I'm married!!

ISn't that crazy.

 Brad and I got married August 18. We then went to the Bahamas for a week which was super fun!! Im back in the Fort now setting up Brad and I's apartment.

I love my husband so much, he is so wonderful.

I can't believe I am only 20 years old, a graduate of college with a 4 year degree, a dance-instructor, and married. Wow. Life is awesome.

Now all I need is a day job... pppplleaassee call me Fort Wayne schools.

Last weekend was really fun. I went up to fort wayne on thursday and brad and i just lounged around. Friday I ran a few errands around town and put a lot of my stuff away. Friday night brad and i just hung out. Saturday we went to the pool, shopped, and babysat Logan for a few hours, then we went to dinner and saw Bourne Ultimatum!! I loved that movie, some of the scenes where the camera was really wobbly made me a little dizzy but i loved it! then we went home and just cuddled. Sunday we went to church, made lunch, played xbox, made dinner, and lounged around. We lauged so much, it was such a relaxing and fun weekend.

Monday and Tuesday I finished packing up all my stuff, it was kind of sad putting the remainder of my things in boxes and throwing away old memories. I found about 200 notes from my female friends in high school, amy, ashley, stephuaa, and manda. SOOO many notes. Yesterday (wednesday) I went to Berne to eat lunch with Brad, which was really fun, then i went to Decatur for the open house of the dance studio I am going to work at. It was a looong dy but it was fun. Got to fort wayne around 8pm, Brad had dinner on the table (such a sweety). Then we brought in a lot of my stuff, then watched tv and went to bed.

Today I am just going to lounge around. I have a lot of stuff to organize and put away but that shouldn't take more than 2 hours. I might go buy a new white sweater shirt since mine that I just bought got ruined in the wash. I only got to wear it once,, pisses me off. Tomorrow my dad is bringing up the uhaul with all my big stuff, should be fun,, NOT.

I am getting married in 9 days. CARAZZZZY!!! I am so excited.

i have so much to say but i don't want to take 5 years writing a rambling post.

Feelings I feel right now: Love,fear, happiness, worried, extatic, giddy, nervous, nauseous, love, love, love, happy, happy, happy.

How can you feel polar opposites at the same time? Kinda crazy.

I get scared a lot. I don't feel safe most of the time. I get paranoid A LOT. My house is to big, it makes me nervous. I am just a big baby lol.

I am really happy. I can't wait to see Brad next weekend. This week went really slow. I just need a great big Brad hug.

I am getting married soon. Wow. 9 months ago it didn't feel so soon. Now it is just around the corner.

Thank you God for all your blessings. I feel truly blessed.

I am a terrible blogger.

SO from July 6-16 I got to spend it all with Brad. I got there friday night and we went and saw 300 with his dad and brother-in-law. Then saturday we went to breakfast with his family then hung around by the pool. That evening we went to Elkhart and spent the evening with his parents. Sunday we met with the Pastor and the DJ then ate dinner with his best man and his wife and kids, then we headed back to the Fort. Monday brad had the day off but pretty much all morning he worked from home, then we went and worked out, sat by the pool, and got our marriage liscense!!!! Then we just hung out for the rest of the day. Tuesday, wednesday, and thursday I lounged by the pool all day, did a few chores here and there, and hung out with Brad during the evening. Friday I went down to Berne for Brad's work picnic. I entered a kereoke conteset, sung I WILL SURVIVE, and won 1st place!!!!! I shouldn't have won but I did and I got $75 bucks! It was pretty cool. Then we headed to Elkhart, we ate some pizza for dinner then hung out with his family. Saturday was his moms birthday so we went to a brunch then went put-putting and did the go-karts. I lost AGAIN in put-put but I beat Brad in go-karts by a hair. He should have won but he was nice and let me won. Then we went to his grandparents house for dinner. SUnday we went to church then had my bridal shower! It was so nice and brad and i received lots of presents. My grandma, aunt, mom, dad, sister, and grandpa all drove up for the 2 hour shower. It was very nice of them. Then Brad and I packed up the SUV and headed home. We unloaded most of it then went on a walk then went to bed. Monday I cleaned up the place a little bit then went down to Decatur for a dance studio job audition. I am 99% sure I got the job since she e-mailed me today and wanted me to come up for a staff photo for the paper! ANyway, after my meeting i went down to Berne and ate lunch with Bradley. It was a nice lunch to end a fantastic week. I did not want to go home but i did.

The week went really fast.

Friday I went up to Nobelsville and met brad for the Nickelback concert, BUT i didn't get there on time. I was supposed to meet him at 630 and I would've if we werent stopped for a solid hour and went 2 miles. I didn't get there until 8. We missed daughtry (the band i wanted to see)  but Brad got to see staind one of his all time favorite bands. I wish I would have given him his ticket a head of time or been there on time so he could have seen all three bands. I cried for a good hour and half because i was late. i am a big baby. but the concert we did see was really awesome. brad and headed out maybe 2 songs before they were done and we got right out of the parking lot. right when we got back to my place we fell asleep. saturday we went to brunch with my mom, laid around, went to dinner with my mom, watched Premonition (i cried sooo hard at the end of the movie), went and got ice cream, then played jepeordy and family feud lol. sunday we hung around then went to lunch with my gparents because they had our wedding gift, it was freaking amazing!!!! they do to much for us. i love them so very very much. then we came home and watched Shooter, then headed to Indy with my family for dinner, then brad headed back to the Fort. I was sad all the way home.

