So independant states was today

Ahhhhh wasnt excatly the cinderlla ending to my season, buttt i have no regrets. i put everything i had on the put, i was at my best physically, mentally, and i got beat. i cant be sad if i kno i gave it erything i had.

I lost my first match, so my next match had to be an all out brawl...

it started to hit me that this is really hit. Sink or swim. Do or die. Smoke or get smoked. ahaha alla dat shit. So i blasted my ipod, played my best hype music

i had lil weezy wit dat fireman, hellyea remix wit snoop and dub C, tribe called quest with Scenario, Mike jones with still tippin and back then, bia bia and put ur hood up, allla dat shit was bumpin. I even blasted gin and juice, nuthin but a g thang, and one eight seven.

My last was pretty emotional for me...i was already tearing up before the match just becuz i kno that it was prolly my last one.

From the jump start, i jumped all over the guy. Similar to the way i wrestled my first match. I was going all out, but again, just how it back fired before, i gased out, got tired, and he eventually beat me.

So obcourse i cried alil after my match, but my teammates and my coach gave me alil speech and stuffand erything was all good.

Overall man, i dont regret any of this stuff. The only thing i regret is not doing this before. Maybe in another life ahaha ill do dis shit again.

Haahaha so overall this season, it was crazy.

This wrestling stuff is really some hardcore shit

Bottom line is, its one on one, maaanoo y manoo. You dont have your boys by ur side to help u. You got no body to look to for help. It all comes down to who wants it more. And i luv that aspect of wrestling. U attack life the way u do with wrestling, i promise u ull be untouchable. Girls, life, school...alla dat. Attack it the way u attack wrestling.

Obcourse i dont wanna rant and shit, but i do have more of a different outlook to everything. I apply wrestling to erything i do now. the disciplines and shit.

Tonight coach dropped some serious ass science on the aspects of life. ahahaha what a bus ride home wit da team.


Final recap to what was one the best experiences of my life.

Nov. 10-189 pounds
2/15/08-Weighed in at 169.9

I feel the best iv ever felt physically, mentally, alla dat. i made some good friends, i learned alot of shit.

Im sad to see it go, but maybe if coach permits, i could help out next year. That would be nice...

I tried. I gave it erything i had. And the better people won.

so i go out the way i came in. All smiles, no regrets.

Thank u to eryone who helped me, supported me, trained wit me.

-Thank u to my bmac/PCA team
-Coach juan

-Obcourse i gotta give some luv to the only two girls who actually came out to watch me wrestle

KIAH AND AMANDA. i luv u two. forreaal forreaal. u jus dont kno how much that ment. =)

-gotta thank my parents and sisters maannn i had to beg to get cleared to wrestle
-and thank God. I didnt ever really physically get hurt. and my eyes? lol their fine. so thats a major plus

peeaacceee

DAMN. lol its really been forever. It's funny, when i look at all these old entries, i kinda wanna smack myself in the face. It was only like....two years ago...three years ago that i posted alla that stuff and i sound so different. THAT KID that posted alla those entries...thats really not me nemore. BMAC for the last few years really changed me. It made me realize that i really did come from a real small school that really didnt show me erything i needed to see.

Life use to be alll about girls and basketball. AHHHA lol thats really changed....welll atleast the basketball part.

ahaha

As i come down to my last few days in Highschool...it really kinda hit me dat im gettin out of a comfort zone. But i also realized i had a good run. All the girl chasing, basketball dreamin, keepin my grades up, and chillin with my close friends, its all gonna be a good memory. Choir and wrestling..wrestling ahaha the one sport i thought id never do. ill always rememeber dat...

Friends really did come and go dese 4 years. I finally stopped jus chillin with a certain group of people and broke outta dat comfort zone. yeaa i had to lose alot of close friends. it hurt...alot. But i made alot of better friends whom illl allways be der for. ahahaha....i jus cant stop lookin at dese old entries...i was sucha big wizards fan....and now i dont even have much time to jus sit and wattch one game...dont get me wrong I LUV DA WIZARDS...butt its not the same.

