Wow…finished reading back through my blog history…talk about your ups and downs…roller coaster of a life…all based on my own decisions and choices…and I have learned to live with the outcomes because hey…that’s what grown ups do!

Back to work after the Remembrance Day holiday up here yesterday…we were one of the few places actually open today…and what did we have to show for it?  Not a lot of traffic…got a bit of catch up done, which is nice…tomorrow should see an increase in people (I’m better most people thought we were closed since the holiday was Sunday…but since we are open 7 days a week, we closed Sunday instead!)  I never in a million years thought I would ever be selling Insurance…actually…I think that’s around the same thing Ducky said to me when I told her about this job…”You…selling Insurance?  Never would have guessed that’s something you wanted to do.”  To be honest, it never was…not even after I started the job…it was originally something I started as a means to an end…it was to be a job not a career…something I could do to  maintain income while living here on the coast, since Ryan would be here…heaven only knows I didn’t want to attempt a long distance relationship after living with him for almost 2 years…that would not have been pretty (nor would I have been happy…but I digress) Now…it’s something that I am truly enjoying! I’ve actually begun to love what I’m doing…the differences between home insurance, auto insurance, travel insurance…learning something new every day…new challenges…it’s amazing!  I’ve moved from something I thought would just be a job…but now…it’s something that I see being a career.  I’m working on obtaining my CAIB designation…it’s a series of 4 exams (I’m on the 2nd one…and it’s a doozie!) and when I’m done, I’ll get to put the initials CAIB after my name on my business cards!  It’s a huge accomplishment and I’m really looking forward to being done (aiming for May 2013)

Our dogs are as sweet as ever…Mayhem is still a little stinker – always testing boundaries and seeing what she can get away with.  Chaos is just sweet and loving…always wants to be with us…in fact he was just sitting with me on the couch as I type…until Ryan called him over for a treat. I love coming home to someone (or something) that loves me unconditionally…and the greeting we get is just priceless…lots of roo roo roos and grrrring and happy to see me tail wags.

Well…it’s time to have a very late dinner…that’s what happens in our house when my husband works a night shift the night before and I work the closing shift at work…dinner happens late…except for the dogs…go figure!

Later Gators!

Cheers,

Nisey

Wow.  Time has flown by…and I…well I haven’t really been around (ok…honesty time here…I forgot about Xanga till I saw the stupid charge on my MasterCard for my premium service…and figured…hey…either use it or cancel it…don’t pay for something you’re ignoring!)

Where to begin!?!  So much has happened since my last entry in 2009.  I had just started dating a wonderful man named Ryan…working at the Home Depot…living at Dad’s…to where I am now.

Ryan and I got married in March of this year…we are proud parents to our two Golden Retrievers Chaos (who is 2) and Mayhem (who is 1) and we live in Roberts Creek, BC (read: Middle of nowhere!!)  Ryan works at the local hospital as an RPN (mental health) and I work as a customer service representative at a local insurance office (yes…that’s right…I sell insurance.  Whodathunk!?) Just got back 2 weeks ago from our delayed honeymoon to Mexico (AWESOME!!) and are settling back in to winter/end of fall…and the desire to start a family of our own!!

I spent tonight reading back through my past blogs (and Ducky’s past blogs) and wondering to myself if I would have ever guessed I’d be here, at this point in my life, from where I was back then.  I’ve been through death, tragedy, happiness, joy, sorrow, abuse…the list goes on.  Never thought I would have made it back to a point where I actually recognized that portion of myself who I thought, through all my experiences, I lost…and yet…here she is.  I have grown, changed, matured (and immatured!) into a woman who I am actually proud of.  I’ve gained friends, lost “friends” (I use that term loosely in some cases) and garnered a whole new respect for those who have been with me through it all…even when I was not a very nice person.  You have all made quite the mark on this girl…and I am truly thankful…and humbled.

