JenMarBar's Xanga

the cure

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 12:59:24 GMT

tis been awhile.

between you and me
it's hard to ever really know
who to trust
how to think
what to believe
between me and you
it's hard to ever really know
who to choose
how to feel
what to do

never fade
never die
you give me flowers of love

always fade
always die
i let fall flowers of blood

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 14:51:34 GMT

I'm dying in 20,467 days. Hank Flick told me so.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 20:02:17 GMT

will somebody refresh my memory?

what's the point again?

it's in your heart, it's in your art, your beauty.
even in this world of lies, there's purity,
you've got innocence in your eyes.
even in this world of lies, you're still hopeful.

the world is one hundred to one again.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 14:41:31 GMT

Love.

To be honest, I really have no idea what I am talking about.

I am so small in this world, and it really amazes me that I think I have the right to create such large thoughts and ideas.

-My mind races with all my longings
but can't keep up with what I got-

When it comes down to it, all I can sincerely do is to be thankful. Other than that, I am just wasting my time criticizing, critiquing, envying, hating, so on and so forth.

I awoke the other day and caught myself thinking ‘what is the point in not being happy?’ Yes, I know emotions make life a reality, but what is so wrong with seeking the positive and simple beauties in it?

-No matter what happens I won’t be afraid because I know today has been the most perfect day I’ve ever seen-

I have got right now to look forward to.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 09:41:00 GMT

"So you know how it is
Wake up feeling grey
Nothing much to think and nothing much to say
Don't want to talk don't want to try
Don't want to think don't want to know
Who what where when or why...

Oh but you do that and you're missing the world
Yeah it's happening right now whatever you heard
You have to get up get out and get gone!
You have to get up get out and get living"

Grace, not osmosis.

everyone needs saving.

im happy.

..and i love you.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 00:13:10 GMT

am i missing out?

or am i being spared future misfotune?

suppose it depends on my current outlook

the simple joys of Life are becoming increasingly evident. how silly i was to overlook them.

right now is, indeed, right now. and for some reason, i can't change that.

Love is quite a powerful emotion. it does not recieve near enough credit. from myself, in particular.

sad truths should most definately be forgotten.

thank you for the memory lapse, Jesus.

i finally caught a glimpse of myself

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Sat, 13 May 2006 13:29:46 GMT

I talk to myself.

I practice my voice.

I recite my speech.

I rehearse my encounters.

I plan my thoughts.

Everything is choreographed.

Nothing is original.

Same goes to you.

And your mother.

We live in a written world.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 18:59:52 GMT

Pity. Disappointment. Lost Dreams. Broken Spirits. Alone In Thoughts. Unanswered Prayers. Unfulfilled Promises. Dead Weight Acquaintances. Resentment. Envy. Loss Of Hope. Start Of Turmoil. Inability To Feel. No Point. No Purpose. No Rhyme. No Reason.

The devil is a liar.

i am walking again.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 16:51:32 GMT

I wish it was all true
I wish it couldn't be a story
The words all left me
Lifeless
Hoping
Breathing like the drowning man

summer is almost here.state tests are bogus.competition is never any fun.regrets will always come and must be handled immediately.mood swings are highly unattractive.whoever said secular music was bad anyway.try to smile as they devour our youth.falling in love would be nice.it's all gonna break.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 23:20:49 GMT

i've figured that my life is a true oxymoron; each fiber contradicting itself.

my spine will soon break if i open my cover any wider. the words are there for the privelaged eyes, yet the foolish use the pages to start a fire.

i deserve an acadamey award.

give me flowers and i'll love you forever.

>i wish i was bulletproof<