wow can we talk about a world-wind effect in my life right now. school is going great...i'm really enjoying every moment of it...even though i should be studying more and reading more and keeping up on my work...i have enjoyed the freedom of college and what not...not enjoying that profs just throw stuff at you and i don't have a clue what i am doing sometimes and i hate that...but that is me getting out of my comfort zone and asking for help... changing into this stage of life has made me grow up more than ever and i'm begining to realize that some people aroud me are either growing up or becoming less mature. hm i guess there are somethings that will never change...its finally that point where the people around you are going to be around you for a while. so you have to choose the people that you wanna be with very carefully becasue they will become you and you them. i have come to find out that people that i once thought friends only tear me down. you would think that them being...well them they would bring you up as a friend. but when ever i am around them they just bring me down and put me down and just aren't the kind of people that i need to be surrounded by...this is a very hard thing for me to realize seeing that i once wanted to be part of it all.... but you know what is even more amazing...? camp friends. i am so thankful that God brought me to camp these past few years...i have grown and met some of the most amazing people. its awesome cuz at church last night i saw some camp people that i haven't seen for a couple weeks...when we see each other and talk its as no time has come between us. its awesome and i love that and i love Jesus for giving me those relationships. i don't know...God is totally showing me that he is all that i need right now. i don;t need the worlds approval for all that i do and i don't need to lower myself just to feel accepted. this is something that is really on my heart and mind and for sure a learning time for me.... Shariah leaves in the morning for El Salvador...pray for her i love my family.i love my mom and my dad.i'm so thankful for the way i was brought up and taught to love everyone even though we might have differences i love that...i love that i am able to speak my mind to my parents and let them know how i feel about things. i love that my family loves Jesus with all that they are.... and so i sit...here in starbucks...in this town i once thought i hated and now i'm begining to love. God is working i can feel it...you just need faith and Jesus all i ask is for you to pray... thats all | 