I still don’t sleep all that well when I’m home alone at night…gotta love night shifts! Still enjoy singing at Karaoke every now and again…still love me some good tv…and football…and yes…racing (although I don’t watch it often…dear hubby doesn’t quite get it…he’ll learn)

The posts that got me the most were the ones where I would talk about my future spouse…and the unconditional love…that “I love you no matter what”…that feeling when you are just over the moon for someone…and I thank God that He brought a man like Ryan into my life…and gave me the courage to ask him out that day!  Never in a million years would I have ever expected that the one person that “stuck” in my heart from the day we first met would be the one that God had intended for me.  Certainly knows what He is doing now doesn’t he!?!

I’m sure there is much that has happened in my life that I should probably update this with…but at this point…I’ve said all I’ve wanted.  Going to try and ease my way back into this…because I really did enjoy doing it…and I hope you all enjoyed reading it (whomever might still be left!)

Know that I love you all forever and a day…and that He is faithful in all things!

Cheers,

Nisey

I had this whole post typed out…lots of random, annoying things to say…and I just deleted it.  I don’t really need to put them all down for everyone to see…more than anything, I think I just had to get them out so I could read them.  Funny how that’s sometimes the best way to gain perspective on things, hey?

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything…and there are many a reason for that…for now, a small re-cap of the latest:

Work is good…got promoted a few weeks ago…I have a desk and I love it!!   It’s a challenging position, and I’m finding myself learning more and more the deeper I sink my teeth into it.   Can hardly wait to see what’s next!!!

Life is going really well…learning lots about relationships and the give and take they require…sharing your life with someone does take some adjusting to…but it’s oh so worth every bit of it.   We leave for Biloxi on the 15th of June…going to visit the family…and we are looking forward to the vacation!!

Other than that, there really isn’t much else to share…I’ve learned some valuable lessons these last few months…it’s amazing how much growing you can do in a short time…never ceases to amaze me…and makes me extremely thankful for those that are teaching me along my path.  Sometimes I find myself looking in a mirror…and for a split second, I see a part of my mom staring back at me…and it makes me so happy to know that she would be so proud to see me where I’m at…I truly have been blessed.

Well…that’s about it for now I suppose…going to try and get some sleep…5am comes early!!

Later Gators!

Love ya!

Cheers,
Nisey

And yet here I sit, not knowing how I feel like saying it.  Somedays I wish I could just open a book and read all the thoughts running around my mind instead of having them bounce around like ping pong balls!  There’s always so much going on in my brain…and today I’m having a hard time settling it down.  *sigh* Go figure!?!  Could have something to do with the fact that I’ve just had two days off work and I haven’t done a lot…or it just could be that I need to just sit down and organize my thoughts…I’m leaning towards the later.

It’s not like I have anything to worry about…I have been more than blessed with an amazing life…and what will happen in my future will take care of itself…for once I’m more than willing to just be a part of life rather than try and plan every last moment of it.  My family is great…everyone is happy…there’s really only one thing I would change given the chance…but it’s not something I can control, so I have to let it go. 

And yet…100mph and climbing.

Kind of funny the way my mind works I suppose…I get so caught up in my own little world sometimes that I forget that there’s another going on around me…you know…I bet that’s just what’s going on.  Taking a moment to remind myself that there is a whole other world going on around me…and that my little world is just a small part of it.  Rather humbling to remember that…this may be my world…but in reality, it’s only a part of something much greater…I’M only a part of something much greater.  *sigh* How good it is!!

I feel so…fulfilled…content…irrationably happy (LOL )

Who knew?!?!

Love you!

Later Gators!

Cheers,
Nisey

Sitting here, at home…listening to Nickel Creek. There’s this…thought…running through my head.  It’s kind of foggy (which I blame on the fact that I’m still running a fever) not terribly organized…and yet…it’s there.  Taunting me…calling to me…begging me to come and get lost in it…and I find myself hesitant.  I’ve never been one to avoid getting lost in my thoughts…it’s something I’m prone to I suppose…to sitting and thinking and sorting out all the wonderful (and sometimes down right insane) things that roll around my brain…but this one…I’m not ready to just give over to it…not yet. 

