I know I said that the previous log was going to be my last entry, but i was just so compelled to share my story...

So for the past several months, my life seemed so bleek and down.  I was going through so much struggles with my family and just myself.  My oldest sister's ailment, our family business (that seemingly caused such despair within my second sister and mom's hearts) and myself just as a person who was just going through life basically as just a lifeless hopeless human being.  I was just constantly stressing over what in the world that was going on with my family.  We were all breaking down at the seems.  There were so many dark times where I would just stand alone just questioning so many things in my life.  At one point in my life, I just isolated myself from the entire world.  So as the year 2005 was coming to an end, I vowed to myself in that I was going to go nuts in 2006.  I created an agenda...To drink, go to clubs and have flings as much as one man could handle (Read my June 28th blog).  I was giong to turn 21, so this was my year to just go take over the world and just turn into the most blasphemous person.  I was so set on just messing my life up.  BUT, something happened....

I joined a christian club about a year ago.  KCCC was the club...when I decided to join last year; I seemingly had one of the best time in my life.  Well, because of work and school I just totally forgot about them and although I had time to go the the meetings, I just chose not to go.  Well, one of my best friend Peter Sohn and a mentor of mine came to me and really insisted for me to go to a christian conference.  I was hesistant at first, but then I just gave in.  I put in a deposit a month before the christian conference and I just totally forgot about it.  As time approached, they reminded me about it.  I began to regret putting in my deposit because I couldn't believe that I was going to spend my vacation time "worshipping God". 

The time finally came and I was just dreading it.  I didn't even pack until the day of the conference.  Driving there, I was just cussing up a storm and was just straight up pissed.  I arrived with probably the coldest heart out there.  I was just so disinterested at first and was just so aggravated.  To top it off, I couldn't even room with my homie and we had to fast for three meals (i didn't even eat breakfast or lunch prior to coming, so thats 5 meals).  Now, I was just straight up mad.  So throughout the first day, I didn't participate in any of the activities and just zoned out during worship.  The second day, I decided to scope out chicks who I'd be able to hit on.  I wanted to get at least a couple numbers out of this conference.  During services, I was just wandering around and looking for potential ladies.  But then the third day arrived...when I woke up I don't know I felt different.  It felt like something just woke up my soul.  I attended the first service and I started to feel like the holy spirit was calling me.  The day was just filled with a utopian vibe.  I was participating in the activities and had a jovial like spirit.  We were giong into our final night service and when I looked at the schedule....I cried...it was fricken 5 hours long .

So finally service began....as praise started, I came down with the biggest headace, sinus pain, and a nasty sore throat.  I felt like going back to my hotel, but instead I ran to the gift shop (it was 7:55 and they closed at 8)...bought myself water, nyquil Daytime and a pack of halls for 10 bucks.  I returned and continued to praise.  So during service, I listened to the sermon and although it was in korean, for some reason it was so impactful.  Then the time of prayer came....I slowly began to just pray...just prayed...just prayed...and then...all of a sudden, the holy spirit just crept upon me...I began to connect with the Lord...I then cried out to the Lord...just went into this moment with the Lord.  It was probably about an hour and a half that passed...they began wrapping it up, but then I wouldn't stop...I just prayed and kept on praying my about my pains, about my life, about absolutely everything.  I just then felt so close with him.  It felt so right....so right.  After I poured out my soul to the Lord, time of praise came.  Man....wow...time of praise to God was just so amazing for me.  All 1500 of us in unison just began cheering for the Lord.  Just praised Him and lifted His name up.  This moment was just such a revival...a rejuvenation.  We all wanted to keep on going and going...but then the convention had to close so we ended it. 

After service, we went back to our rooms for a time of reflection.  Man...we bought ourselves liek 11 double doubles and 6 order of fries and also had a gang of leftovers from dinner... we had a feast.  Well, that night I felt that my group connected with each other.  We were talking about all aspects of life.  We talked like we was buncha chicks...we talked for like 5 hours straight.  Reminded me of the time when I use to talk with my lova  PC...when I use to crash at his place.  Anyways, that Thursday Dec 29, 2005 changed my life.  Tis was truly one of the greatest day of my life.

Well, this Vision Conference 06 was such an AMAZING experience.  I've truly learned and experience so much.  I met so many awesome dudes.  My group Kenneth, Hyung Nim, Roberto, Tom, Julian, Richard, Johnny, David, and DANIEL BYUN (my cool homie)...we were a cool group of cats.  I'm happy to have been in their group.  We were a tight eclectic group.

You know what guys...truly God is good...I know you may have a lot of struggles in your life, but you have to fight.  He does not allow struggles that you cannot handle.  This will make you stronger when you are faced with these trials and tribulations.  Please guys...trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understandings.  Theres so many lost souls that need to be saved.  There are so many that need a refreshing and rejuvenation with the Lord.  I will pray for you my homies....and you know what guys...your friends will know when your facing difficulties...and you know what?  They also feel for you and they are there for you and they will be there for you...let me tell you guys another short story... today, I just felt like maybe reading some of the testimonies that people might have written in their blogs.  I went on the KCCC blogring and began checking it out.  I then recognized one of the guys I met there...I clicked on to see if he wrote like a testimony or whatever.  As I was scrolling down a lil, something caught me eye.  This is what he wrote "And John Lee, you're a pretty cool guy even though you may never read this, hope that everything with the family the new 31 flavors and Togo business goes well then i shall keep you in my prayers whenever I can remember." I was just like WHOA.  I know this wasn't just a coincident.  God wanted to remind me that there are people all over that are praying for each other.  I didn't even know this guy before the conference...but when I met him, I knew that guy was a Real dude.  Though I still dont' know you that well, I know you a true homie foreal.  I also know that God will truly bless you and your family.  Don't know if you'll read this, but when reunion comes up, imma thank you for this.

I know this blog was long, but I was just inspired to just tell my story and how great our God is.

Now this will be my final ENTRY...God Bless