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| hey ya'll  so i have three weeks of school left from today. it's such a weird feeling. i can't even describe the relief i'm going to feel when i finally get out of this place. i can't wait. needless to say, these last three weeks will probably drag on.  I'm trying to keep a positive attitude though. everytime i start to feel depressed...which is pretty much all day.. i just say a little prayer. so far things have been going better. i just can't let myself get to that point where i am feeling so sorry for myself that i can't do anything but lay around and mope and believe me, i've been there many times this year. i am the queen of loooong naps, thats what gets me through the day...sleep. david told me that there is nothing i can change about the situation, and all that i can control is my attitude, so i might as well be positive about it. he knows when i need a kick in the butt- he's good for me. anyway, i'm attempting to "go out and have fun" tonight so we'll see how that goes  i'm going out to carabbas tonight with my cross country girls and i haven't seen them in FOREVER. so i actually am really really excited about that part! and then i'm going to see guys & dolls with them after dinner. so all in all, it'll be a good night. then tomorrow i'm going to get up early and go to Cafe coco and get some much-needed studying done. then i have a meeting for my group project at 1, and then i'm going to the CMT awards rehearsal tomorrow night  then the cmt awards are monday! so thats some exciting stuff coming up. anways, i'm out of here to go finish getting ready. lots of love!! some people aren't lucky like us. some people they just give up. when the hard times fall, the thrill of it all is gone it leaves you in a cloud of dust. its sad to think that some won't find it. others won't recognize it even when it comes. we're all at the mercy of the will of love. some people aren't lucky like us. | | |
| if only i'd have known that later down the road. i'd look back and not like what i see. then i'd have changed a lot of things, starting with me. -jake owen. i love him. weeeeelll i'm just hanging in my dorm, i'm going to napier to teach here in a little bit. i miss my kiddos, i haven't seen them in a while. class was okay today, pretty darn boring if you ask me. i was trying to look at the professor and let him know that i was paying attention because no one else was and i felt bad. he was trying...he was just very very boring. let's see, tomorrow rach is coming! and i think we are going to stay here tonight and then head down to georgia on friday after my 8 am and 9 am classes. so that will be wonderful. i'm excited to be back at camp again, i love it there...more than anywhere i've been in a long time. its so beautiful. i just love the mountains. the group thats coming this weekend is a father daughter group so that will be fun. nothing better than dad's that want to spend time with their daughters...amazing well hm. i had lots of fun at mimi and big daddy's last weekend. david's family is adorable. love em all. well what else is new? oh david is mad at me as of last night. we actually went to bed mad which never happens! well he went to bed mad, i wasn't mad. but i said something not very nice and i deserved it. so we'll have to get that cleared up today. lol i'm an idiot. anyways its time for me to go tanning and then go teach! and then a run, and then i have to work on my speech. ya'll have a good day! , jennifer. i want to break every clock. the hands of time could never move again. we could stay in this moment for the rest of our lives. is it over now hey, is it over now? i want to be your last first kiss that you'll ever have. amazing how life turns out the way that it does. we end up hurting the worst the only ones we really love.- anberlin baybeeee | | |
| hey there friends no one reads xanga anymore but it doesnt bother me much because i still like to write in it. especially when i am avoiding ten page papers and other difficult college business. so i just read david waite's xanga and it was hilarious. so if you read this go to www.xanga.com/cowboydan. he has lots of good insight on life. anyways we had a really nice time the other night, and i love meeting him in the middle.that's all i can say about that because i'm not supposed to be driving my car, so just kidding i didn't meet him in the middle of nashville and georgia. he makes me laugh which is the best thing ever. right now he's growing his buzz cut out and he has this little kid hair from being sick and sleeping all the time. its hilarious. sometimes i just look at him and i laugh. not because he's funny looking, just because he cracks me up. anyways enough about david he's gay! right now i'm having a hard time being focused and finding my purpose. i just feel like wandering around and being restless, and school is not what i want to be doing. i'm sure everyone feels like that pretty often so i'm not too worried about it. i'm really look forward to a nice, relaxing year of Sinclair and a job working at a daycare or something. i really can't wait! and camp higland is going to be so amazing! i can't wait to meet all of the kids, i just love kids. i have lots of love to share. WELL, its time to eat dinner with rachel & liz and then start on some serious work! i love you all! | | |
| hey ya'll i'm putting off writing a paper for world history. has anyone heard the country version of lips of an angel? its the worst. sooo hm. spring break is in like a week and a half, i have two appointments to meet with admissions counselors/volleyball coaches, so we'll see how that goes. hopefully well. david is coming tomorrow, or friday. not sure which one yet. i'm pretty tired because i had 4 miles this morning, and 5 this afternoon. wore me out. but tomorrow i only have 4 so that will be a nice break. i'm looking forward to this year being over! lol. i can't wait for camp this summer, God is just preparing my heart for it already and i really feel like its exactly where he wants me to be, which is an amazing feeling. well, i need to go get my laundry out of the dryer! talk to ya'll later !! -jenn The closer I come to you, the closer I am to finding God. You are a miracle to me."-Anberlin. | | |
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i am so excited to be writing in my xanga :) i know that no one reads this and that is perfectly fine with me, but i miss it & it's a good way to let my feelings out! haha. plus i like to go back and read these and remember what i did for the past two years! so let's see..what's new. um i go to belmont now, it's in nashville. i thought i would like it a lot, but it turns out that i don't. but i'm going to stick it out this year and probably for the next 3 years as well, just because i feel like i need too. also, i am running cross country here and i absolutely love it! i've never been more challenged in my whole life but it's definitely a good thing, because i'm seeing all kinds of good things that are coming from it. i brought my 5k time down like 2 minutes and 30 seconds since high school, so that's a plus! not to mention, all the girls that i run with are amazing. i love them. hm let's see..things with david are really good! we are really good friends now and i loooove talking to him and yep its pretty much just amazing. so we'll see what happens with that. this morning i had an 8 mile long run at like 7 something, so everyone could get done with it in time for church, so of course being the gay person that i am i just came back to my dorm, showered, and slept until 4. woooah. then i got up, had some dinner with brit, and now i'm in the library. i have to stay until 11 so i can get my hours in. no fun. anyways i need to go because i have lots of homework to do! love ya'll. i'm thinking over the things that you've said... | | |
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