| is anyone out there???????? lol no one reads my xanga  |
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| wow..i messed up..i've never had someone so mad at me before..to the point its just incoherent screaming. and i'm not upset about that person being so mad at me. i don't even care he's that mad at me. i only am upset cuz i think he'll make it so my friend isn't friends with me anymore..i knew iwas taking that risk..why did i do it? i just messed up sobad..i was all she had left... |
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| everything is going by so slow. but last night i had fun with leah we hung out and played video games with her brother and then we got donuts, fun stuff. i like hanging out with different people. today is the fourth and leah and allie are coming over. we'll just hang out i guess...nothing really special just do our thing. we're fun people so its all good haha. drama is still going on, whats new huh? i wish sometimes i could be like those people who just let other people do shit and not care becuase it doesn't involve them..but i can't sit back and watch my friends hurt themselves....
they're selling a house a few houses down from mine, and i have decided who the perfect guy is and he's moving in there lmao. it wont happen but whatever. he would be confident, not cocky though. its like he doesn't need to talk about himeself cuz he's so secure with who he is. and he doesn't always need to be talking about other people. and of course the pulp fiction factor of comfortable silences. ("why do feel its necessary to yack about bull shit to feel comfortable..thats when you know you've found someone special when you can just shut the fuck up for a minute" - mia, pulp fiction)
lately i've found myself with friends and thinking "i just wish i was alone" then when i'm alone i'm not happy with that. and i realize i don't want to be alone i just want to be comfortable enough with someone to where we can be quiet and hang out and if we have nothing to say its ok we can just shut up and be comfortable and if we have something important to say then we'll talk..either way we're completely comfortable and it doesn't matter...i haven't found that yet..in any sort of relationship |
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| enthusiactic- adjective: (en-thooz/e-act-tic) the descpition of a feeling a step beyond enthusiastic when that just won't do; can also be used as a way to propel your self forward
p.s
i love tori :D, she's so crecent fresh! |
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| i'm so sick of working. i just want to quit and sit on my ass all day and get fat haha. this summer vacation is shitty lol. my two days off weren't much of a days off..but thats ok. it could be worse...it will get worse anyway once i stop ignoring that stupid summer assignment. i hate those. its like they assume just because you're in honors english that you wouldn't know what do with yourself during break if you didn't have school work assigned to you. fuck bv. bleh i'm just in a bad mood |
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