| 27th Jun, 2004
Sigh... It has been a long time since I last made an entry, partly because that stupid home computer wouldn't use broadband properly (p.s. never buy a Compaq!), and partly because the site was blocked in the boarding house, which is lame. Good thing someone found this proxy site that can go round the firewall. Yeah!
It is nearly the end of my school year. I still often wonder if I had made the right choice to leave SPCC (Colchester Royal Grammar School measures up to nothing in my eyes, and the town is as boring as HELL), even when I know I had to move on. I have met some new friends here, but I stay close to the other Hong Kong boarders, among them 2 other from SPCC: Yip On Chung from 5A, and Ng Psz Chung from 5C, 1 year above us. Let me assure you that I am still the same Laurence who left you lot to face the HKALE alone, because I still refuse to swear(!), but start saying things like "gay" or telling people they are "bent" (there this annoying Conservative Youth boarder who I can't resist calling gay), and enjoy feeling as righteous as possible, though being in an almost all-boys school, I got to know my "darker side" better, and I hope by faltering, each time I become stronger.
I have just finished my AS level exam. I chose an extra Chinese paper (which was v. easy) alongside my General Studies(useless), Bio, Chem (la ha ma, Mr. Cheung?), Maths, and Econ (phew!). The gay thing is that while most of us gets their holiday, we have lessons until the 20th July! No other school does that as far as I know, you lucky rats! :P
I have returned during both Christmas and Easter, when I saw so many of you. I realised then just how much you all mean to me, even if I hardly speak to some of you (forgive me if I seem have been rude to some of you, I'm just no good with words). I feel much more Chinese than English, but I can't deny my heritage completely. I would love to have joined you on 1st July this year in the demonstration, but the school had to be that lame. 唉...
I suppose a lot of you already have somebody in mind you want to make special to yourselves. I feel quite the same. Unfortunately, English girls just don't suit me (that's good, isn't it?). I think my time has come. I only hope I am not to late and too distant (btw, I feel nothing for this country and really want to be back in HK). |