It’s funny…because it’s not a thought that is just mine.  I suppose it’s been raised by the similar thoughts of others, which could explain why I’m just not able to fully emerse myself – it doesn’t feel like it’s really MY thought.  And yet…oh and yet…there is this little part of me that with each passing day, grows bigger with anticipation of being allowed to dive in…head first.  At first, I didn’t have much trouble in convincing it to just wait…be patient.  But it’s getting harder to do.  Probably because I’ve never really been one to tell myself that before…repeatedly…and listened!! HAHAHA!

*sigh* I don’t know…sometimes I just want to let go…fall gracefully into whatever it is that is ahead…(ha…me…gracefull…that’ll be the day!) but I know that I’m not ready to do that yet…someday…yes…but now…now I listen to myself…and just…wait.  Do not be anxious in anything…and to everything there is a season.  A time and a place…just not today.

Today I just am…quietly…contentedly…peacefully…me.

Later Gators!

Love you!

Cheers,
Nisey

What else is new for Vancouver in November hey? LOL

Today is Rememberance Day here…a day to reflect on the sacrifice of those who have fought for our freedom.  Having family and friends who have been part of the military, it kind of just hits you differently.  What if it was them who were out there?  What if it was my family waiting for news?  I couldn’t imagine being in that situation sometimes…and yet, oh how close I came. *sigh* Makes you truly greatful for those who have gone before and those who are still going…

So what else is new?  Lots and nothing all at the same time.  Work is good, friends are good…just taking it a day at a time really…which is all you really can do I suppose.  I’m really happy where I’m at…in all aspects…which actually has me not wanting to move around anymore (who knew that was even possible!?!?! ) I actually feel pretty settled…not sure when or how that came about…kinda snuck up and bit me I suppose…but, as with most everything, doesn’t it always!?!

Hung out with everyone last night…we played Quelf…man do I ever love that game!  Makes you do stupid things (serves you right Captain Poopy Pants!) but it’s awesome none the less.  It’s always nice spending time with the people you care about…even better when that time is spent laughing so hard your ribs hurt the next day!!

I wish I had some more insightful things to say…but I fear the rain has managed to trickle into my brain and short out the wires! *snicker*  so I’m going to end this here…Mo and I are headed out shopping today…must find appropriate outfit for our big fancy dinner in Harrison on the 22.  We’re all going to do dinner and dancing at the Copper Room…should be awesome!! Champagne anyone?

Love you!

Later Gators!

Cheers,
Nisey

I’m taking a little mental break from cleaning my house so I thought I’d post a little update about what’s been going on…and it will be little…still have stuff to do tonight besides my house…and I have to work tomorrow…so in a time crunch!

Life is really great!  Work is amazing, friends are great…I’ve got stupid perma-grin on my face because I couldn’t ask for things to be any better! I think I’ve finally hit that place I’ve always been aiming for…Thank the Good Lord above for that!

Well…That’s really it for now.  Laundry and dishes (BLECH) are calling my name…and I left a candle on downstairs! YIKES!

Happy Hallowe’en everyone!! 

Later Gators!

Love you!

Cheers,
Nisey

due to my stupid twisted pelvis…yes that’s right…you heard me…a twisted pelvis…which apparently is permanently mine and will decide to go “out” whenever it feels the need to cause me pain…*sigh* This blows.  I’ve been feeling a little sore for a few days now and this morning when I got up it just hit me like a ton of bricks…so I went to work for 2 hours, realized I couldn’t make it through the 8 hours I was supposed to be there, called the chiropractor, made an appointment, freaking management out because they thought it was work related (so not the case) left, got “cracked” and am now home relaxing with an ice pack and a heating pad (alternating of course…there’s no use doing them both at the same time! HAHAHA!!)

This just doesn’t seem to be my “week” you know?  The breathing issues, now the back…and yet…I’m still smiling…hmmm…wonder why?!? It’s because through everything I know I’m ok…blessed and lucky…and most importantly, loved.

