i made a new xanga...its exactly the same actually just different name. it's http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=BeautyInThe_b_r_e_a_k_d_o_w_n

i like it...lol anyways...yea thats it actually.

i added a song to my xanga...sex and candy by marcy playground. i remmeber when i heard this song when i was like 6 or sumthin and i was like OMG THEY SAID SEX! haha but i still enjoy this song...its really nice. you should listen to it. lol

oh how things change..

today=another awesome day. until track...oh my lord. but anyways..

1st-found out our grades in geometry. man, me n mandie thought we were doin pretty hot in that class....turns out we're not...haha 2nd-in dance we totally rocked out to backstreet boys hardcore. haha it was really weird, but everyone was getting along and ms. d was being awesome and we were all just dancing together and goofing around and it was just one of those moments where ur like god, i really love these people. i dk if anybody else gets those, but where you act stupid and u just don't care what anybody else thinks about you. it was amazing. 3rd-romeo and juliet. well lets see, she called on me to read a section...and just my luck, the page it was on was completely torn out of the book. cool huh? so yea i had to borrow zack's. w/e i hate language arts. 4th-w/p was ok i guess. nothing special. brandy gave me a ring pop! thanks girl!xoxo 5th-biology was kinda fun today. we got to inspect mr. allen and his wife's shoes haha it was fun...u had to be there. 6th-spanish is always fun now since me n brandy are friends! except this kid zack threw paper at me and i was like wtf? so i threw it back at him and of course senora webb saw when i did it so i got in trouble...thanks dude...

after school i went to track. don't even wanna talk about it. im so disappointed in myself its not even funny. so i came home and went running a lot and did a whole work-out thing. i dk when im mad i get the urge to work out.  after that i went driving w/ steph and grant. im way better now! then we came back and ate dinner and i hung around here for a while then trevor came over. i was in such a bad mood and so unhappy but of course trevor came and made things better. he has a way of making me happy no matter whats wrong. it's so awesome...he's the only one who can make me totally forget about anything bad going on. i love you trevor.

brandy--thanks for the talk tonight. i'll have to sit that boy down n have a lil chat...hahaha you're so awesome...can't wait till summer. it will be quite an experience lol xoxoxo

well i gotta wake up at 8 so i must be going.

goodnight love.

i'd have to admit, today was a pretty good day. my friends made me laugh, i got to spend time w/ trevor, i didn't have too much work at school, i easily got out of track practice early*haha stephanie...* i dk. everyone just seemed like they were in a good mood today...so that makes me happier.

1st-geometry-boring as all. at least i understand whats goin on right now tho...i've been talkin to mandie tho and shes really sweet!!2nd-dance-worked on erica's piece. its coming along really well. i cant help but crack up at the beginning when i look at angela...i just think aobut the whole *light as a feather* thing...(u'd have to be there to understand...)3rd-romeo and juliet-ate half my lunch then went to sleep..haha. 4th-w/p. same old. 5th-biology-finished all my h.w. so i could study for that dance quiz tomorrow that ihavent studied for...lunch was really fun today. i dk we were all acting crazy and me n adele were like crying from laughing so hard. yea guys, u no u loved my turtle impression..haha 6th-spanish-it was fun. always is. im glad i sit next to brandy now! shes awesome!!

track-def. got out early. it was fun. came home. trevor came over, left around 8. i ate dinner and "studied"

aww trevor makes me so happy. i dk what i'd do w/out ihm at this point in my life...bc hes basically what keeps me goin each day. i love him for that.

im worried about lauren. i tried callng her house several times and the line is busy i dk whats goin on. but i love her and i hope shes doin ok...

now i gotta go to bed. goodnight.

so things have been going more and more downhill lately. i thought things were changing...i thought i was totally out of my depressed stage. i thought things in life had really made an improvement...and they did for a while. but now, everything's just going right back to where it used to be.

p.s.-there will be less and less xanga entries. i'm going to start writing in my real journal again so i can say what i need to w/out ppl getting pissed and whatnot. the "doctor" said its good for me...w/e...