| YESSSSSSSS! I made it in before the end of the month!! That brings my consecutive months of posting up to 8, yeah count 'em, 8!! Man, I'm awesome.
Wow, so much has happened since I last posted on here...
First of all, I would like to say that Spring Break was simply NICE. While I wasn't surrounded by the constant college hoopla that engulfs the Panama City Beach area, I was surrounded by a beautiful landscape, and more importantly, beautiful weather. There were a lot of things building up in my life leading up to Spring Break, so simply getting the chance to get the hell outta Indiana was worth every penny that I spent. It was great to have the laid back and discussion-filled company of Laura along with the 50,000 other Ball State people that we didn't even know where going to be down there in wonderful Fort Myers Beach. This trip gave me the opportunity to sit back, clear my head, eat good food, get burned, and prevent the nervous breakdown that was looming in the horizon.
The past couple of weeks since break have really forced me to reassess some things in my life. At first I didn't want to think about it, so I threw myself into my friends and kept myself ridculously busy. I realized that this wouldn't solve a damn thing, however, so I've forced myself to look at my life to date and figure out what has been good and bad. Kinda like a detailed audit of life (since it's tax season and all)...
I have a lot of good things going for me. I'm getting by in school, for now, with fairly decent grades. I've got a job that is secure and wants to give me as many hours and I am willing to take. Buying into the cliche, I think that the friendships I have are among my most cherished possessions, if you can really call them possessions. I am lucky to know as many great people as I do.
I also realize that each of these things present bad parts of my life as well. College has me continually questioning whether or not I have made the right choice in my major and whether or not I am willing to put up with all of the political garbage that is our public schooling system. My work is continuing to take over my life, or at least a good portion of it. While my schedule has gotten easier, the number of hours I am working is still far above what it should be. This needs to be fixed. And finally, friends and relationships. While most of my friendships continue to be the great sources of strength, laughter, and release that they have always been, I have been finding as of late that I am putting too much effort into trying to make things happen. Almost to the point of utter exhaustion. Instead of wearing myself out trying to initiate things, I'm going to take a back seat for now. I'm going to let things come to me for a change, instead of running all over God's green earth trying to make things happen. Friendship is a two-way street, right? (Yes, all of you that know me personally may now groan...I've used THE cliche once again). Let's open up that lane for oncoming traffic.
And perhaps the most important thing of all, DUKE IS IN THE FINAL FOUR! Don't you forget it!! And for all of the Illinois fans/friends of mine who assured me that Duke would lose last week...all I have to say is...
My Duke team's going to the Final Four,
and DAMN RIGHT, they're better than yours.
(Mad propz to Kelis for writing this lyric for me. Nutin but love for ya girl.)
The could very possibly lose to UConn, but oh well, I still have hopes. Bye Bye!! |
). I think this was the main reason that a lot of people became worried when I started flipping out last week. There's just too much crap due, dammit.
