Dear Xanga,

Today I think of her and I'm dreaming about a feeling I thought no one else had. I'm sorry but I've fallen in love with an angel. It was perfect timing, it was her purpose, and somehow I can't stop, she left me this feeling to myself, help me not be blind but to be thankful. I know its something to get through but she makes me happy. Allow me to get through it without loss but a gain.

Give me streagth so I can move on. Help me, I'm lost without her and I'm consumed by her. I want to let go but it's getting harder eachday. I'm willing to accept loss but also allow me to accept pain.. because I can't stand it.. You made her perfect for me but not for her. Allow me to accept because everything is more important in the end. Unblind me.

The Long Run

So I read this article in Time today..

This guy..lol.. his name is Dean Karnazes, and he's an ultramarathoner.. and I was like whats a ultramarathoner? a guy who runs more than a marathon runner? and I kept reading.. haha this guy runs 50 miles a day! and his longest run was 262 miles! I mean.. wow.. is he some sort of forest gump!!? it would take him 75 hrs!! how can anyone run without sleep? you must be physically freaky! how can that be? thats worse than David Blane and his 37-hr standing.. seriously.. you are running for 3 days straight.. how can your body take that.. especially your joints!.. a lotta wear and tear I would say.. but this guy's build is not like a marathoner, his frame is rock solid.. from all that cross-training. as I read further I found myself weak to the legs as I fell to the ground about a women, Pamela Reed. She beat Karnazes in a 146-mile run through Death Valley on a summers day..  "It isn't the power that comes into play, it's your ability to go long distance. Ultramarathoners eventually burn fat. and women have a higher percentage of body fat than men do, giving them more endurance. They also benefit from the hormone estrogen, which may act like an antioxidant, protecting their mucles from breakdown."...whoa.. at this point sooo many things are going through my mind. so for all you girls out there.. having endurance is an advantage against men.. k.. "I've pushed the envelope with regard to pain threshold, the psychological elements that play into running those kinds of distances,"-Dean

I'm thinking to myself.. dang.. I thought 40 miles was distance.. and I've never done 15 miles.. I think the most I've ever done in my life was 13.. and thats tough.. I was out for 2 days.. but hey.. This article has motivated me. It told me that the body can go further than what you think.. Its saying that your body can push itself as far as you can push your mind. So if you have a strong mind you can go the distance.

I feel like running today.. k lets do it! 6 miles today! then 15.. 20.. 30 then 50! and so on.. psh yea right... I'll do 50 miles when I have time.. maybe next summer    

Edit.

He has ran 350 miles at once.. lol..

B&N

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haha, Like my poem?
My Professor wants us to write a Sonnet tho.. its going to be hard.. I'm not in a poem writing mood like I used to be. When I'm done with my Sonnet I promise it will be posted