Ok…and I’m leaving for Biloxi and Houston in like, 28 days or something crazy like that…that helps…A LOT! (No…I’m not excited to go back at all am I?!?! LOL )

I’m SO looking forward to this trip…to seeing my friends and family…whom I miss so very much…getting out of this dreary weather we’re having (it’s cold and misting rain and grey and just BLECH) and just relaxing, and having some good ol’ downhome fun! Cookout anyone!?!   Who knows!?!  Maybe I’ll even get lucky and actually win something at a casino while I’m there!?! HA! That’ll be the day…*rolls eyes*

Alrighty…I’m going to head off this blasted thing…it’s not often I get the time to actually update this in the middle of the day so I thought I’d grab the opportunity!

Later Gators!

Love you!

Cheers,
Nisey

Well here I sit…on Dad’s computer…listening to the Richmond Race via MRN online because no one up here is showing the race!  It was postponed till today due to Tropical Storm Hanna…blasted tropical weather!! It’s just one storm after another right now…first Gustav, than Hanna…now we’re watching Ike, praying it doesn’t actually follow it’s forcasted path (but are we really going to be that lucky?!?)  It’s hard to explain to those who don’t have any interest in the Gulf Coast just why people still live in the paths of these monster storms.  The way of life down there is something that you cannot find anywhere else…it’s so special…unique…it gets in your blood and just doesn’t get out.  But I really don’t want to say much else about it…seems like everytime I defend that aspect of my life, things just get worse…and it’s such a shame…there are so many close-minded people who cannot look past their own experiences and their own comfort zones.  *sigh*

ANYWHO…I’ve enjoyed my weekend…they are never long enough…but they are quite nice!! Had my review at work…things went well so I’m happy…well…I’m happy with my job, happy with where I work…not so happy with the way it seems to be affecting my health.  Being asthmatic, my lungs like to react to things like dust and dirt…I’m beginning to feel the affects of the work environment on my breathing.  So it’s off to the doctor to see about getting a new puffer to try and combat some issues…I’m hoping that it works…becuase I’d hate to have to leave citing health reasons…not what I’m wanting to do, you know?  Especially when I love being there so much.  *sigh* But that’s just me putting the cart before the horse again…one step at a time and we shall see how things go, right?

Well…there really isn’t much else for me to blog about right now…I’m missing my friends and family down South…4 more weeks till I get to see them…so long as the airports don’t get blown away!! LOL  

Later Gators!

Love you!

Cheers,
Nisey

Wow…it’s been 2 ish months…and besides me working at the Depot and now serving at a local bar two nights a week (yes…I have another *job*) I’ve been really crazy busy!  Loving my job at the Depot…I have my first review coming up this week…a tad nervous but I’m confident that I’ve been doing a good job…at least, I haven’t heard that I’m sucking so that’s a plus, right!?! LOL

Hmmm…what else…OH! So the serving job…it’s mostly to help out one of my best friends…she manages a lounge/bar in Maple Ridge…they get SUPER busy for Improv night (Wednesdays) and now they’ll have Live Music Fridays starting this week, so I jump in a run around…I have a blast, make a little extra $$ and learn a new trade!! HA!  I always wanted to work in a bar!! (PS: The Beast Public House at the Maple Ridge Best Western – Lougheed Highway and 216th in Maple Ridge, BC  COME ON OUT! *sigh* shameless plug*)

Just over a month or so and Dad and I will be on a plane down South…I am SO looking forward to this trip…I miss my friends and family and know that it’s going to be really hard to come back up here when I get to spend two weeks at “home”…but I love where I’m at right now…LOVE my job (who knew I would relish being back in the sales field!?!) and will make sure to have my behind on that plane to come back.  As much as I know I want to go back, it just doesn’t feel like the right time right now, you know?  There’s so much more to learn and accomplish where I’m at that it just would be selling myself and those around me short to pick up and leave.  So…I stay, settled in here in British Columbia for what will be a significant period of time…and I’m ok with that!! LOL

Other than all that, not much else…just living, loving, and laughing!!

That’s it from me for now…I’ll write more when I get the urge/moment/chance!!

Love you!

Later Gators!

Cheers,
Nisey