I don't get to see brad again for 2 weeks but it will go fast. This coming weekend he is having a boys weekend so that should be really fun for him, and i think friday night i am hanging out with some of my girl friends.

I had so much fun with brad this weekend, it went by too fast. I can't believe i am getting married in 25 days. It is crazy. I have been packing  up all my stuff and it is just a weird feeling. I have thrown away so much stuff and given my sister 3/4 of my clothes. It is such a crazy thing. I am sooo excited to get married tho., it is going to be the best thing ever. Plus i get to go to the bahamas with the sexiest guy i know! wooot!

A recap of a week I will never forget

Well, what to say, I am back from Miss IN. No I did not win, I didn't even make top ten. BUT there were a lot of fantastic girls there that deserved to be in top 10 and didn't get it so I am not fretting. My only regret is that I didn't make top ten and Brad and his family drove all that way to see me and only saw me for a few moments.

The week was awesome. I got there SUnday morning and filed the opening for the show. We had a little reception for the girls then it was on to rehearsals. We taped all the film segments then got back to the hotel around 1030. Monday was an all day rehearsal day with two breaks for meals. We were gone 8 am - 10 pm that day. Tuesday was another all day rehearsal day with meals. Gone 8 am - 10 pm. Those days were very very long but I got to know the girls so that was fun. Wednesday we had more rehearsals but then we got to eat lunch with our princesses. My princess is the cutest little girl ever. She was so sweet. The rest of the day was relaxing and then prelims were that night. I did swimsuit and evening gown. I felt really confident but I did not win peliminary awards. That night I started to feel really sick and my throat became really raw and swollen. I started to freak out because the next night i had to sing.

Well thursday we made appearences around town and relaxed and thursday night I did talent and on-stage question. It was a rough night. My throat hurt soo bad and I was ashamed of my performance when I walked off the stage. Everyone said i sounded beautiful but i know i could have done better,, a lot better. Then onstage question rolled around and I embarrased myself, but at the same it made me laugh. My question was "what do you think is the nations greatest resource" and the only thing that came to my mind was "Corn, because we are in indiana and it feeds a lot of animals and people so I would have to say corn". I started to crack up (not a good thing) and the audience was laughing. I don't know if they were laughing at me or with me but eh i don't really care. needless to say i did not win peliminary talent award. i was really glad my family was there those past two nights tho my mom, dad, sister, brother, sister in law, gma, gpa, aunt and uncle were all there to support me. I just wish brad was there on talent night.

Friday we all went to a brunch then to Riley Children's hospital. The hospital visit was so touching. We walked through the cancer unit and in one of the rooms a father was sitting on a bed holding his daughter and rubbing her back. I started to cry it was so sad. after that we went back to the hotel and had the whole afternoon off. It was AMAZING. i took a long much needed nap because i was still feeling really sick. then we all went to the Teen Pageant. the girl that won was 13 years old and simply amazing. I am going to make my sister compete next year lol, cause i know she is better than that girl.

Saturday was fun too, we had a big brunch for all the girls then we had a parade and other stuff. Saturday night rolled around and well I didn't make top ten and i didn't win any of the awards but the girls who were in top ten were very deserving. Same with top 5, very deserving girls. The winner was chosen and well the girls were pretty stunned and so was the audience. I thought the 1st runner up was going to win. BUT the girl who one is absolutly gorgeous and she will probably do very very very well at miss america. She is a sweet girl but can be a little quiet so she doesn't give off a good impression. But i hope she does well this year and shows the country that Indiana can put out a winner.

WOw, this summary didn't even cover 1/4 of what we did. We were up til 2 am and had to get up at 6. We were crazy girls. We had an arm wrestling competition,,, i lost, we had tons of fun. i will miss the friends that i have made. hopefully we all will stay in touch and see eachother. I must say i am part of a great fab four of girls. we were the last four girls in the alpha group and we had a lot of fun together, and going into this i didn't think i would like any of the girls, but i think i have made some really awesome friends.

i must say. i can't wait to get married BUT i also wish i could do miss indiana again. a lot of people said i would do great if i stayed in it, i mean i have 3 more years to go to miss in, i could eventually win,,, maybe lol. but i would rather get married. if i did continue to do miss in i would make amazing contacts and probably get a job out of it but brad is much more important.  and i see mrs.indiana in my future lol.

now i just wish this runny nose and awful cough would go away. i sound like a man.

well i am giving myself this week off and then i am going to start packing up all my stuff. that is going to be sad.  i don't want to throw away all my memories but i guess that is part of growing up.

i didn't think i was going to see brad this weekend but i think he is going to let me come up!!! his family reunion is this weekend so that should be fun. the only reason he didn't want me to come up is because i am coming up the next two weekends too. i make him nervous when i drive lol. i make myself nervous when i drive lol.

w0w. i am getting married soon. wow. i hope everything is done. wow. makes me kind of nervous to think not everything is done. well most things are done. just not little things, like  buying a big candle for the unity lighting, and buying a guest book, and buying attendant gifts... crap i am going to have 2 dollars in my bank account when this is all done lol.

i have so much more to say but i know none of this is coherant.

DOES ANYONE WANT TO BUY A SET OF HOT ROLLERS OFF OF ME? THEY ARE BRAND NEW I NEVER USED THEM, THEY ARE REVLON AND I WILL SELL THEM TO YOU FOR LIKE 20 BUCKS. I PAID 30 FOR THEM AND THEY ARE BRAND NEW, WITH BOX AND EVERYTHING. PPPPPPLLLLEEEASSEEE SOMEONE BUY THEM. I WILL NEVER EVER USE THEM LOL.