Guess whos back back again. Jeffys back. Tell my friends. Yes im back, and its good to be back i guess.....dont know it is only the first day lol. Well to get some of u all up to speed after i graduated highschool and worked during the summer i went to Marine Corp boot camp. I was there from Oct to Jan 6th. After graduation i came home for ten days then went to MCT (Marine combat training) and was there from Jan 17- Feb 7 (today) and now im sitting in the USO in LA waiting for my flight to my MOS school (job school) in Camp Johnson North Carolina. Ill be there for about a month since my school is only 28 days then ill head back home and report into my base. Maybe ill go to Iraq and maybe not but either way im lovin it. I dont know if ill stay on this much, start a new xanga, or just quit again but for now im on and chillin. Well got about 4 hours till my midnight flight picks up so i may put up another one soon. Peace everyone and send me some coments k.

Devil Dog Lyles

Oh my fuckin god lmao. I dont know what it is but im so fuckin happy now. Life is going great and for the first time in my memory im really at peace and whole. God this feels good. I have the energy and the strength to do whatever i want in this life. I had this great awakening on saterday and now i cant stop seeing all the opertunities and the wonderful things of this world. Im ready in soul to take on this whole planet and win lol but i know i still have a long long way to go but this is so awsome. I hope that everyone one day finds this joy that i feel right now and the security and sense of worth that i have. Now ive got a plan and a dream that are within my reach and everything has a silver lining and im so happy and i feel like im gonna explode lol. Thx to everyone out there and if this is really wierd to u believe me its just as much of a supprise to u as it is to me. Peace everyone and take care of yourselves.

Jeff

Funny how shit can change in a heart beat and things are so wierd around here. Im not sure where to go from here or whats happening. I feel like im hurting but also like im healing and that things could get worse but they will get better. Its tough this life and even more crazy and unpredictable as well as confusing but i think i may just make it. For all the bs and fools in this world there is something beautiful and someone to care about. If i can make it through this year and out of school i think i can make it. To all my friends and the people i care about i send this: You are the ones that give me the motivation to get up every morning and face this world and give it the best i can for the day. You are the ones i care about and work my ass off to see happy because ur joy is my joy and to see u smile makes my day better. No matter what may be going on in my life at the time you are the ones that can make it right with the smallest gesture. A hug a smile a laugh a look it all can turn my day around and make it right. Thank u all for everything and for being there when i needed u. For listening when it didnt really matter for careing when u didnt have to and for looking out for me when i cant even look out for myself. Things have been hard and im sure they will only get worse from here but i think im ready for it and i know that u all will be in my heart to give me the strenght and courage i need for anything that may come at me. I gave up on a happy and joyfull life long ago but now i think its possible and may even be within my grasp if i only work a little harder and take the pain that i have to deal with now then later it will be gone. I dont know y i feel like this but i think its true and that i can grasp it. Im not going to let it slip away from me anymore and im not going to take it anymore. Its time i put my strength into something and get it the fuck done and i think today is the day to do it. Im gonna need help though and i hope that all of u will be there even when i fall back into the hard times and when im at my worst. its a long road to ho but im not gonna let it intimidate me any further. Its time to stand up and fight this. Its controled my life for the last 10 years and im not going to be a slave to it any longer. Thx for being there guys and i hope that u continue to be there.

Jeff