully put my trust in God. Instead of trying to handle things on my own. I think that's what I need to do.

Jordan

Big

My God is BIG, and I'm starting to finally grasp that concept. I know it sounds stupid, but it's true. He's bigger than my problems and my worries, He has a reason for it all because he is bigger than it all. I love that, I LOVE that. I just keep thinking of the nooma about rain... I love you buddy, we're gonna make it! I love you buddy, we're gonna make it!

I love you buddy, we're gonna make it

Currently Listening Remedy By David Crowder Band Never Let Go see related

Yeah

So yeah I hit a light post with my car today. It was without a doubt the most frightening experience of my life. I mean I don't ever remember feeling the way I felt today. I was panicky, and worried, and emotions I can't even explain. I just couldn't really even take it all in. I was so taken aback by what I had just done. I just sat there with my hands on my head replaying the situation in my head. Thinking over and over, I cannot believe I just did this.

The whole situation taught me alot of lessons though. I am so grateful for God's protection through the whole thing. It's so clear to me that he was watching over me protecting me. The post I hit was right in front of a tree, and if I would have hit the tree it would have been way worse. My sister and I both weren't hurt, and that's a miracle. Also I didn't end up getting a ticket. Which is another blessing. I learned a valuable lesson, and I managed to get away without any really serious consequences. I mean I need a new tire for my car, but that's really not that huge of a deal. Also, I know this is going to sound ridiculous, but it made me think alot too. It made me think about my life, and how much I appreciate it. The nooma we watched today pretty much brought it all together. Tomorrow isn't guranteed and we need to live our lives for today, not for tomorrow. I know that I didn't almost die, also I know that I didn't even get hurt. But it was enough to make me think long and hard about alot of things. And that is why in retrospect, me hitting that pole was a good thing and a blessing in disguise really. God taught me alot of things today, and it's really cool to see how he worked everything out. Like He knew that I was going to crash, so he lined everything up perfectly so everything would work out ok. It's crazy to think of the way He works. and I'm very grateful for it.

boo

i just hit a pole with my car.... it was so frightening. i'm freaking out right now

Currently Reading To Own a Dragon: Reflections On Growing Up Without A Father By Donald Miller, John MacMurray see related

Time for some change...

So I just went to Mexico this last week, which many of you know. It was a life changing experience that I really will never forget. I've decided it's time for me to finally make some changes in my life.

I've realized in Mexico that God is not the center of my life. Not even close. I know that sounds crazy but the more I thought about it, the more it made sense. I play halo all the time, I spend so much time playing halo it's borderline ridiculous. How often do I have my quiet time with God, almost never. I might be wrong but, I don't think I should be putting more time into Halo than my relationship with my Father. Another example that comes to mind. Every Monday, Wednesday, Friday for the past three years I've woken up extra early to play basketball. Seriously, basketball was enough of a priority for me to get up early and do before school. I can't even remember the last time I woke up early to read my Bible, or just to sit in silence before my God. This is all going to change now. In the Bible it says that we are to have no other idols before God, and now I am working to accomplish this. I want the way I spend my time to reflect what is important in my life. I want people to be able to tell that I want to be like Jesus Christ through the way I live and what I do.

Another aspect of my life that needs changing is the way I act at school. For the most part I don't really socialize at school. I've never really embraced the social aspect of high school. I mean I have my friends but, in between classes I don't try to talk to them. I just walk to class. I don't make any extra effort to show anyone love at all. I've realized that high school is one of the biggest opportunities I will ever have to share God's love. I am not going to waste another day of high school just blending in to the crowd. I'm going to try and walk in Jesus' footsteps. I want to be covered in the dust of my Rabbi.

Just my thoughts for today after coming home from Mexico. I have many more that I will be posting in here in the next couple days. So yeah, that's what I'm going to do.

Peace, J-Mears