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Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 02:26:59 GMT

midterms are already coming up.... why is time passing in such a hurry and where is it hurrying off to?

updates- i've missed more classes than i've attended; missed four orgo classes in a row; mentor went back to taiwan so i am in charge of the project now which requires me to be at the lab every single day (weekends included) yet i still find time to work out almost everyday; i am no longer premed; will be going to michigan u to get my phd for free; and have decided to become a left-hand model and screenplay writer (inspired by charlie kaufman).

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 14:31:59 GMT

so the summer is winding to an end and i begin to wonder what i've accomplished these past three months. for the most part, i worked my ass off on three jobs this summer. My typical day begins at 6am when i wake up and ends at around 8 pm when i leave the lab. Indeed, times are hard and the money is definitely a bonus but taking on so much has definitely made my summer less enjoyable in addition to making me feel tired and drained with each passing day. But somehow, I find time to hang out with friends almost everyday beacuse let's face it, friends are important, and i value my friendships dearly. Although i haven't gotten around to hanging out with all the people i wanted to, i was definitely able to make a few real, good, genuine friends, and rekindle old friendships which still seem very new and rich.

I long for the past and how easy and stress-free my life was. With each passing day comes experience, knowledge, and (sometimes) growth, but at the expense of time and a life once lived. At 20, i feel like i'm stuck at an intersection not knowing which path to take and fearing that if i tread down the wrong road, i can't find my way back. Sure life is full of risks that everyone must take but shouldn't there be more guarantees in life than death and taxes?

anyway...

had an awesome time at the Met's game with family and eliza... though we did more eating than watching. AND, i hope eliza conquered her fear of heights =)

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 00:44:33 GMT

it seems to me that everyone is updating rather frequently on xanga... thus i have decided to resurrect my old interests in this act of web blogging

life's been dandy; been spending a lot of time contemplating of the past, present, and future. sophomore year was a rather interesting year. i've realized a lot of things and have come to the conclusion that sincere, good friends without an agenda are truly hard to find. i admit that i am idealistic and my persistence to act accordingly to what's right and good projects an image of righteousness others regard to be insensitive. but does sensitivity go hand in hand with making the right decisions? anyhow, it cost me a lot to come to such conclusions. i have no regrets for my actions because in the end, i know i did what was right not for myself, but for the situation at hand. things come and go, and likewise, people come and go in your life. however, although i believe that everyone exercise a certain amount of control over a situation, i suspect that there are certain things that are simply predestined. i suppose, what's meant to be will be, and what's meant to happen will in time happen. growth and experiences come with the passing of time...

well, as for my summer, it's been hectic. working three jobs this summer and my father has recently decided for me that i will get my license by august. boy oh boy am i looking forward to that...

i have some trips lined up ahead and am definitely looking to fulfill the true meaning of summer vacation...

ps2 reunion is still on guys- shall we begin to plan?

Monday, June 21, 2004

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 23:09:24 GMT

i'm a Kantian and i believe in karma