All great things just have to come to an end. Its time to get the hellllup outta here and change up the scene. I remember as a freshmen sitting up in the fine arts bleachers. Man...when mr clark said dat dese 4 years would come and go....i didnt realize how serious it was. Now im sitting here with less than three months to go of highschool. ahahah what a run it was. All the girl chasing, school stressin....it was one damn great run.

but the sooner we can let go of things, the easier itll be to go. so yea, maybe ill get alil emotional once dese days go by, i made great memories, as well as a couple of things id like to forget. I have a couple more weeks to make some more great memories. Im ready. im excited. Im scared. Im sad. alla dat. But the exciting thing to look forward too is the future. Clean slate. im not gonna reinvent myself...naww das jus not me. but i will not bring with me the jabie dat i see from dese old entries.

basketball....ahhh da days...da golden days....wtf happened. it use to be all i thought about. NBA, NBA, NBA. now, im here anticipating my last...probabvly last wrestling meet. a totally different sport. yea...lets go out with a bang! now i see it says if i make the top 8 for my weight class (171, which i might add that i was 189 at the beggining of the season...ahahah DAMN), we make all american status. hmmmm. that would be nice. but if i did make all american, id switch it to ALL FILIPINO status. ahahah now das forrreeaall. Wrestling forreal forreal changed my life. and ill always remember what the fuck i put myself through because in the end, dammnnn lol i kno i ran all that shit. i ran those sprints. i did alla them bear crawls. those crab walks, those weightroom sessions, cutting weight, skipping a class to cut weight(which i dont...really...ahahaha i dont reccomend ever doing that again...) alla dat shit man. dat was me. i almost gave up a few times. but man it was fun.

girls. ahahaha girlls forreal. BMAC had some of the prettiest girls iv ever seen. but there are 3034-2348-234 other pretty girls out der too. i realized (and sadly kinda late) that its ok if u get denied or rejected by a couple girls. dooont get all emo on urself cuz one girl says she doesnt like u. ahahaha wow if u look at dese old entries from xanga ud think i was emo. Just chill man. relaxxx. sometimes the girl thats for u is the one u aint even scopin. u might wanna turn around and look again cuz shes the one who u dont hafta try so hard around. Chances are if i had to put up a front or an act, then that girl really wasnt for me neway. Some say i became a flirt here in hs. Some say i became a bad flirt/annoying flirt. ahaha well the ones who actually called me an annoying flirt are most likly people who hate becuz i actually had balls to go up to a girl and sya wahtever i wanted.

Bottom line lil younginss, id rather be the kid talkin to the girl than the dumb idiot standing by the wall trying to stunt all hard n shit. u look like an idiot. das not smooth. thas jus bein alil bitch and trying to put on a front. ahaha dont be a wussie maann go up der and say somein.

lol so i really jus got off topic to the point where i dont even know what to write about next.

this is one long post. but i feel i hada put down some stuff so that i can look back and see how much i changed. Its different. good different.

ill prolly update dis alil more as i countdown to graduation. I just got to much stuff i needa remember. so if u actually read alla dis, thank u. u get a free slurpee on meee. btw, 224. mark it. and drop a happy bday to me. lol it would make my day.

peeeaaccee

RIP Eddy Guerrero

One hell of a fighter/wrestler

The Anthem will never be forgotten

We Lie, We Cheat, We Steal

Last time we hear the low rider bouncin down to the anthem

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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

110-95

....i saw dat desiree(sayin da wizards suck)lol

we dont suck!!!

WE BEAT THE CHAMPIONNNNNNSSS!!!! SPANKKED RYTE IN DA ASSSS!!

STARTED OFF EITH THE SONICS

AND WENT OUT AGAIN AND BEAT THE SPUUUURRRSSS

FUUUUUUUUUUUU**********************KKKK HUGHES

yezziirrr yezziiirrr maannn schools always bitchin....

iz whatevverrrr

"you better chikkity check yo self before you wikkity wreck yo self! fooooooooo!"

ahahahahaha

wwwiiizzzaaarrrrdddssssssssssssssssss!!! i think igts bout time we let go of da redskins and just hold on to our better wizards who hollld it dowwwnn

maaann new season of degrassi and dat girl ryte down der vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

o0o0o0o0o0o man once i get a new picture of her imma post ASAAAAPPP

ahahaha yezziiirrr

peeeesh outz